Isiah rashad is gay

I don’t really know if this is the right place to post this but I really need to vent.
I’m a closeted female bisexual teenager living in Florida. Obviously it’s not easy to be living in Florida today with all the laws being passed to hurt the community in even deadly ways. And it’s been weighing on me really hard as I watch my community get attacked and yet it feels like no one around me is realizing how bad it is and how it’s only going to get worse. It’s been really scaring me because I don’t know what’s coming and I already have other mental health issues and living here definitely doesn’t help them. But I don’t really have a choice because even though I will be an adult soon moving probably isn’t an option for me.
So with all this fear and anxiety over everything going on in Florida, I was happy to be going on vacation with my grandma for a few weeks and getting away from Florida. But tonight on the first day being here she said some things that really hurt.
She brought up the whole Target swimsuit thing that’s going on and I explained that she was being misinformed from Facebook (of course) about what it really is. And then she said she didn’t believe being trans was right. Which hurt me a lot because I know quite a few trans people and support the community with my entire being because they deserve so much love, especially right now. So it hurt me and I had to sit next to her silent because I didn’t want to cause an argument.
And then she made a comment about Pride merch. And how she believed it was okay to be gay but that they really shouldn’t be advertising it and have merchandise. And that comment hurt me even more and I had to sit silently and focus on trying not to cry.
I’m very aware my family isn’t supportive of the community on the different sides. So I would expect stuff like that from other family members. The only person I know is fully supportive is my sister whose also bisexual. And I’m pretty sure my parents are supportive. But everyone else in my family mostly from the stuff I’ve heard they aren’t the most understanding.
But my grandma has said she has gay friends and told me years ago she’s fine with it. But with the stuff she said today I’m realizing she’s one of those people who says they are an ally but aren’t. Because an ally supports the whole community. An ally recognizes the importance of Pride and LGBTQ+ merchandise.
Her comments just hurt me so much because I love her and I’ve always felt closer to her than other family members. And to here her say that my existence shouldn’t be recognized in media and society, even though she doesn’t know I’m a part of the community, hurts me so damn much. And now I have to spend two weeks with her and act like her comments didn’t make me cry and feel even more alone.
She’s made a comment before that made me cry and hurt me without her realizing (a comment on the way I dress and how “Boys won’t like me in T-shirts”). And I’m just tired of it.
I know I have my sister and my friends. But it just hurts so much that in the future when I come out I’m probably going to lose some people I really love because I’m not going to hide myself or be silent about it. I’ve done that for long enough.
I just don’t know how much more of this kind of hurt I can take because feels like I can’t escape it no matter where I go.

