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2023.06.01 08:05 DrunkMunkNZ Withheld promotion at work - when do I call it a day?

With-held promotion, when do I call it a day?
So, post title kind of says it all.
I work in software design and support, and my day to day role is essentially that of a Technical/Solution Architect (due to a relatively small team, we wear many hats). I provide technical leadership for my team, and the buck stops with me in relation to technical design, future-proofing and ultimately audit findings for the systems in our remit.
I left the department as a Technical analyst a couple of years ago to move internally due to my then boss being a pain in the arse. Even though i got on with my extended team really well, my director likened it to a marriage gone bad, sometimes you have to cut losses! So I did.
After a year, a role became available in the team reporting to another manager. I jumped at the chance to go back, even though it was a demotion. I took a c. £5k pay cut to move back but was happy to be back in a role I enjoyed, with the opportunity to work for a manager I enjoyed working for.
Not long after I moved back, my old manager advised he was leaving and I kinda got promoted to take over his role with a new job title but no extra pay. I am now in a more senior role, with a lot more responsibility, still on 5k less than I was on before I rejoined the team.
The carrot has been dangled numerous times that I could get a promotion however, despite both my manger and director fighting my corner, the business won't progress it. I recently had a recruiter tell me that a role I was overly qualified for would give me a c. £30k pay increase. I love my job for the variety and tech I work with, and my extended team are amazing. If I left I would almost certainly make all their lives more stressful.. as I don't have an immediately available replacement. I feel guilty about wanting to leave when my manager and dir have been sl supportive of my career progression, but £30k more money would make a significant impact on my personal life and that of my family.
Should I call it quits and move on, or should I stay based on a promotion which may or may not eventuate?
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2023.06.01 08:05 gynolurker9000 Gyno surgery and experience - 1 day post operation - Braithwaite

Background: Currently mid 30s, 5'10 and 150 lbs , struggled with gyno for a good 10+years (acne/scarring is another issue but honestly does not bother me as much). Used to lift seriously (weight 200+) but stopped in recent years. I never seriously considered gyno surgery as it is expensive and I felt that cutting out a portion of my tissue would somehow cause me to die much earlier so was never really motivated to pursue the surgery. I have tried stand alone cycles of SERMs (Nolva and Ralox) with varying results. Ultimately the gyno always came back even if there was some minor benefit from the cycles so I knew it was unsustainable in the long run.
I shopped around for quotes from the top rated mentioned surgeons on reddit and most of the quotes were really high ($10k-$16k...). I felt that my case was minor and didn't want to spend that much on something I wasn't that passionate about. I eventually came upon posts from others who have went with Dr. Braithwaite (Chicago) and was shocked that the price was so low (most quotes I seen were ~$2-3k range). The before/afters looked great so I went ahead and ended up getting a virtual consultation with Dr. Braithwaite and got a quote after a brief video call confirming my gyno ($3,200 total for gyno surgery + minor lipo; my cost is on the lower end as my case is not major). The main reason the surgery price is lower than most is because there is only local anesthesia administered. I had my consult mid March and was able to book my appointment for end of May. Overall out of pocket cost for me was the cost of my flights, one night hotel stay, and any public transport to and from the airport (I flew in to O'Hare, you can easily take public transport and walk if you want to save cash). I became ultra paranoid that someone was brush into me cause me to bleed internally so I ended up just taking Uber on the way back.
Office visit: I arrived early the day of surgery and waited until my surgery time slot to see the Dr. Based on his assessment, the Dr. indicated that he would also lipo a portion of my upper chest near my armpit as I had some irregular fat stores there (probably because I used to be much bigger).
The surgery itself was fine. The Dr. and his staff were very friendly. The most painful portion of the surgery was the initial shots to administer the local anesthesia, especially into sensitive tissue. All of the surgical work was done through the incisions made on my areola. The fat was first all scraped out to more easily separate the gland. The scraping was a bit uncomfortable especially as some of the fat taken near my armpit area was not fully numb but that was to be expected. The most mentally horrifying part of the surgery was the gland removal. The gland is removed and cauterized at the same time, so from a sensory perspective you can hear the revving of the cauterizer, smell your tissue being cooked from the cauterizer as it is also being carved from your body, and you can see the smoke (or vapor from the cauterizer) from your gland being burned. The combination caused me to freak out internally so I closed my eyes and focused on breathing through my mouth. Only other odd portions is sometimes you get shocked or slight burn from the cauterizer as the local anesthesia isn't perfect but if you are in pain the Dr. adjusts. The surgery was certainly not quick but overall I think it went smooth (not that I have any other experience). The resulting gland removal was pretty big for me relatively as my body is overall small. Not much fat was removed as I guess my chest before had a small amount of fat and gland in the worst positions to cause my chest to just look disgusting. Note that there are no drainage tubes here with as the thought process here is that the fluids will naturally dissipate over time and avoids the risk of drainage tubes/additional aspirations needed. Seromas forming is part of the healing process - I am not OCD and based on my reading of everyone's experiences, I understand I may have scar tissue or false alarms that the gland has come back, but in looking at my nipples I do not think there is much chance my glands can make a comeback unless I started blasting.
The follow up appointment was the next day to mainly see if there was any internal bleeding. I was very worried the night before as my armpit area became more bloody and filled with fluid, but the Dr. assured me that was normal from lipo and it was only filling because the compression vest was constricting the fluids. I ended up having some foam inserts added to the armpit area to attempt to alleviate the constriction from my armpit area.
Results: The before photo is the morning before the operation. The after photo is the day after. Most important things to note from the after photo is that my bottom chest looks indented because that is where the compression vest is most compacted/ends. Also the chest right above the indent is actually filled with fluid- that isn't my actual pec (I am swollen, not swole). I am confident this will even out once the fluid disappears as based on even the current look, I should be able to wear anything I want once I heal so I'm not worried if there is a small imperfection that may remain after all is said and done. I just want to heal as fast as possible and not get caught up in the details before the process finishes. I trust the process and know that healing will take months. The look of my areolas is already a night and day difference
Feel free to ask me any questions, I have still yet to process what a change this is but I am already pretty sure this is going to be one of the best things I have ever done for myself. There simply isn't a better price point for quality that I am aware of for a US gyno specialist. Right now my main concern is to avoid getting any hematomas because dealing with that would be too stressful, so I am trying to avoid going outside and just taking it easy for the next week.
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2023.06.01 08:05 lunaboro Asking for a raise 6 months after a raise?

