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It’s something that seemed very curious to me, the drastic change in my birthday celebrations bc of my Nparents.
At 14 Just love bombing. I remember everything felt empty and fake as usual. I used to be the golden child and they would always give me something I wanted on this and previous birthdays.
At 15 They threw a big party that I didn't want and they got really upset because I was "ungrateful". A few months before this birthday I started to set limits because they already wanted to start with the physical abuse, but I put a very clear stop. This obviously puzzled and upset them greatly.
At 16 they gave me only a bouquet of flowers and a speech: "Stop being oblivious and go back to the obedient girl you were, I love you and that's why I brought you flowers. If you don't change it's out of selfishness and you’ll become an idiot." Apart from a small meeting with stupid friends of THEM.
And now that I'm 17 years old, I hoped they wouldn't even remember it because I honestly didn't want a bit of their hypocrisy. This was the celebration:
They remembered and as expected they didn't give me any gifts, there was just another damn meeting with their idiots friends and I guess the money they spent on the meeting was my gift.
I think at this point birthdays don't mean anything special to me, but I hope that at least they can be happy days in the future. I'll work for it haha.

I seek a sweet, smart, pretty girl I love to make happy fully, to make smile loudly, to satisfy deeply, who is my pleasure to please. I'm patient to gain trust, to build a connection by communicating, seeing if there is attraction and learn what we want. I'm open to begin with chatting, talking and seeing if there is chemistry for exploring romance, seduction, spontaneity, creating highs with teasing to pleasing, almost anytime, anywhere. Once we are sure of our attraction. I like sharing affections, cuddles to kisses, to earn my turn, to prove myself, giving massages to multiples, so much that we grow to be exclusive. This munch passion makes me seek someone special, perhaps a shy inexperienced woman curious to explore the best loving pleasures and feelings or maybe a woman with an insatiable libido yearning for one man to keep her full/filled.
I want more than just lust, where we feel butterflies gazing in our eyes, holding hands, loving spending quality time together. I like anticipating, feeling a primal passion, a romantic hunger in my belly that brings out the lover-giver in me (tho I love receiving too). A spark in me starts with what I feel from seeing pretty eyes and smiles, combined with personality, poise, voice, and even an accent. Some eye shapes I like can be described as upturned, almond or cat-eyes (and any color). I like skin tones from white to olive, dark tan skin. I like only natural curves, in the right places on a thin to thick, voluptuous, hourglass shape, natural bigger lips on your mouth and on your kitty (my username checks out-ies ;)
I prefer larger, longer, darker labia minora because they're extra arousing to see, admire, kiss, lick, nibble, suck on, play with, feel, wrap around, and spread with tongue or D during kitty lip n clit worship. Sometimes lovely longer lady-lips may be hidden by puffy labia majora, while some are "outies" protruding, some can dangle, spread like butterfly wings, like a fuller flower with big pretty petals blooming with nectar. You probably know if you're blessed with lips bigger than average. Speaking of which, I'm above average down below and cut. I also prefer labia that are darker pink to tan brown, as well as those colors of nipples and fuller areolas because they make me hungriest to kiss, suckle, breast-nipple worship, including dry or wet ANR, ABF. I can be open-minded in bed, with sexy roleplay, foreplay, edging, sweet gentle pillow princess, face-riding/queening, Gspot to cervix massage, to rougher play, both sub and dom dynamics, giving and receiving multiple Os, breaking records, within shorter and longer sexy sessions. I can get into erotica, writing, talking aloud, discussing fantasies, learning your kinks. I get ideas on how to give better pleasures, learning, trying techniques, including designs for toys/furniture, multiples ways to keep a woman happily cumming and cuddling. This link has interesting info, useful to see diversity of women's labia, and many are the larger range I prefer. (NSFW) https://gynodiversity.com/panels
I'm cute, fit, fun/ny, 5'11", hygienic, healthy, white with blue eyes, brown hair, soft beard (for now), single with no kids. I enjoy reading, documentaries, podcasts, comedy, cooking, nature, hiking, exercising, science, arts. Keeping healthy is a passion of mine, including a whole-plant food diet, yet I may be open to 420/drinks during loving. While playing together, I like to listen to/make DJ mixes with styles including chillout, chillwave, deephouse, indiedance, nudisco, dubtechno, dreampop, downtempo, synthwave, ambient and open to other music. What are some of your favorite music genres/bands/songs? (No one ever answers this question :)
If you relate to what I wrote, we can use the Reddit live DM/PM to decide if we want to verify with voice, pics/live video, etc. I may be open to distance, but prefer Los Angeles losangeles LA L.A. SoCal, Ca