TW: long, boring, stupid, bullying, suicide
I'm a 34yo woman as of last month. Wild. Because that terrified, bullied young girl still feels so close inside my head.
Growing up I was always alone. My parents gave me up and I was raised as an only child with my grandparents while my two younger sisters were raised together with my mom. I was bullied by family, friends, and classmates growing up because I was fat and had "boyish" interests. And because I dressed like shit. And I probably smelled too because I was so depressed I never brushed my teeth and would just throw my greasy hair into a beanie or something to avoid showering. My grandpa called me a bag lady. He looked down on me for playing video games as a girl. My aunt called me a pig. She made fun of me when I couldn't fit into her life jacket when I was 10. Kids would chase me and moo. Kids would steal my stuff and throw it in the trash. Kids would throw gum and cheese or whatever into my hair. They'd beat me up on the bus or if I tried to walk home from school. They called me a fat dyke. My family thought I was gay as well, despite having no friends let alone romantic interests. I felt so unwanted, unworthy, and not like everyone else (but in a bad, monsterous way.)
The neighborhood kids filled a composition notebook with detailed entries about what a disgusting monster I am. I thought they were my friends.
I'd go to school and wish that I was invisible. I'd go to bed at night crying and praying to just be taken away to Never Never Land, or to wake up with a new identity. I didn't see the point of my existence, and at 16 I went into my grandparent's bedroom and pulled out the pistol from under my grandpa's side of the mattress. I sat on the edge of the bed and looked down on it in my hands. I was alone in the house. And then a voice came to me in my head. I like to think it was my voice, reaching out to younger me. It told me that everyone actually loves the underdog, and that there would come a day when I was loved and celebrated. It told me to stay curious about the future. I slipped the gun back under the bed and I've never contemplated suicide so closely again.
At 18 I left home and finally broke out of my fear of talking to people. Long story short im now I'm a property manager at a motel and nobody would guess that I was ever "shy" (or that I actually still am, but just a big fat pretender.)
I wish I could say that I'm a success story. But instead I'm a person who can't escape loneliness. My mother once said I have a black heart that will never truly let anyone inside. I resented that, but there are moments where I wonder if she was spot on. There are people who want to be my friend. I keep them at arms length. They're mistaken. I'm a bad friend, because I don't know how to friend. I've been in the same relationship for 9 years, and I have a 12 year old child. My child is the only person I'm certain about loving, but the poor girl.. I keep her at arms length too sometimes. It's all I know. My partner is my best friend and we do everything together. But he's a simple man. He doesn't read, he doesn't like discussing deeper ideas or theories, etc. We mostly play video games and watch shows, which is fine to only have that in common.
Between my partner and my kid I'm never "alone". But I struggle to shed that lonely feeling of not being "like everyone else". A monster in woman's clothing. And no matter how much I try to think my way around my sadness and anxieties, they still live here. That worthless, stinky, fat little girl is still who lives in here.

Never thought I'd be posting this question but here it is, so recently I cane out as genderfluid/non binary not too long ago on Facebook. And while back I also mentioned wanting/thinking about top surgery. My mom has concerns.
Understandable, it is a big surgery. But I think, she thinks that I'm trans and wanting to transition. Somewhat linking Elliott Page and my wanting the surgery. Honestly i mever really wanted my breast to begin with. I don't want T. Or much else.
Long story short, no I love being a lesbian too much to leave. And I don't connect/click with being a trans guy personally (sorry fellas, I'm a borther only in terms of the name). Noting wrong with that. I'm just not one.
So how can I give a short run down or try to explain to her about my gender and what I want for myself? I know it'll be personal, so somethings might change in what to expect from me personally. But honestly don't know where to start.
Gave my dad a short run down awhile ago via text and he hasn't responded. Both know I'm gay and are okay with it, this is something kinda new.
Any ideas or ways to explain to her? I'm gonna try and write some stuff out to get my thoughts and feelings down on paper.

So a quick background, been HIV+ since 2008. My previous job was a family owned business and family new my status. Met my current partner in 2016 and have been with him since. Covid hit while he was going to college. His grades suffered with remote learning so he stopped and instead started looking for employment when things began opening up again. He gets hired, but its in a small town 3 hrs away from where we are. I agreed to follow but only after I found work first and he goes from renting a room in a house to renting an apartment for us. 6 months go by and he gets a place. So then I started applying for work and I get hired.
Now heres where things get tricky for me. I'm going from a small family owned business to a more corporate/government kind of job. I got hired to work in an entry level position in the superior court. I won't say which one for privacy sake. Everyone so far has been welcoming, I've been open about being gay and having a partner and I'm having a great overall experience. My concerns are do I inform my supervisors of my status so they understand why I'm taking sick days for doctor visits, I know they don't need to know, but is it a good idea to let them know, is there any advantage or disadvantage. And like I said its a small town so people get to know other people's business fairly quick. I'm not saying the supervisors would say anything, in fact I know they can't, but coworkers will probably ask me and I don't want to seem like I'm hiding something. The first couple of visits I can see them not making a big deal but after awhile some my start to speculate and that might cause rumors.
Also, I'm not ashamed of my status, but I also don't go announcing it either. My fear is that these folks that have taken me in so far may get scared if I did ever say anything or it leaked out somehow. The stigma could be real big in a small town. I don't know. I guess I'm just looking for some advice on how to navigate my new surroundings with my existing condition.