Hi there!
I started working with a company last year. My manager left just 2 weeks after, so I’ve been on my own since. I essentially have been handling two peoples jobs. After 6 months, they promoted me one step up — but not to manager as they said no one has ever moved up that fast and wouldn’t allow it. It came with a $10,500 raise. They first offered me $9,000, but $10,500 additional was the most they gave when I countered.
I have a review in July — and I really want to ask for a boost again. Is this … not appropriate? I have still been on my own since then lol. Two peoples jobs! I also have pulled analytics to show growth I have created in the second half of the year when I was there, vs the first half when I wasn’t — some with increase of 300-500%. I also pulled data from the first year with me, vs the year before without me, and there is plenty of similar data showing increases in 200-500% range.
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2023.06.01 08:04 letsjumpintheocean Anyone re-use the tins for anything?

We aren’t EFF, but I’ve been saving the formula cans in case we can use them for something. I’m imagining it could be useful to have sealable, uniform containers for something.
But what? I’m not sure yet. We have less than 10, and the kid only has a couple more months of bottle feeding left, so it’s not a hoarding situation.
Just wondering if anyone has repurposed them for anything?
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2023.06.01 08:03 Explorer1025 Friends with Benefits Emphasis on Friends

Hello, I am painfully single and looking for someone to make it less so. I am hoping to find someone who wants to share some benefits, but also will be a decent friend too.
I’m 31, white, six feet tall, with a few extra pounds, and a great beard. I have a college degree, swing left politically, and value integrity. I also enjoy edibles, good sex, museums, binging Netflix, and road trips.
I want to make sure your needs are met too. Teach me about your body. Tell me how you like it. Tell me if you want a day away. I am to please.
I’d love to chat more about it. I look forward to talking to you.
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2023.06.01 08:01 MediocreLifeMan Round ligament pain or an A&E trip?

16W here! Okay so yesterday I got pain on my right side where the baby is, anywhere from the part between my leg, groin and hip, through to my belly button. I keep getting off an on pain, like a pulsating dull ache in a random particular spot that lasts a second or two, then repeats every minute or two for about 10 minutes. It happened yesterday at lunch, last night at midnight and today. Turning sharply makes it worse and sitting in some positions and things like lying on my belly make it almost completely go away. This is my first baby and I’m not sure who to call to ask; my midwives say “only call if you’re 20 weeks.” And I know my GP will say “I’m not a midwife call them.”
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2023.06.01 08:00 Turbostrider27 Loop8: Summer of Gods Review Thread

Game Information

Game Title: Loop8: Summer of Gods
Platforms:
Trailer:
Developer: Marvelous Inc.
Publisher: XSEED Games
Review Aggregator:
OpenCritic - 62 average - 30% recommended - 10 reviews