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Haste I think there have been things I've done, or especially things I've refrained from doing for reasons of my own. I always thought I was doing so with you in mind, but maybe it's not fair of me to interpret what you need. Yes, I'm worried this is unfair. No, it's not stopped me before. But if I'm off this is the most unfair of all. But here we have it. Some of the good, peeking out under the rubble and confusion. You set me and my whole world alight. Relentlessly. Without fail. The way the thought of you is a physical sensation has not abated in the slightest. I keep noting it because it's just the most intense and perplexing thing and it's completely unique to you. Like you're pulling at my soul. Or my soul is trying to pull me to you from the inside. I don't need to see you for that, the thought is more than sufficient, but when I do see you? When I look, it's amplified by a hundred. You are, simply put, fucking hot. Overtly and subtly. You're somehow even more staggering when you're at ease. Those types are my all-time favourite snapshots of you. And you don't even know it. People just appear when you're single, do they? No guesses as to why that is, you big dumb beautiful man? And looks only get you so far. You are the whole package, others that want you probably don't even know or get the best of you like I do and still it's true for them. Even my damaged ass knew it from the start. God, I want you. To kiss all the worries and apologies away until all that's left is the sound of our breathing. To let the earth moving desire take over and work each others bodies to exhaustion. Do you have any idea how difficult it is to not call in the best sex of my life when I haven't had any in over five years? Can you imagine how jealous I feel when I think of your situation, how I might be stirring up these feelings and they're being delivered elsewhere? When it hits, it is shockingly ugly and hateful, as powerful and unflinching as everything else you inspire in me. I've gone from horny to tears in 60secs. It's just crazy. You make me crazy. I don't know that I'll ever be immune to you. It's just different, what we have. Like it's in my nature, in the stars, I don't know. You have so much power over me, though you might not feel it. You have the power to completely halt my life in its tracks, to steal anyone and everyone's thunder, to reduce me to anything from a quivering mess to a sobbing mess. Always with the mess... And that's just from a distance. I might be all kinds of fucked up, might not be able to love you in the way you deserve yet, maybe never, but from the very depths of my being I love you the best I can and I always will, there will never be another you to me. Whether I continue as a car crash or I make my way to you, whether you're receptive or not in that eventuality. Whether we can ever get it right. Always. Always sorry, here, yours, with the mess, with all my heart. ~ Bottling things up (unfinished)
I'm still not sure of all that I'm feeling right now. Sorry, I imagine it's hard for you to keep up too. But having everything on the table can only be a good thing surely. And that's what is getting me. Where are you? Why do I still feel like I'm giving everything and you're not? It's worse because I'm letting myself be influenced by things I don't know. That I've had to guess or have read on throwaway accounts. I feel unstable...I feel let down. I feel like a hypocrite, because I'm not perfect by any stretch. So what's my issue? Why am I annoyed that you're not telling me to feel less guilty when I know I deserve it? Why am I expecting you to do things I can't? I suppose, I just feel like I am really pushing myself, still, and you're still keeping me at arms length. I'm being unfair. I suppose, that's why I'm feeling drawn to you again. You're hurting me and I like it. This feels like love to me. Is this how you wanted your love to feel? You talked about me setting you free. What a joke. I know I've said how I won't think badly of you etc., I do mean that, but that comes from a place of care for you, being unwilling to put more stress upon you. Fear of being a bad person. So I compromise myself in order to deliver the most gentle truth I can tell instead of the most authentic. Yeesh that's deep. Didn't know that until now :l I
~ True to form, he walked away Said he loved her, didn't stay May I have your peace please? An unspoken favour brought to fruition Not the most loving of decisions She really did try to empathize But feared a lie in disguise She'd never known love, just neglect Resounding familiarity hit while she wept Perhaps this is love after all Love always making her feel small Love that always leaves her alone Love that comes and always goes Maybe love isn't meant to stay That would explain him walking away Love is another word for pain ~
S--
Wrote. He loves someone else too. Or instead of. Or it's all a lie or a game. I feel...totally annihilated. I love him and I hate him. It's all pointless and a waste of time. Staying away is best for both of us, we are both disasters. He's crushed me on purpose. I just don't get it. How is it that he loves me but doesn't give any consideration to me? I feel so fucked up. I wish I knew what the fuck is going on, this is driving me mad and it's only been half a day. I realised maybe this is him trying to fill in some blanks in a really shitty way. I guess we'll see what the next few days hold
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You changed everything when you entered my life. Neither of us ever anticipated what it would become, I'm sure of that much. Of course, I had made no secret of my desire to be close with you, I already knew I adored many things about you. But then I found so many more once your walls came down. The magnetism I felt between us, still feel, it's unlike anything else. We are unmatched in that regard. A photo of your face... Honestly. Just that fucking gorgeous face, those pleading eyes. You left me. I know, that's not how we're supposed to see it, but I know how it ended up feeling. The loss of you was like all the light disappeared. I've not seen myself in years for the darkness. I couldn't even see an us for a long while. I was caught unawares when you came back, professing to have loved me all along. Understandably so, since you never said anything and went as far as to deny it at times. I am...not the fastest mover. It can take me a long time to process things. You rushed me, inadvertently into the correct decision, but even so. I tried to draw a hard line. You resisted. I falter in my resistance and you withdraw- you make either shockingly thoughtless or facetious moves which actively hurt me.