TLDR Got a long spam email but it had some good info buried how to engage in the legislative process
So I got this in my email today. My husband said it was spam and while I understand the beginning is very much on one side but at the end it gives good simple information on how to observe the process that is shaping our state. It’s possible I am also overthinking. Did anyone else read this?
Let’s dive right into June, shall we? The U.S. Department of Justice came to Louisville in May for community feedback on how to address a pattern of unconstitutional policing so the public can help craft reforms for the Louisville Metro Police Department. I attended one of the several meetings, and want to share the Findings Report with you if you haven’t already seen it. If you didn’t attend an in-person meeting, you can email [email protected] or leave a message at 844-920-1460 to share ideas at any time. They will also be able to provide you with more information about future events. We are approaching the one-year mark on June 24, 2022, when the Supreme Court overturned Roe v. Wade, declaring that the constitutional right to abortion, upheld for nearly a half-century, no longer exists. Kentucky voters rejected a ballot measure in November 2022 aimed at denying any constitutional protections for abortion. Despite a victory for abortion-rights advocates, the amendment’s defeat keeps a ban on abortion in place while a legal challenge is presently being considered by the state Supreme Court. I am committed to refiling bills to support and protect women’s health, and access to healthcare, while working with women on both sides of the aisle in both chambers who are also focused on addressing our poor maternal health outcomes in KY. We are now in the month of Pride which celebrates our LGBTQ community and acknowledges the struggles and history that got us here. June 28, 1969, marks the beginning of the Stonewall Uprising, a series of events between police and LGBTQ+ protesters that spanned over six days. The Stonewall Inn was one of the most popular gay bars in New York City. Throughout the state, it was illegal to serve alcohol to a gay person until 1966, and in 1969, homosexuality was still considered a criminal offense. It was not the first time police raided a gay bar, and it was not the first time LGBTQ+ people fought back, but the events that unfolded over the next six days fundamentally changed the nature of LGBTQ+ activism in the United States. If you are interested in attending an event or volunteering at an event, you have an extensive list of opportunities that our friends at the Fairness Campaign have listed here. Also, with the arrival of June and its vibrant greens and sunny warm days, the Office of Sustainability is excited to launch the Green Resources for Residents guidebook, a one-stop resource to help individuals and families save costs while going green! Residents can learn about financial incentives available through the Inflation Reduction Act, Louisville Metro Government, Louisville Gas and Electric, and more. June also kicks off the interim committee meetings for 2023. The Regular Session ended March 30th, and after a short break, lawmakers return to Frankfort for the interim, which is the time we are not only in meetings but also working on legislation we want to file when we go back into session in January 2024. Every committee I serve on (Agriculture, VMAPP, Small Business and IT, Local Government) turns into a joint committee, meaning the Senate and House standing committees are combined. I enjoy the opportunity for everyone to be in the same room for a more extensive conversation since during the session our committees are separate. Likewise, any task forces, statutory and special committees will also meet during the interim period. I am also thrilled to be serving on the Health & Human Services Delivery System task force. There are so many important services that run through this cabinet, and we need to find ways to improve the structure of how supports and services are delivered so Kentuckians have their needs met in a timely manner. I believe in transparency and civic participation, and want you to know how to engage in the legislative process. The comprehensive 2023 interim calendar is available on the official Kentucky General Assembly website. Please note, the fluid nature of our work means the calendar may be subject to change. While many of our interim joint, statutory, and special committee meetings are held in our historic Capitol Annex building in Frankfort, I understand not everyone can be there in person. However, in this digital age, distance is no obstacle to democracy. Kentucky Educational Television (KET) and the Legislative Research Commission will be providing a livestream of the committee meetings, ensuring you can participate remotely. The legislative calendar will be refreshed weekly with information about upcoming committee meetings to keep you updated. Furthermore, you can find more information about each interim joint, statutory, or special committee on their web pages. We are only as strong as our willingness to engage; which looks like staying informed, involved, and committed to positive change for all, particularly those who are vulnerable. We have a responsibility to each other and the common good. Let’s be each other's best partner and advocate in this journey; even when we might not always agree, I promise I will always be open to an honest conversation. If you have any comments, questions, or concerns, email me at [email protected]. You can also call my office at 502-564-8100, where an operator will happily connect you to my assistant Jake. For assistance en Español call 1-866-840-6574. Those with hearing impairments can use the Kentucky Relay Service at 711. You can also follow me on Facebook, Twitter, and instagram (It may be necessary to cut and paste the above URL if the line is broken) or send a blank email to leave-2[email protected]