Critic Reviews

But Why Tho? - Abdul Ahmad - 4 / 10
While Loop8: Summer of Gods is a JRPG that has an interesting concept and some genuinely good features, the game is unfortunately bogged down with poor optimizations, questionable gameplay decisions, and a very painful combat system.
Final Weapon - Alex Patterson - 3 / 5
Loop8: Summer of Gods is a unique and memorable game that unfortunately falls victim to some severe balancing issues. Unfortunately, an intriguing world and likable characters are not enough to make this a great experience. While it may appeal to some, JRPG fans looking for a unique challenge may want to look elsewhere.
Generación Xbox - Alejandro Serrador - Spanish - 78 / 100
In a rural environment, in the heart of the universe, inconsequentiality, existential emptiness, lack of values, deep dissatisfaction reign... On the edge of the most absolute abyss, without any direction or anchorage that gives us security, Loop8: Summer of Gods invites us, in the old way, to face that looped piece that deals with the destruction and reconstruction of things. In this regard, slowing down its execution to get out of it, without additional iterations.
LadiesGamers.com - Yvonne van Geloven - Liked
Playing Loop8: Summer of Gods, I debated about which rating to give. Often I know even from the start which way my verdict will go, but not so this time. At first, the town felt so barren, and I often felt like I was just clicking away. Suggesting as much as I could towards everyone I met. Eventually, I began to see how I should play the game, paying more attention to relationships and whose friendship I wanted the most. Plus, I did my best to max my stats with activities.
I liked the battles; I would have loved more of them, not just on the days that the gate to the underworld was open. But what made me keep on doubting my verdict was the feeling of being an outsider. Sure, I tried to get closer to my classmates by making the right suggestions, but I would have loved more real background stories and feeling. When I suggest “Get to know better”, I really want to know the person!
I am going for I Like It, as I feel Loop8: Summer of Gods has more potential. To get the A Lot added to the I Like It, I would have needed more fleshed-out characters to relate to, making forming an emotional bond less a matter of clicking away and more of really wanting to know them more!
Niche Gamer - Matt Kowalski - 8.5 / 10
Loop 8: Summer of Gods is an enjoyable game but it is not for everyone. If you are a fan of strong narratives, then we’d recommend picking it up. If you are a fan of traditional JRPGs then it might be better to watch some gameplay first. If you don’t like a challenge or repetitive gameplay, then we suggest avoiding it.
Nintendo Life - George Yang - 5 / 10
While Loop8's story has the potential to be incredibly interesting, it never really lands and fails to leave an emotional impact towards the end. It's all presented beautifully and has a unique mix of gameplay styles and ideas, but their repetitive and frustrating nature makes the whole experience a chore. It's like toiling away at your summer job and going through the motions until it's time to leave.
NookGaming - Thomas Knight - 5 / 10
Loop8: Summer of Gods has an interesting concept and some great characters that give a good reason to play it. My first impressions were actually quite positive and if my review was based on the first ten hours, it would probably be a 7/10 due to the great character moments and idea of growing stronger through loops. Unfortunately, the issues with gameplay and systems that came to light over the full forty-five hours it took to complete, and the method of storytelling make it difficult to outright recommend.
Push Square - Jenny Jones - 5 / 10
A good time loop mechanic is supposed to give you enough variety so that repetition doesn't set in. Unfortunately, this is where Loop8 falls flat. You’ll be going over the same conversations and they’re just not interesting enough to make it worthwhile. It also doesn’t help that there’s only a small variety of enemies, and that the underworld is mostly just the town with a different colour palette. It's hard not to get annoyed when you realise that you’re still not strong enough to take out the next boss, and have no choice but to repeat the last few weeks.
RPG Site - Cullen Black - 4 / 10
Loop8 is a game full of great ideas that never comes together.
The Outerhaven Productions - Scott Adams - 3.5 / 5
Loop8: Summer of Gods has a very interesting premise with stunning visuals and amazing music. The creativity in the game can hold back other parts of the mechanics.
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2023.06.01 07:57 SlyZeke1O1 DBD OC Killers Season 1