Bla bla fuck off K------
...(unfinished)?
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It's been such a long time now. In the cold and dark. I had thought I'd gotten over it, over you, but I don't think I've been the same since. I've sought emptiness, rejection and solitude even in my daydreams these past years.
I've been around the houses on what to do with this situation. I don't fully understand, it's impossible to see the full picture without the definition only you could provide.
I think, I want to say goodbye. Close the chapter properly. I'm not abandoning you, I will be at the other end of the phone if you need me. I'm pretty much asking permission here. It just hurts. It hurts a fucking lot, and I'm in a state, I don't really want to go through all the stress of fixing my life just to be greeted with heartache. I just want peace. Safety. And you have a full life, I don't want to be hanging over you like a dark cloud. I want you to live freely.
Do you want to see me?
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I want to see you
Can we? I feel like I'm going crazy. I want something solid. I want to see you. Please?
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A recipe for hurt
Wine, love, a dash of detail, flavour, spice and promises. Combine with me.
Stir. Add heat. Keep stirring. Never let it rest. Stir. More heat. More stirring.
Reduce it.
Until it's sticky. Switch off. You can rest now. I'm stuck to the hot pan. Not going anywhere. I won't leave you. Not even when you sit back and watch as I burn.
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Sometimes you make me feel worthless. Monitored but not cared for. Never enough to be cared for.
Other times, I feel helpless. Disgusting. Volatile. Like I should hide myself away for your safety. I can't possibly be what you need.
Where do you go when pain is all around?
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What about me? (Unfinished)
Over the years a number of people have been given a little piece of me for themselves. Some, used it to build themself back up. I am a part of them. Others, didn't know what to do with a piece of me. They didn't care for the sentiment. But it mattered not, the piece was theirs to do with as they pleased. Now only a scarce few haven't (yet) returned to reintroduce me to the once little piece of me, flourishing under the host's eventual conclusion that they can accept the unwavering love and care it exists to offer.
You were supposed to get a little piece of me. I already admired you from afar, then, I could see you hurting and I wanted to make it better. I wanted you to realise what you were capable of, what you could have and most definitely what you under no circumstances should have to tolerate. I wanted you to have complete faith that you were cared about, cared for, desirable, deserving, admirable, full of amazing, good qualities. You are innately good natured. So soft under it all. Child like.
You became something different to me. I began to need you. The sweet good mornings and goodnights. The approval, the sameness, the reciprocity. I realised I had to be something different for you, because I loved you. That was scary. The thought of holding a piece of you in my hands (behave) was like the ultimate dream and an absolute nightmare. Because I wasn't ready to accept it, for good reasons and admittedly stupid and regrettable reasons. You get that. I know you do.
I did what I do best and I went away. I had aimed to fix what I could and return. But, I was hurting and confused. Everything was on my shoulders. Things you had said previously were ringing in my ears, I knew you'd move on fast and it taunted me day and night. I became somebody different alright... But not in the right direction. I vascillated between self deprecation and self pity. I was in no fit state for anyone but you were all I thought of, I couldn't have stopped myself reaching for you any of the times I did. Even though you gave me no hope. No care. I felt like I was bleeding out while you watched.