So for a while now for the better part for two years i would have like hands or things moving in my peripheral vision and something calling my name and trying to get my attention but it wasn't ever outside of my head like someone else was saying my name and it wasnt ever really negative just my name or hearing hey every now and then when no one's around. The last few months tho its like whenever I'm really stressed or emotionally over whelmed I'll hear this voice whispering in my ear to look at something and find meaning in it. Or be wary of certain shapes and conditions my bathroom towels are in. Then it tells.me that I'll never be good enough for my boyfriend, i need to watch what he does and uses as so he doesn't steal my happy thoughts from me. Not like someone is physically taking away my happy thoughts or anything. More so that once i focus on whatever it's telling me to focus on all my positivity is stripped away and I'm left with unpleasant thoughts and a voice that keeps whispering for me to look look look look look. Recently there's been a smell of like a rotten animal carcass in a heating vent that hasn't been turned on for years that suddenly turns on full power I'll feel the heat and the rotting meat smell will surround me but it's only for a minute or two and no one else smells it and I'm scared. Twice today i was absolutely sure i put the lube me and my boyfriend use when we douche (me gay male 23 him gay male 27) in a very specific way and place and it's moved and changes positions and idk if it's me hallucinating and event that never happened or my boyfriend fucking with me or lying to me about something and it sucks. Im almost certain i placed it label facing out and in the middle of the cabinet. But now it's turned around opened and on the right side of the cabinet and idk if i can trust my brain or not. Im in the process of getting a referral to someone who can get me evaluated for paranoid schizophrenia but untill that time comes idk if I'm just tripping, my bf is being manipulative or I'm literally going insane like my mom did and my great grand ma before her idk. Would like any i sight or opinion on what i. Going through a d what i can do to help keep myself grounded in reality

I’m a 65 yr old Bi male. I first had sex with a guy when I was 17. It was quick and dirty in an adult cinema. I continued having this type of sex with guys and never had any urge to have an emotional relationship or even had a crush on a guy. I have attractive male friends gay and straight but once someone is a friend I don’t consider them for sex. Most of the women I know are married and usually it’s to a friend so that takes them out of consideration. But I still am attracted, I just don’t do anything about it. In 1979 in my senior year of college I met my wife, fell in love and we had a great sex life. She knew I was bi going into the relationship and thought it was cool. But what was cool in 1979 got scary by about 1982 when everybody was just learning about AIDS. I tried to be totally monogamous but I never was. The longest I went without playing with a guy was about a year during her pregnancies. I suffered incredible guilt about this which led to periods of severe depression when I was hospitalized 3 times.
My wife passed away 8 years ago and I thought I’ll finally be able to have sex with guys guilt free and maybe I’ll be able to feel something emotional that I’ve never felt before but if anything I dislike guys more now more than ever. I meet guys mostly through hook up apps like Manhunt and I think I’ve only had sex with the same guy maybe 3 times. I went to a gay bar and I didn’t feel uncomfortable but I didn’t feel like I fit in either. I went to a gay shrink who said that some guys fall in love with guys and some just want to have sex with guys and I guess that’s me. I meet women and get crushes all the time and I think if I was going to get a crush on a guy it would have happened by now.
What reinforces this for me is a guy I've played with got thrown in jail over the weekend for a DUI. He gave his phone to his gf and she looked at his browser history and found all the gay sites he's been looking at and feels betrayed and doesn't want anything to do with him now.
So I’m starting to date women and not much has happened but I’m determined to be honest about my sexuality. I’m wondering when people think is the right time to bring this up?