DBD OC Killers Season 1
Trigger Warning: Backstories includes mention of Torture, Child Abuse, Murder, et, if anyone got any idea for their perks please share in the comments down below
The Cyberpunk Name: Natalia Bailey Gender: Female Ethnicity: Russian-American Realm: Lockwood Institute, An abandoned college building with strobe lights everywhere and random Glow-in-the-Dark messages written in Russian everywhere on the walls Weapon: Whip Sword Special Power: Night Watcher: She has the ability to construct 3 types of traps with her techno-magic but can only use 1 type at a time:
  1. Doom Sentry = Little robots with a mini-sized turret that shoots electrical bolts which functions similarly to the Laceration Meter from Trickster’s Showstopper Once the meter is filled (7 Sentry Hits), they lose a Health State, putting them either into the Injured or Dying State.
  2. Hidden Lasers = Laser beams that are visible to the survivors unless they have perk that allows them to see traps or use any Flashlight to see it, if they cross into an Hidden Laser, the survivor gets shocked and screams, revealing their location to The Hacker
  3. Smoke Mine = Blinds the survivors with smoke temporarily
Memento Mori: Pushes the survivor down and steps on their groin/chest maliciously before lashing at them with her whip sword then mockingly blows a kiss at them. She sometimes says “Feels good dont it?” Or “Screams for me, little rat” In Russian midway through her mori
Lore: Nothing known about Natalia Bailey's past but from her childhood, Natalia has a history of violence and vindictive behavior. Most of the incidents are triggered in response to attacks directed at her or at the few people she cares for. In elementary school, she was harassed and hurt by a school bully, but she refused to back down even though she was no match for him. After licking her wounds, Natalia returned with a baseball bat and slugged the bully around the ear. At the age of twelve, Natalia poured gasoline on her father and set him on fire after he administered a vicious beating to her mother, causing her permanent brain damage. As a result, her father almost died but managed to survive with severe scarring. She was declared a danger to herself and others by the court at age thirteen and was sent for treatment at a psychiatric clinic for young children diagnosed with psychological diseases. Bizarrely enough this clinic was a front for the Black Vale who wanted to use mentally ill children and raise them as psychotic killers and their would later be served to the Entity to please it's sadistic cravings, Natalia was one of those unlucky few. Before becoming an killer Natalia would become notorious in the dark web as she lead an group of hackers who are very sadistic and enjoy committing torture and murder and systematically incriminating innocent people for their crimes, which includes breaking into their homes. They are also extremely efficient hackers, who can easily invade systems, phone calls, social media accounts and pretty much anything on a computer, including even hospital life support systems, which they can turn off at will. This is all done for the sadistic entertainment of the whole group in the "game nights". this group had at least 26,000 people from all around the world, of both genders and several races. Eventually, Natalie got bored of the chaos she helped bring into so many victims and offered herself to the Entity, becoming one of its most hedonistic Killers up to date
The Dullahan Name: Brenden Heller Gender: Male Ethnicity: Irish-American Nationality: Ireland Realm: Graelohan Empire, a medieval-like town that has been torn apart, skeletons of knights and peasants are seen around houses Weapon: Rapier
Special Power: Headless Prowl, The Dullahad’s head separates from his body to track down survivors, as you control his head and once he sees the survivors, The head will roar towards the Survivors’ direction, making them scream in fear and revealing the auras of the survivor he spotted to his body
Memento Mori: The survivor tries to crawl away but Dullahan gashes the tendons of their legs and flips them then forces the survivor to look at him in his glowing eyes which makes them scream in terror as Dullahan makes them watch their worst fears eyes then dies of pure shock.
Lore: Brenden Heller was a hero in the Graelohan Empire, saving the weak from corrupt officials, bankruptcy and helping to end many wars that cost many lives, he eventually married the princess/later queen, Mariah of the Graelohan Empire made enemies of Rome's elites through the populist and authoritarian reforms he made as king. He was eventually betrayed and murdered by the commander of his army, Gaius. Who wanted to have Mariah all to himself and rule Graelohan to feed his own ego. Gaius degraded Brendan out of spite and beheads the unfortunate king. However, the Entity bought Brenden to life to seek revenge and assure that Mariah will live as long he pleads allegiance to its sadistic will. Brenden hesitates until the Enity shows him glimpses of his beloved being tortured by Gaius, physically, and emotionally, and he was making civilians kill each other in a colosseum for his own twisted amusement, so Breneden took the Enity's deal and Brenden became the Dullahan, he murdered Gaius and whoever else took part in his betrayal, saving Mariah and the kingdom from the egoist's wrath. Before Brenden was forced to go to the Enity's realm, he apologizes to his wife for not being there to protect her in time and urges her to move on, and realizes she was pregnant with Brendan's child and wishes a bright future for the both of them as he vanishes into the abyss of madness and bloodshed that awaits him..
The Gentleman Name: Markus Leblanc Gender: Male Ethnicity: French-British Weapon: Cane Sword Realm: Ilmoor Middlechester, An British neighborhood where the Gentleman started his vigilante career, surrounded by snow Special Power: Elusive Haze, Gentleman can steal items from chests and set gas traps in them that would inflict Survivors with either Hindered or Blindness, making them scream in the process Memento Mori: Gentlemen stabs the survivor in the stomach and chest at least 5 times before stabbing into the heart and slashing their throat then proceeds to dance with his opponent's corpse as they bleed to death and gently laid them down on the ground and places a rose on top of their chest before bowing elegantly as he shed a tear in regret of what he has done
Lore: Markus Leblanc was born in the slums of London to his French mother, Ségolène,who works at a chef master and his British father, Cayden who is a famous book writer. Markus was always fond of the mystery novels his father made and learn how to cook at the age of 13 thanks to memorizing his mother's recipes. However Markus attends a private school which is mostly fill with kids from noble families and he have trouble making friends due to how his father views rich folks as self-righteous egotists who looks down on others so harshly and being the target of rich kids who are jealous of him being the son of Cayden but the only one who backed him up was his older twin brothers Silvain and Emeric. However as Markus, his father died from an heart diease and his mother died of a broken heart and to make matters worse is that Silvain and Emeric were framed of various crimes like robbery, assault on women, and battery. So Markus took the vigilante route to figure out who framed his brothers as he dressed up as the Gentleman Thief from his father's most top-selling mystery novel and eventually found out it was Gérard Boissieu, the ringleader who lead the group of bullies who kicked Markus whenever he was down. He scared Gérard into confessing for framing Markus's brothers for his crimes and Gérard decided to turn himself in out of fear of Markus who he didn't know he was the Gentleman Theif at the time, Silvain and Emeric were later freed and things are doing well for Markus until a mobster who was a member of the Black Vale try to recruit Markus into becoming one of their assassins after digging some dirt on Markus's Gentleman Theif identity and Markus refused, getting his brothers and their families to a safe place but was killed and later his soul offered to the Entity, Markus is one of the rarest killers that actually is unwilling to hurt survivors and actually tries to fight the Enity's control but eventually succumbs sadly but part of his humanity weeps as he is forced to kill innocent people who didn't do him wrong..
The Enchantress Name:Iliana Marroquín Gender: Female Ethnicity: Hispanic Weapon: Glaive Realm: Quiauhxochitl, An ancient Aztec-like temple Special Power: Two-Faced Beauty, She can take a disguise of a random survivor to catch the other ones by surprise with a successful attack with the use of her sacrifice dagger, however, it takes a 35-second cooldown, and if Lich messes up or gets blinded/stunned, it takes an extra 5 seconds to recharge Memento Mori: Enchantress would get on top of the survivors and stabs their hands onto the floor then grabs their face and kisses them on the lip, sucking the life force out of them in the process. Enchantress chuckles and grabs her glaive, leaving the soulless survivor on the ground
Lore: Iliana Marroquin is a descendant of a cult family who wears Aztec-themed outfits and worships the Entity and kidnaps random people off the streets to give them off to the sadistic being’s realm, however, she was very conflicted about how the cult operates she eventually cut paths with Keith Singleton, the British Investigator and his partner who was killed in the process, Iliana helped Keith escape her family but was apprehended by the cultist followers and sacrificed to the Entity and was forced to become one of its most seductive and dangerous Killers