It changed me. I have been different since that year I spent chasing after you. I'm closed off, totally disengaged from people in the real world. I've not even had a proper sex chat since 😂. It's not all your fault, not even mostly your fault. I am still sorry. I'd never tried to love or be loved before. Not to mention, I still believe we have something more than your everyday love. You have altered the trajectory of my life, thrice now. Nobody else has that power over me.
I had been talking to someone else, though I was writing to them more than I ever spoke to them, if that makes sense. I had been slowly, privately, building my confidence. Working my way through a tonne of negativity that had been building up since long before you. But keeping myself safe, unreachable. I've been a bit of a mess. But I was really making progress and felt he and I were both really growing into my appreciation of him, right as I found you 😂
It was such a shock. I felt everything all at once. I didn't understand what on earth was happening on any front.
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Disappear
That was your plan. Do you remember that conversation?
Is that still your plan? Might there be room for one more? Nothing would make me happier. Sometimes, I think it's the only way.
Disappear with me? Even if just for a little while. Wrap me up in those arms and hide me away. I don't want to see anything else, feel anything else but you. Shield me from the lingering chill of your distance. Disappear with me. Please. We can make it all disappear.
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To me to you
As I said, I'm sorry I wrote from a bad place. You reached for me. I reached back and you dropped your hands. That's not how you said this was going to work.
When I found you, big shock, lots of feelings etc etc. For the first couple of weeks, I wasn't really sure what I was doing, feeling, everything was in limbo.
I wasn't fixated on whether the letters were all for me, I just found it hard to understand- your continued ambiguity was such a contradiction. I mean, you can't say 'hindsight is a farce' and then talk about your regrets looking back immediately after. That doesn't make sense. We still weren't communicating.
You pushed me. Tick tick tick. I wanted to set you free, I don't know. It was eating me up, I have had so much going through my head. I thought I was leaning the other way for a while. I did nothing though. Mostly, I was just thinking of you and us.
By the time I was reaquainted with my feelings for you, I was hurt by the things I'd realised and kind of dismayed with how things were playing out here. If that was my fault, which I can totally see how, I get it. Let me make amends. I want us to be on equal, even footing.
May I be struck down if I'm lying, I was honestly thinking about asking to see you moments before you asked 😂. I don't know what I said or did to make you push me away once I finally decided to break the last barrier between us. Or like I said, whether it was, ugh, you know all that I said. There are so many possibilities.
It's mostly one general possibility that brought me here. Brought me back. Kept me here through everything. Has got me writing this despite you literally denying everything.
You. You're unique. You're you. Perfect. Someone to me. Always. Infinity. Us. All the things that have happened that don't just happen. All the ways you make me feel and even the ways I feel them.
I'm not sure who I'm writing this one for. I suppose, it depends on what happens next. And I don't know that either.
I believe at this point I've covered everything essential between the two messages. Over to you.
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Hurry up
Sort your head out. Listen to me. Believe it. Try.
Where are you? Where should I be? Show me the way.
My soul is going to leave my body trying to pull me to you from the inside.
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Reach
Do it again. Please. We're so close, don't stop repeating until we are there. I feel it's just this one thing and everything will be right. Give me your hand. Allow me to get a steady grip and I won't let go.
Where are you? Where should I be? That's all I need. You and me. We'll get there. Have faith. Try. Feel. Do you feel my love for you? I keep sending more of it out there. It's all around you by now. Wishing you well. Smiling when you're smiling. Babbling on in your ear that you could have my help picking up the pieces.
Yours,
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All I know is how I feel. What I'm capable of. What I have to give.
It takes a birthday wish, a genie with their fingers crossed and a sacrifice to the heavens for me to form so much as a comfortable rapport with someone. More so since the first time I fell in love with you. Yes.
Please, soldier, lower your weapons? Not your defences. I understand. I too am battered and bruised under my armour. I need medical attention and a place to rest and recuperate. You said you had what I needed, picked up my broken heart and sent it ahead. Why won't you tell me where to find it?
I feel it. Fixed. Already looking forward to the next time you'll spend time caring for it. It trusts you. Though it does want out of the testing facility.
Won't you trust it to stay close by if you let it out? ~
I'm scared
of looking a fool. Being dumb. Of seeming insincere when it's all I've been and want to be. That I'll hurt or disappoint you. Of not being able to give you what you want. Being left. Being hurt. Being loved.
I forgive you. It's been an impossible situation, I am well aware of that.