TL;DR: Only Vanna, Sona and Crew have any balance. Only Jex is being allowed to be consistently happy. This is all harming the show.
I don't think that it can really be argued that the writing for couples is incredibly imbalanced and it's harming literally every single couple on the show. Some couples do everything and some do nothing. Some are on all the time, while others are never featured. Basically none of them are actually happy.
Jex
It's been said time and time again that all Jex do are have sex and talk about Sonny. And they do that a lot. But that's really not my problem with them. My problem is that while literally no other couple gets to be happy for any stretch of time, Jex faces nothing but endless amounts of happiness that is only ever "threatened" by obstacles that only exist in their heads, only for us viewers to then be told that they've overcome incredible odds to be together.
So I ask you? What are those obstacles? Cameron? He got cheated on and then dumbed on NYD only to forgive Joss two months later (incredibly unrealistic by the way). And nobody even found out about this. Cameron's own mother was even made to console the women that broke her son's heart because she had no idea what happened to him, because Josslyn guilt tripped Cam into feeling like any harm that came Dex's way would be his fault. And speaking of Dex, literally NO ONE cares that he and Joss are together. Carly said live your live, Michael said that he was powerless to stop them, and Sonny literally said that he didn't care. Like those were his exact words. Then you have Trina who still doesn't know the full story. So the only person who does actually care is Spencer, and instead of being written like the friend who rightfully suspects foul play, instead he's being written as an obsessive jerk.
And as for Sonny being a threat to Dex, all Jex has to do is NOT turn over the tape. How hard is that? So if the show doesn't want give Jex any obstacles, fine. Don't. But for the LOVE OF GOD please stop acting like Joss and Dex are star-crossed lovers who've overcome unbelievable odds to be together. Because as it stands, none of their angst comes across as angst because nothing bad ever actually happens to or for them.
Sprina
I'm sorry, but what exactly was the point of putting Sprina together if you weren't going to allow them to be happy for more than one day in a row? Is it because your too cowardly to allow Jex to face tension and disagreement that you instead have forced Sprina to endure all of it? I mean seriously. You put Sprina together only to then immediately have Trina get upset at Spencer for being rude to Dex. Then you have the two of them get back on good terms during the IP story line, only to then have them turn around and immediately have tension over Esme and Ace. Then they again get back into each others good graces only for Spencer to then pick a fight with Dex and upset Trina again. Then for the third time they make up only to then have Trina get upset with Spencer again because of Victor's evidence.
So before anyone comments about all of this being Spencer's fault, OF COURSE IT'S HIS FAULT. Because that's what the writers have decided. That's how TV shows work. So my question isn't why are Sprina having problems, my question is why have the writers decided that constant tension and disappointment is good for their relationsip? And please don't blame fans. Nobody, and I mean nobody wants this couple to have less to do with Esme and Ace and Jex than Sprina fans. So this constant need for those three to come between Sprina and their happiness is 100% the fault of the writers. And it feels as though this is happening because neither Esme or Jex are capable of standing on their own. And if that's true, then that's the fault of the writers. Stop punishing Sprina for that. Because right now, I can't feel any kind of angst towards Sprina when they never actually have happiness.
Tolly
I truly love Tolly, but every time I see them on screen together, I know either something terrible has happened or about to happen. Because, be honest with yourself, how many happy moments have you seen between these two over the TEN YEARS that they've been together? Was it the time that TJ was kidnapped and tortured? Was it the time that Molly cheated with Brando after 72 hours of no communication with TJ after Jordan lied to her? Was it just last month when they were told that they couldn't have children? Was it their commitment ceremony that TJ seems to still resent because it wasn't an official wedding? Was it the last time they made love? (Spoiler alert, we've never seen this). Again, the angst ain't angsting because we never actually see them happy for more than an episode at a time.
ChaLynn