The Statue Name: Vander Carpinelli Gender: Male Ethnicity: Italian-Candaian Realm: Lunaris Gallery An Renaissance-themed museum surrounded by creepy statues Weapon: Halberd Special Power: Night Fright, Statue would be able to freeze in place, and sort of teleport by the use of other statues of himself scattered all around the map. He would be able to select any statue to teleport to, but as a counterbalance, he wouldn't be able to see survivors until he arrives in the area where they are at. So basically, his power would be all about reading and playing tricks on the minds of survivors. Before he moves around his body doubles, any survivors can blind him before he can try to attack them
Memento Mori: He slices at the survivor's legs before they could run away and proceeds to grab the survivors up by the neck and forces them to look at his face as they desperately try to get out of his grasp and he charges up a beam of light from his eyes which would slowly turn them into stone and chuckles at his finest artwork as he leaves the petrified survivor alone
Lore: Vander Carpinelli was a sculptor in Italy and had supporting parents who are extremely wealthy however he would be degraded for his British descent by Holden and Killian, the children of his family rival, Bruno Lombardi and would harass Vander every time they get the chance while they was in art college, but eventually Vander had enough and managed to get his bullies expelled after submitting pictures of him being harassed. Vander would graduate and he become one of the greatest sculptors of his time. But as he was making one of his best artwork, he got assaulted by a group of thugs hired by the Lombardis and they buried him alive. As Vander loses his life, the Entity appeared and saved him, promising him sweet revenge on his enemies. Weeks after Vander's disappearance, no one couldn't find him but the entire Lombardi family and their associates were slaughtered and their bodies were placed inside statues that resemble them identical, Vander Carpinelli's whereabouts would be a mystery as he become of the most disturbing killers that Enity took great pleasure into creating
The Hellhound Name: Vivian Chandler Gender: Female Ethnicity: American Realm: Firebrick Road, An burned down apartment complex Weapon: Fire Ax Special Power: Play With Fire, Hellhound breath hellfire that inflicts Scorched, a debuff that burns survivors which will disable their uses of items and they have to get extinguish the flames via Holy Water around the map. She can also breathe hellfire over windows and pallets Memento Mori: Hellhound will impale the survivor in the stomach with her claws, lift them up, and set them on fire as they scream in agony. She then slam her axe onto their head to shut them up
Lord: Vivian did get along with her cousin Hestia since she was the only one who actually cared about her well-being but deep down Vivian was envious to Hestia’s loving parents because Vivian’s parents weren’t really caring, they just came forcing their expectations onto her and disapprove of her being bisexual, causing her to become bitter and self-loathing and eventually started becoming an pyromaniac after being shamed online by her parents for trying to talk with an young boy who they didn’t like, Vivian was enraged and hateful so she later burned her mother and father alive and burnt her back to avoid suspicion but she ended up slitting her mouth out of guilt because part of her felt ashamed for what she did… 2 months later, She was gonna burned herself but Hestia (who was still in her firefighter job at the time) walked into the act and tried to stop her but it was too late, Hestia ended up having burn marks around her neck, and some spots around her upper body and left shoulder but Vivian was nowhere be found after being taken by the Entity, now Vivian has brainwashed into hating Hestia despite her struggle to fight back the Entity’s control. Hestia and everyone else thought Vivian died in the fire but her body was never found so Hestia who quit being a firefighter and became an car racer made an charity campaign to find Vivian unknowingly setting herself as a target for the canon cult who worships the Entity. They kidnapped her and offer her as a sacrifice to the sadistic eldritch’s game of cat and mouse so that’s how Hestia is stuck in the Campfire realm along with her fellow survivors
The Toymaker Name: Kai Davenport Gender: Male Ethnicity: Taiwanese-American Realm: Steam World, An toy factory with tons of bloodstains around the walls and floor along with some corpses placed into animatronics and toy animals with blood stains seen laying around Weapon: Toy Hanmer Special Power: Joys of Destruction, Toymaker can make his Dreadful Toys to hunt survivors for him however he can only make 3 toys at an time and he can’t make more unless they’re destroyed by Survivors
Airplane: Shoots bullets that need 10 hits to injure a survivors
Creepy Doll: Latch onto an survivor's leg to inflict Exhaustion
Teddy Bear: Latch onto survivor’s arm to inflict Incapacitated
Squeaky Mouse: Alerts Toymaker of the survivor's location if they vault over a window or rush into a locker
Memento Mori: The Survivor tries to get up but Toymaker cackles maliciously and whacks the survivor with his Toy Hammer before he sic his Dreadful Toy to attack the survivor at once while he records the whole thing on a camera
Lore: Kai Davenport is the son of a notorious serial killer who murdered 25 prostitutes and 15 police officers who tried to arrest him, Kai was an weird kid but he was actually kindful and supportive to others but he was bullied for what his father did and they’ve gotten lots of trouble for their shenanigans, he was also being emotionally abused by his uncle for not having much of an backbone until Kai snapped and pushed him down the stairs and nobody suspected the wiser because he was just an teenager at the time and figured his uncle tripped because he was drunk. Kai eventually graduated college and became an Toymaker, He would specialize making action figures, plushies and other accessories. Everything was going well until he ran into his old bullies who became an an whole gang who robs banks,They have coerced Kai into making weaponized toys for heist otherwise they would harm his cripple mother and younger siblings who just started high school. Eventually Kai did the honorable thing and reported himself to the police in order to get the gang arrested too but they attacked Kai’s younger sister and attempted to SA her but the cops intervened.
This drove Kai into taking things into his own hands and kill his former bullies one by one and managed to convince the authorities that it was self defense and they bought it. But Kai developed an bloodthirsty habit to slaughter criminals who prey on the week so he became an vigilante to ease his bloodlust tendencies but this would make the Entity take interest in Kai and made the mentally ill man one of its newest killers making him believe the survivors he would be trying to slaughter would be criminals
The Lich Name: Liliana O'Brien Gender: Female Ethnicity: Scottish Realm: Iageadell Tombs, An massive crypt full of tombs which is a resting ground for the deceased criminals and noble people who support the rich Weapon: Glaive
Special Power: Life Harvest, So basically her power is similar to Oni’s except she needs soul energy to fuel her charge attacks, depending on how much blood her scythe is absorbed, she can dash forward a certain amount of times instead of just going into a full-blown sprint. She also has her own debuff called Hollowed, which makes survivors unable to sense auras temporarily and their healing speed would be slowed down horrendously. They would need to drink some altar water to deactivate the Hollowed effect faster, to tell if a survivor is inflicted with Hollowed, they would be shaking uncontrollably as if they’re cold and their icon would have a mist-like Sprial around it. Also for a short duration, the water is corrupted, and the Lich is able to absorb the corruption in the water and give her a bit of a boost with her power and her dash attacks would go a bit farther than normal
Memento Mori: She slashes at the survivor a couple of times before she has them on their knees, she grabs them by the hair and slits their throat, as they die on the floor she lifts the survivor and absorbs their remaining life force into her glaive saying “Your life force is mine” an call back to Shang Tsung from Mortal Kombat
Lore: As a child, Liliana O'Brien was often drawn to the natural world, spending a lot of after-school time in a local ravine. Upon the encouragement of her parents, Liliana was able to fast-track through high school and receive acceptance into Metro High University at the young age of 16. After completing her B.A., Moone entered another university as part of her master's degree and later returned to Metropolis three years after in order to complete her Ph.D. Lilian later becomes an archeologist and later meets up with his old friend Edward Sho, who been researching bizarre events that includes people that the Entity has abducted like Dwight Fairfield, Meg Thomas, Tracey Dumas, and Keith Singleton. However Liliana didn't think much and figured Edward on some fanatical nonsense and didnt believe that the Enity was actually but she would later find out how right he was as she went on an expedition to the Scottish Highlands, discovering Iageadell Tombs, where she discovered an outfit of a woman named Orissa Moone, an femme fatale who was described as a lich, an undead being that feed of the souls of people they killed, as Lillian carelessly inspects the outfits, she would seen glimpses of Orissa's memories like her demented crimes of murdering men and women she seduced before her spirit decides to possessed Lilliana's body and seduces her research teammates before she kills them all and the Enity was impressed at Orissa's ruthlessness and sadism so it proceeds to welcome her into its realm as she forces Lianna's soul and body under her full control....
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2023.06.01 07:56 chimmyjimin98 T.O.P Ends His Journey with BIGBANG: Confirms His Departure