Forgive me for the pain and confusion while you waited for me to get properly reaquainted with and admit to my feelings for you. This has all been so, so challenging to navigate. I did what I thought was best for you. True to form, I made things harder than they could have been. I think. I really do need your insight to know for sure how to break down what happened.
So, yeah, I'm scared. Terrified. Still. But most of all I'm scared that I'm one letter away from the chance to learn the minutiae of our love. ~
You and I
We've made a lot of mistakes, it's true. I regret mine. I'm sorry. I know you feel the same. The journey has been a long one and the terrain unforgiving.
One of these days, at least I sincerely hope, our walls will be down concurrently. We aren't that strong, love, we can't run from this indefinitely. We are going to sink down in shared bliss onto the rubble and not get back up for many sunsets and sunrises.
Until that day, I will likely be alone. I already am, have been since you. Just so you know my intention. I won't be seeking solace elsewhere. There are no prerequisites, it's what I want. To be yours. When I look back I think I always have.
I've fallen for you twice. Yes. I love everything about you. Everything. I will continue to love you while we are opposed, I will long for when we intersect. I know you feel that too. That will have to be enough, won't it?
You brought life to my fading heart. Now it's ran away to be with you. It texts. It's happy there. I'm happy it's there. Thank you for everything, even if you didn't mean to.
I forgive you and I love you.
Always here,
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Hi, sorry about that. And for the late message. x2. And the fact this one is so long haha. Hmm any more apologies? I don't think so? A platitude- no stress about replying, neither when or if.
I'm going to preface this by saying that I genuinely had left you, as requested, more or less in the friendzone until a few months ago...But since then, loads of stuff has been happening r.e our history (unrelated to our catch up in March btw). Could we have a face to face to talk about it? A walk, drive? Liquid lunch may be indicated 😂 I could travel to wherever works for you. Anything I could do to make you feel comfortable enough to agree, it's yours, just let me know. It's really, really put me through the wringer. I've not been able to talk to anyone about it except S--- because I wanted to protect us both, and she wasn't very helpful haha. I don't expect anything from you at all. Just wish to look you in the eye and ask you about it? Air it all out. Please? It wouldn't be unpleasant for you in any way. I realise it's not always been easy here 🙈 I swear I'm in full possession of things like self control nowadays haha. This isn't a ploy, I don't wish to confess my feelings to you, if you're worried, though I'll admit this has brought them back slowly. But I won't be weird about it. Umm weirder* I guess, but I swear thoughts or feelings aren't where all this is coming from! 😂 I'm not going keep writing if you say no. I know I have form for it so please rest assured the crazy is not about to start back up. I was gonna move fac for unrelated reasons and I don't have to return. It's all your call. I just don't know what else to do. It's been months, I thought it was being resolved and now it's worse than ever. I genuinely just want to unravel what on earth I've just been through tbh and talking will help either way. You'll understand why if you'll allow me the space to show you. I know it's weird, but we're some kind of friends right? So I'm hoping you'll afford me the benefit of the doubt... And perhaps an hour or two of your time :3 double please.
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The majority I've written the last couple of weeks. Quite the journey. Where will I end up? You tell me.

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Hey Everyone, It's been a while haha. I made a post a while back about my initial impressions of the students based upon my experiences as a teacher. Here's a link to that thread if you'd like to read it first: First Impressions
It took me much longer to complete my first playthrough than I anticipated, but I was very thorough in my exploration time and so I attribute it mostly to that and well ... life. I feel like it's harder to speak to the characters as students now but I'll try to revisit some of my earlier thoughts as well as how I view them as a person. (because we all know students aren't people /s)
**Obviously Spoilers Incoming**
I chose the Black Eagles House and went through the Crimson Flower Route:
Edelgard:
- I was pretty spot on with Edelgard when I said she would have high expectations. Early on I wondered if I would get annoyed with her tone towards you as a teacher, but I don't think she ever asked too much of me. I enjoyed her vulnerability with our support conversations and also her interactions with other students. She was stern when she needed to be and while she clearly held herself to a certain standard of etiquette she was human with them too. I guess the elephant in the room with Edelgard is do I find her actions justified. I struggled with this a bit initially because I knew the choice that was incoming (couldn't avoid spoilers for myself) but after I played up to the decision to side with her or the church the choice was obvious in my heart. Now some of this can be attributed to the way the writers/voice actors make Rhea creepy and ultimately wrathful (sounding) but I can't imagine not siding with Edelgard. I also largely agree with her ideals and enjoyed that I was a soldier in the end and not a King or Archbishop. Also, the ending scene *beautiful*
Hubert:
- I said Hubert would be arrogant but not too bad. I think arrogant was the wrong read initially. He's really never a student to you and I think this is for the sake of his role in the story but it made it hard to ever really feel like I knew him or "cared" about him. For a long time I made him Edelgard's adjutant because it felt right and that's really what he is, Edelgard's story assistant. I did enjoy the line during instruction "Maybe I was taught well" (or something like that) but really that was the only moment I felt a connection to him. Our final support scene together was sweet and that's when I started letting him battle again haha. I will say Hubert's interactions with other characters were great. I especially enjoyed his support dialogues with Petra and it shows he's not a "bad" guy, he just never really felt like a student.