As bad as the treatment of Sprina has been, ChaLynn has probably still been worse. And why is that? Because from day, their entire relationship has revolved around and been controlled by a third party character. It started with baby Louise. It was a cute enough story to use as the start of ChaLynn's relationship, but once the rouse was over, it didn't actually lead to a relationship. That came about later when the two worked together to take Linc down. Except they both artificially decided that they couldn't mix business with pleasure. But the thing is, they sucked at the business. THEY LITERALLY ACHIEVED NOTHING. Not one thing. Brooklyn got the rights to her songs back not because she and Chase were successful in their attempt to blackmail Linc, but because Brook Lynn made a deal with him. And this in part came about because she and Chase weren't on good terms because she lied to him about his ability to get his badge back.
Then, once Linc was finally taken down, it again had nothing to do with what Brook Lynn and Chase accomplished. Instead, it happened because Blaze had the courage to call Linc out on stage, which is turn gave Brook Lynn the courage to do the same. So in the end, not only did Brook Lynn and Chase fail to get evidence against Linc, but Chase wasn't even the one who gave Brook Lynn the courage to stand up for herself, which means that the show wasted 18 months on a story only for it do nothing to strengthen ChaLynn, but instead actively make them worse. So much so that now, nobody really cares about this couple and fewer people actually want them together.
And why is that? Because now that they finally are together, it's not because of the strength of their love or connection, but because Tracy got involved. Chase believes that Brook Lynn's good word and his hard work is what got him his badge back. But of course that can't be the reason he did, because that would mean that they were headed for happiness. So instead, ChaLynn is only together because Tracy throw her weight around at Brook Lynn's request, which means that Brook Lynn is once again lying to Chase about his job. And because Brook Lynn is lying to Chase, she's now being blackmailed by Tracy to cause harm at Deception and harm people that both she and Chase care about, meaning that Chase will have another reason to no trust or like Brook Lynn. And let's not forget, Chase didn't even really decided to pursue Brook Lynn again on his own. Rather it was Tracy that shamed Chase into asking Brook Lynn to get together. So again, it's hard to feel angst for ChaLynn when they're never actually happy.
Millow
Millow is really just the worst parts of Jex and ChaLynn combined. A relationship that started because of third party (Wiley)? Check. A relationship that started after an unnecessary act of infidelity (Willow cheating on a dying Chase) that could've been avoided if the person in the relationship could've just acted like an adult and taken the time to speak to the person they claimed to care about? Check. A relationship that's almost entirely dependent on made up obstacles that they themselves could've either avoided all together or quickly fixed (Nina, Dex, Chase, Willow's cancer, IT, Sonny) Check. Again, what are we doing here?
Terry and Yuri
This is the one couple on this show that's universally beloved and yet they get less that zero screen time. Why show Terry being in a happy relationship and thriving when she can remain a PC hire that's rarely seen and mention/referenced even less? Why show Yuri evolved as a character beyond his role as a body guard when you can just send him off screen for the summer to Russia to help translate for Laura when Valentine is already going and is known to speak Russian? I mean, can you even imagine?
The Rest
Remember when Liz and Finn had potential only for them to make Finn an overbearing pest and give him the meatiest part's of Liz's 25th anniversary story and thus soil any potential this relationship had? Remember how (before today), Jordan hadn't had anyone in her life romantically/sexually for 3 years? Remember the last time the show did literally anything to give Kristina (a hottie regardless of the actress) a love interest? Remember when gay couples existed? Remember when Nava was good before you sacrificed them for a character that you've now reduced to a one note "where's my baby?" being? Remember when we saw Laura/Kevin and Mac/Felica, Lucy/Martin for reasons that weren't tied back to their families? Remember when Austin and Britt had mad chemistry only for the show to ignore it and force her together with Cody only to them immediately kill her? Remember when Maxie was actually treated like a person with romantic value?
Conclusion
So in conclusion, they only relationships that you can really make an argument for being balanced in anyway, shape, or form with both happy and troublesome moments are Vanna, Sona, and Crew. And because of this, the show is suffering. Nobody wants just one couple to be happy while the rest are all different levels of depressed, angry and upset. Nobody wants only one or two couples to get all of the writing. Nobody wants to see the same three or four emotional beats played over and over again. But sadly, nobody also expects anything to change.