Well, there's this really heartbreaking news that shattered the hearts of many fans, including mine. And to make it worse, he had to say it right after my birthday. Talk about bad timing, huh?
TOP has always been my absolute favorite in Bigbang. That's why I felt super crushed when I heard the shocking news yesterday. I had my hopes up for their comeback, even if it was just the four of them. I was like, "It's cool as long as TOP is still in the group. I'll go to their concert no matter where they perform."
But man, it's really disappointing that there was no official announcement that he had already left the group. Everyone thought he had just left YG but was still a member of Bigbang. Turns out, that was a big fat "NO." Some articles say that he might had actually left last year, around the time they released 'Still Life.'
I shared his IG post on my FB, where all four of them were in the picture, and I wrote the caption 'Until Whenever.' It stings because I held onto the hope that he would reunite with the group. I thought it was his way of indicating that he would come back.
A lot of us were pretty let down, myself included. But come on, we deserved a proper announcement, right? Some people were questioning the way TOP revealed his departure from the group. It definitely wasn't the best or most appropriate way to handle it. If that fan hadn't commented, we wouldn't have even known. And the way he replied to the comment, it seemed like he was angry or something (he replied in all caps!).
That's probably why he wasn't part of Taeyang's promotions. GD and Daesung were always there, and it never crossed my mind to question his absence. I just assumed he was occupied with his dearMoon project. But I guess the real reason was he's no longer a member.
I'm sorry to my fellow VIPs if I've offended any of you with this little rant. It's painful to accept for now. I'll always remember them as the incredible five, the true legends, the blueprint.
But of course, I will still support his solo album comeback. I hope that by that time, I have already accepted and moved on. I will always be a VIP; and this is just a phase.
Listening to "Still Life" and "Flower Road" will never be the same again. 🙁
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On the other news: Ukiss' comeback! Yay!!!
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Space Marines (Black Templars) - SPLITS WELCOME. I decided on a different Chapter. See link above for army photos.