Ferdinand:
- Man ... Ferdinand. The tale of two parts. I said arrogant and know it all for him and that's certainly how he is at first. This is how Hubert would have been if he felt like a student. I felt like Ferdinand grew under my instruction. I felt like our interactions were special and substantial. He was so introspective at times that it really made me hold him in high regard as I continued playing. I wanted him to succeed. However, there were some moments that made me annoyed with him. I found his dialogue when offering him a lost item particularly grating. It is something to the effect of "how dare you think this is mine." While this is on par for his early character it is a fault in the system to have it continue after he has made such growth. His support dialogues are somewhat forgetful compared to the everyday interactions we had but there's a good amount of comedic value with Ferdinand (especially his eating with Edelgard dialogue) . And then there is post time skip Ferdinand ... what did they do to my boy. He became what I would've suspected of Sylvain and that's fine, live your life and all that but it seemed like he lost his "heart" the things that made him endearing and special. I could go on but I'll give one example to wrap this up. His support dialogue with Bernedetta early on was so sweet and really painted a misunderstood picture of him ... and then the final support is like "we were almost married. Ok Bye." Sure, I got the comedic value of it all but it just wasn't the same and I missed that student I got to know and care about.
Caspar:
- I had said Caspar would work hard and maybe sometimes try too hard. This is overall pretty accurate and going in I didn't have any expectations on Caspar. Low expectations may have yielded my endearing opinion of him but I also think he wasn't terribly memorable either. As a student he was kind of one note, "I want to be stronger to protect people." The term escapes me, but he is a character like Naruto or Natsu in that he could be an anime main character but minus some of the depth a long running series protagonist may develop. Our support interactions were initially good in that it showed his struggle with being brash and the issues that may cause but then it ended with "I'm just going to be me." The same thing happened with Caspar and Hubert's support dialogues, "think about your actions ... thought about them ... Just be you." As a teacher, I would cheer for Caspar and I liked him. As a viewer I would get tired of him and I ultimately did. That said, I loved his and Bernie's supports and I will always ship them now.
Dorothea:
- I said Dorothea would be attentive and a good student but that maybe her casual language with the teacher could be troublesome. I think I was right on all accounts really. If you really like Dorothea maybe skip this one haha. I found Dorothea to be my least favorite character. As far as a teacher-student dynamic goes Dorothea was great. I liked her feedback and generally liked our interactions and her interactions with other characters weren't tiresome or annoying. I think what it came down to is that she just never surprised me. I wasn't a fan of Hubert but man did he surprise me on occasion and then I'm audibly saying "I see you Hubert." I never had those moments with Dorothea, instead I had more than my share of eyerolls. The crowning moment with Dorothea for me was right before the final battle her dialogue input is something like "I hope I find a man after this is all over." Like ... we are about to fight a dragon and that's your contribution. I understand her story, I do, and I sympathize with her. I know that because of her past her arrogance and superiority are defense mechanisms against an elite that shunned her and treated her like trash. I guess I needed that moment of weakness from her and maybe it's there in some support dialogue (the closest I got being her support with Linhardt) but she just never gave me a moment to remember her by and instead became a little annoying.