Mine is easily William Gay’s never-ending celebration after his pick-6 against the Bengals. Something about the camera cutting back to a new celebrations (even well after the flag) sends me every time.

I'm a big supporter of Pride, and I think it's great that zwift has Pride rides and Pride kit so everyone can reinforce that there are all sorts of sexuality and everyone can pretty much be themselves and be accepted, without needing to feel ashamed because they don't match a single definition of sexuality, etc. On that basis, I like to ride in the Pride kit and do the Pride rides.
The problem is though, I've only got a little bit of time to be using Zwift, and I want to train hard in that time. I don't want to be the guy who turns up to the coffee cruise and races it, but otherwise it will compromise either my training program, or the rest of my riding, or my ability to show support for Pride.
I hate a stereotype as much as the next stereotypical leftie, but let's face it, there's an awful lot of gay people who put in an awful lot of effort to make themselves strong and fast. Surely we could at least have some banded workouts or something?

I was watching a video about MyHouse.WAD and there was a phrase "if I had a nickel for every time a horror game turned out to ba a gay love story, I would have 2 nickels". One of the games the author referred to is the game, a video is about, but what is the other one? It sounds familiar, but i cant remember of what. Does anyone have a guess?
(i dont know what platform or year, i just assumed)

I’m a 32 year old male.
As a teenager I struggled with bulimia. I was underweight.
When my mother found out I was yelled and cursed at. I was told I had girl problems. I was then later threatened to therapy not for the disorder but because I was assumed to be gay for it and needed to be “fixed”.
Later on would be diagnosed with bipolar type 1 at 18 and hospitalized.
Favorite part of mania is the loss of appetite. I would go days and days without eating.
I later moved to China for work . I suffered another manic episode and had psychosis for my first time. Impulsively quit a job. Was lost in a new culture and language and did not know how to navigate. Managed to get help and support from muddled aged women who were often cheating their husbands to spend time with me. I think this adds to feelings of not owning myself and body.
I would later be in a relationship involving domestic violence against .
Having control of my body feels like the only think I can control at times. And I feel anger and disgust if I do not cut off things like calories to influence my body.
I hate being a male that deals with body dysmorphia.

I’m a 32 year old male.
As a teenager I struggled with bulimia. I was underweight.
When my mother found out I was yelled and cursed at. I was told I had girl problems. I was then later threatened to therapy not for the disorder but because I was assumed to be gay for it and needed to be “fixed”.
Later on would be diagnosed with bipolar type 1 at 18 and hospitalized.
Favorite part of mania is the loss of appetite. I would go days and days without eating.
I later moved to China for work . I suffered another manic episode and had psychosis for my first time. Impulsively quit a job. Was lost in a new culture and language and did not know how to navigate. Managed to get help and support from muddled aged women who were often cheating their husbands to spend time with me. I think this adds to feelings of not owning myself and body.
I would later be in a relationship involving domestic violence against .
Having control of my body feels like the only think I can control at times. And I feel anger and disgust if I do not cut off things like calories to influence my body.
I hate being a male that deals with body dysmorphia.

I’m a 32 year old male.
As a teenager I struggled with bulimia. I was underweight.
When my mother found out I was yelled and cursed at. I was told I had girl problems. I was then later threatened to therapy not for the disorder but because I was assumed to be gay for it and needed to be “fixed”.
Later on would be diagnosed with bipolar type 1 at 18 and hospitalized.
Favorite part of mania is the loss of appetite. I would go days and days without eating.
I later moved to China for work . I suffered another manic episode and had psychosis for my first time. Impulsively quit a job. Was lost in a new culture and language and did not know how to navigate. Managed to get help and support from muddled aged women who were often cheating their husbands to spend time with me. I think this adds to feelings of not owning myself and body.
I would later be in a relationship involving domestic violence against .
Having control of my body feels like the only think I can control at times. And I feel anger and disgust if I do not cut off things like calories to influence my body.
I hate being a male that deals with body dysmorphia.