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2023.06.01 07:53 percussiongay stress stress stress depression stress; positivity needed

so if some of y'all have seen a previous post i (21tm) made maybe like a week and a half ago i guess this is somewhat of an update but also not all in one aha there will be a tldr at the very end too for anyone who might need or want that
he (27m) was just here for about two months, and shortly before he went back to his current residence we talked about me going to see him there in about a month now (planning for early july)
i've made it so that it's a fairly plausible option as long as everything goes smoothly with some matters but a couple days ago my family got hit with a bit of a wrench and we're not sure the full extent of it yet but needless to say its put me a bit on edge because it could possibly throw out our plan and that would kill me. i have been busting my ass recently (even while he was here despite how ideally we would have been able to spend more time together while he was here) to make this plan work out and also for our and my general future. and he's busting ass too, it's mutual.
after all the shit i've been through recently and with me busting ass every single day on top of all my personal struggles, i really fuckin need this to work. i need the break from my current residence, i need that time with him especially since it's also planned to help him move with me.
and the thought of me suffering at fuckin work, with my family issues, with my medical issues, with my increasing need for him to be with me doing the most mundane shit everyday, and it all slightly going to waste in some ways fucking kills me.
im already so stressed with everything else going on, i need my biggest sense pf comfort back. i need the cuddles, the morning coffee, the mundane shit, to feel somewhat fuckin normal again.
and some of my health problems get worse with stress. my pain levels are getting worse and more constant (and they were already bad and pretty damn constant) and im having new pains surfacing in this tidal wave. i woke up this morning experiencing god awful chest pain where my heart resides for probably a good 45-ish minutes minimum. which typically doesnt happen.
on top of my ever rising stress, my depression and anxiety and agitation are getting even worse. i broke down semi-randomly and started bawling for a good 10 or so minutes.
im trying to stay optimistic and he's doing everything he can to help too, but its just slowly building to a point that im worried about. i feel kinda selfish for the way i feel even though i know its mutual. i dont know, i guess i just kinda need to get it off my chest and maybe hear positive things in return.
tldr: im going through it real bad right now and part of it might significantly hinder our plans to see each other and continue our goal of living together full time and its depressing and stressing the fuck outta me.
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2023.06.01 07:49 cambrianraptor How do I avoid trying to address problems via text and fucking it up because of it?

I really do not have a good combo going on for me here.
So, I knew about the known symptoms of emotional dysregulation. well, the somewhat wonder years after being diagnosed where I off and on questioned if I do have borderline and the diagnosis was wrong…yeah, no. It was right. it was completely right.
So I still knew, for the most part, I had the two issues. One was impulsive responses towards problems that may cause me to either immediately snap, become silent and blank, or communicate extremely poorly and tinged by emotional distress let loose.
The problem with the communication part is not just BPD. I am autistic and have extreme impairment in communication. That got dismissed growing up after being in speech therapy briefly as a kid, insisting that I was better when I was not. I just became quiet.
we could not afford to hire a personal one. i am getting a new one soon after years. as in, I am nearing my mid 20s and iirc my speech therapy ended too early when I was 9 or 10.
As a solution to these issues, I stated that if a problem arises, to make sure I go to another room to process everything and write my thoughts down. I was able to exit into a separate room on my own. However, i was being picked up to leave soon, and so the problem left unaddressed.
But then I realized I forgot how to solve this issue with the fact I have a cell phone.
and you know what impaired communication can be seen worsened? in messages that are expected to be short. potentially not as long as I need. which would literally end up almost like an essay after five hours, because I can only write essays and stories well.
and you know what worsens that even more? Fucking bpd. Because now I had no barrier nor methods to cope with not getting mad in messages. and because of new meds that helped in other ways, it made my communication issues that were always there severely more obvious.
So not only did I keep messaging about it. I messaged a lot in complete sorrow at first that I could not get myself to stop sending. and it was too long and hard go read too.
then the cycles of my mood started shifting everywhere.
when I was able to come with a clear response, it started to get phrased too aggressively because of how urgent I felt. then I was remorseful. then I was more level headed and tried to communicate better, but it was still too vague. and because of impulse issues… I now am needing to mend it and have worked out a solution.
The solution involves leaving voice messages instead of text. i would also be more aware of tone. I could edit it, communicate quicker… it may still be confusing, but better.
and i am going to shift to calls when needed, letting the other person ask questions about what I am communicating so I can clarify as needed. But I am also going to make sure to take extra effort as needed to wait for in person. but hopefully the small parts will help. I am also going to talk to my therapist beforehand. I hope this works out.
So, if I feel like I have a solution, why am I making this post with this question? Well, I guess if you have any comments about how I am trying to solve it feel free. But I am seeking wider advice to prevent myself from any level of interpersonal problem solving through text. I am trying to get in a general habit of voice mail. But the specific issues is BPD making me text impulsively and impatiently. Made worsened by… I say speech issues, but I essentially have disorganized thoughts.
I never thought through how to handle the impulse of solving issues via text. So it doesn’t start as an issue in the first place.
i only got myself skills to use for serious communications of general life.
What advice might you have help stop myself from messaging in an inevitably incredibly harmful way in the first place? So I don’t send these sorts of messages and only register what I should have done instead both then and later? More-so with me already understanding later more.
But as known by the topic of the thread, I need help with an idea for before the act of messaging and/or to stop and not send the text or texts the first place at an inappropriate time. And doing so without consideration as to my impulsivity, emotional dysregulation, and impaired communication skills. In this, to then be able to come back later. So i could not use texts if it cant help me get an important subject communicated and understood, regardless of my current emotional state. And learning to apply this as prevention as much as possible.
i am going go talk to my therapist, but I wanted to ask to see how people came up with or learned different preventive measures.
(btw, if this post has pointed mistakes… like I said with miscommunication. But if you are thinking how I, and I don’t know if I did, sounded like I could still do well enough here…. this post took several hours lmao. one post before took me five. just to communicate a question or idea. this definitely shows further it does not help the issue when I feel more rushed/having to keep things shorter, but struggling to.)
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2023.06.01 07:46 bumbumbooo I had my wisdom tooth removal today and my mom never asked me how I was feeling before the surgery