Petra:
- I had said Petra would be a good student who maybe needed some language acquisition help. This is what Petra is as a student and as a character. She is kind of one note but man do I love her. This is mostly an aesthetic choice on my part because everything about Petra's look is wonderful. She stands out but not obnoxiously so, she looks unique and feels like the foreigner she is supposed to be. She has some great instruction dialogue that makes you want to help her learn. Our support dialogues were good but pretty plain, just explaining her reasoning and what not. Where Petra really shined though was in her support dialogue with other characters. The "I don't speak the language" trope would have made her pretty boring if not for her interactions with other characters. I especially liked her conversations with Edelgard, Hubert, and Caspar. She showed so many wonderful qualities like independence, conviction, humor, self awareness ... I could go on. Now all that said She and Dorothea are really the same in being kind of one note overall, but I guess I connected more with Petra and I can't point to any one reason why. I loved them both as students but as characters Petra just spoke to me more.
Bernedetta:
- I had said she would be fine to teach but shy. The writers obviously painted her this way from the get go and she does follow that trope faithfully. As a student her little moments of success were so nice and I liked her instruction lines. The yelling, which I'm sure is a meme, was fine ... sometimes annoying, sometimes funny. Our interactions were obviously building up to the moment she steps out of her room but I didn't find it as rewarding as maybe it was intended to be. The real shining moments for Bernedetta were in her support dialogue with other characters (is becoming a theme as I type). Now, these supports follow a formula of "sweet moment ... Bernie realizes she's vulnerable ... she screams." sometimes this was cute, sometimes this was an *eye roll* but I mostly liked them. My favorites were her early Ferdinand supports and her Caspar supports. I thought that I wanted Ferdinand and Bernie to be together until I got that final Caspar support. The way she stood up for what she wanted and took on an uncomfortable situation for her own happiness was touching and made me really want to use her again. I think Bernedetta was the one character I went in not liking that much to wanting to always talk to when I see her.
Linhardt:
- I said Linhardt sleeping wouldn't bother me and that made him a wash as a student. Obviously this was a little bit of a misdirect to make him seem lazy when he's a bit more complex than that. Linhardt was an interesting student. His whole "I'm awake" and similar lines grew old after a while but his support dialogues with me and other students were interesting and made him more endearing to me. I liked that he's just kind of searching for his purpose. The thing about Linhardt that I enjoyed the most was how wise he is. His interaction with Lysithea was really a nice moment as well as an interesting one in how he went about making her realize things about herself and her situation. However, Linhardt also had some Sheldon Cooper moments (which I'm a Sheldon fan) but they could be a little frustrating sometimes. He also had a Dorothea type line before the final battle about crests and so I was rolling my eyes a bit. Overall he had his moments and I didn't mind the ones that were just meh.
Lysithea:
- I recruited Lysithea. I had said maybe sometimes she'd ask questions rudely but would be a good student. I think Lysithea is great, but she can be pretty childish, sometimes comedically so. I understand that she's ~16 while the others are ~18 but they really gave her some overtly childish things to do and say sometimes. As a student she was exactly like I thought she would be so nothing surprising there. As a character I really enjoyed her growth and her story. Our interactions together were cute and she was my Goddess Tower visit during the ball so that was a fun moment as well. I also enjoyed her moments with other characters especially Linhardt. Lysithea was my main target going in with the anticipation of her being one of my favorites. She didn't end up as my favorite but I did enjoy our time together.
Annette:
- Annette was my other recruit (that I intended to get) and I had said she'd probably want lots of extra credit and constantly ask how she was doing in class. This was a pretty accurate assessment of who Annette is as a student. Our early interactions were cute and endearing as she really wanted to do well. I know several characters do the little excited clenched fist cheer when instructing them but Annette's seemed to fit her the best and seemed cannon for how she would really react. Of all the students I most wanted to give Annette a hug. She seemed like she just needed to know she's of value and I wanted her to know I valued her. Her interactions with the Black Eagles weren't terribly memorable, but I did enjoy her and Linhardt's supports. I look forward to using her on a Blue Lions run.
Ingrid/Felix:
- I recruited them unintentionally because I interacted with EVERYONE haha. I didn't do much with them so I will use this to speak to recruitment in general. I wish I had gone in with the intent to only recruit 1-2 additional characters. It just becomes a little too overwhelming when you only use 10 in battle most of the time.
Faculty:
- A few people in my last post asked how I felt about the faculty so I'll mention them a bit here. It seems like maybe the writing focused on the students (as I would expect) and let the faculty be very one note so none of them really stand out but I'll list the ones I talked to a lot.
Alois:
- I liked Alois and our dialogue after Jeralt's death was really touching and I felt like he and I would've hugged and I'd have cried haha. I like that he just wants to be a good person and I want to get my support dialogue further with him next time to see what other interactions we might have.