She had to come with me because I needed a guardian to drive me back home after my iv sedation.
However on the way there, I was genuinely feeling so scared and had so many emotions about surgery but my mom never once even asked or comforted me during the ride “hey hunny how are you feeling for the surgery, it will be okay, I know your’re scared but mom will be waiting outside ” That’s all I ever needed and wanted to hear from her . meanwhile I was panicking inside on my own and had to self talk and comfort myself. She never tried to hug me or comfort me. When I got there, I was so lucky to have nurses that genuinely listened to my concerns and fears and made me feel comfortable. Whereas my own mother is so cold and lacks the emotional and loving side.
I’ve had to comfort myself throughout my whole life. It’s so exhausting being emotionally neglected while having parents around . Always having my own back, I’m so deprived of love and genuinely physical touch. What’s the point of parents if they are not even there emotionally. It’s so sad because she genuinely doesn’t have it in her to do this, it’s not in her to ask these questions and be emotionally involved with me. But you shouldn’t be a mother if you can’t be there emotionally for your kids. You really shouldn’t, it’s the most selfish thing ever :( the pain and trauma I have from being emotionally neglected from my parents sometimes makes me want to kill myself. The damage is so sever and always unnoticed.
I never knew how to regulate my emotions , I’ve always bottled everything up because no parent ever asked me about my feelings. I kept all my emotions hidden because I learned they never matter until I wanted to kill myself and couldn’t hide it anymore . I feel empty everyday and that something is missing always. It’s so exhausting being me and they have no idea, they did this, they fucked up. Not just me but all my siblings. This type of fuck up you can’t ever come back from, you will have to live with the choices you make and the consequences of having incompetent adults
So many people out here genuinely don’t know how to raise kids. They think giving them food, shelter and school is amazing parenting?? It’s the BARE minimum. I cry sometimes thinking about my child self and being emotionally neglected because I can’t imagine doing it ever to my kids. I just can’t. My parents just don’t know any better. They don’t now how to be emotionally involved. If they did they would’ve done it. But I wish they didn’t have me. They are such terrible parents. My mom used me as her personal therapist since I was child until now. I remember once I was getting builled during my middle school and was crying at school, the principal called me downstairs and wanted to call my parents. I begged them not to call my parents because I didn’t want to trouble them with my problems because my mom had to deal with my older sister problems . I was so scared and awkard of telling them and just even being around them while I was crying ? Even though I was child??? When I told them about it, they blamed me for not telling them , my parents said “i never left you and ur siblings & mom, I was always here, u could’ve came and told me” Yes mom and dad , my 11 years old self was at fault for not feeling ever comfortable sharing my feelings and life with you guys because you never created this safe environment? My parents never once even asked me personal questions so why would i all of sudden go to him crying if he never fostered that type of environment growing up? I really couldn’t believe he was blaming his 11 year old daughter instead of his 45 year old self. Terrible parenting is blaming your child for things that were your job to do and protect If my child told me that they were scared to tell me about them being bullied, I failed at parenting the end of story.
I wish parenting classes were mandatory to all expecting parents. I wish all parents learned the needs of a child and the consequences of not following them. A lot of parents lack emotionally intelligence and are so immature they should’ve never be parents.
Worst part is I love my mom so much I don’t want to ever leave her, I just wish things were different. I wish I had a different life. I feel so guilty complaining about this but they hurt me so much :( I understand she grew up like this, but this is such big mistake that you can’t ever come back from.
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