Manuela:
- Manuela is Blanche Devereaux. If you don't know who that is ... look it up and thank me later for the best TV series of your life. I like her design and she was my wife's favorite character and I took her support to S but our interactions were kind of boring. She is what she is and I don't mind it but I also don't think I'll bother chatting her up in my next run.
Seteth:
- Seteth grew on me. He is meant to come across initially as a no nonsense kind of strict guy and all that but his supports are sweet and his interactions with Flayn were nice and made me like her more than I otherwise would have. I felt bad I couldn't bring him to my side but I wasn't heartbroken about either.
Rhea:
- Man ... Rhea is weird. She's got creepy vibes from the beginning and all the reveals and dialogue only made me like her less. I didn't know anything about her when she and the professor have their moment after he is wounded and like your head is in her lap but that moment didn't strike me as sweet ... it just felt weird. I think it will be hard for me to ever do the church route.
Flayn:
- Flayn is boring haha. I need to do more with her support wise I think but I felt like she was thrust upon me and told to like her but I just didn't.
Shamir:
- Shamir has a cool character design and that's why I gave her a lot of sunflowers but as I built our support I found myself less and less interested in what she had to say.
Jertiza:
- Jeritza and I had such a short life together but I think it could've been magical given more time. Something about his line delivery is satisfyingly dead pan and wonderful. He's also so strong by the time you get him that I used him frequently.
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Overall Impressions:
- I am going to have a really hard time playing any other route besides Crimson Flower. While not all of the students "spoke" to me I found Edelgard and her goals did speak to me and I loved this particular route.
Character Ranking:
Impacted Me Greatly: Edelgard, Annette
Love Them: Petra, Lysithea, Alois, Linhardt
Really Surprised Me: Bernedetta, Caspar, Seteth, Jeritza
So Much Potential: Hubert, Ferdinand
Avoid Talking To Next Time: Dorothea, Manuela, Rhea, Flayn, Shamir
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Be sure to comment your own thoughts and please understand these are just my thoughts, everyone likely had a different experience from my own so don't take it to heart when I say someone is boring haha.
I feel like there's thousands more things I could say. I love this game and have started a Golden Deer run, but I will miss Edelgard and will finish my journey with this game doing one more Crimson Flower playthrough. You never forget your first and it was beautiful.

I’m 17 and pre t, and I just wanna get this out. I’ve always felt guilty for being trans. I knew the effect it’d have on my parents, but I always tried not to think about it since I was younger. Now that the times coming that I wanna actually start to transition, it’s giving a really bad effect on my parents. Today my mom broke down in front of me and told me how we don’t have a bond anymore. We used to go out for pedicures, get our hair done, get our nails done, and now she feels like we can’t do that because I wouldn’t want to. She told me about how happy she was to have a daughter. I’m so heartbroken. I feel the absolute worst but I feel like I can’t stay presenting as a girl any longer. I don’t know how much longer I can do this, I’ve had so much crippling dysphoria lately and this just made things so much worse. I just wish I was never born. I wish my parents got the daughter they wanted.

For the last 2 years i’ve been identifying as asexual but i’m not so sure I am?
To elaborate, I feel like I’m stuck because lately I have just been insanely turned off by men. I used to identify as fluid but my history with any relationship that I actually committed to were with men. I’vehooked up with women but that’s about it. No serious relationships. So, most of my relationships ended because we weren’t sexually compatible. I just have little to no libido. Related to medication, plus sex is painful for me. I don’t want to be in a relationship where i’m constantly just trying to keep my partner happy but idk if asexual is right… I have been on dating websites but it’s tough. Everyone just wants to hook up right away. Im so tired of that pressure I could scream. I just want to find someone that’s okay with holding each other and moving at a pace we both are comfortable with and that’s so hard to find. I guess things are feeling extra confusing because i’ve been only looking for women on dating apps and I usually just say I’m here to meet someone and see how it goes from there and i’m not here for just hookups. I also have this false expectation and ideology already built in my head that i’ll feel so much more secure with a woman. It just goes to show that i’m so undateable right now lol I’ve given my body and mind a lot of time to heal and i feel ready for a companion but i’m just a hot a mess.🤦🏻‍♀️Sorry this was one big ramble thanks to the people who made it this far. lol Basically, I just want to cuddle and hold someone and vice versa. No pressure on sex just really learn each other vs sex first than learn each other.

Hi everyone,
In the quest 8 specs, it states how we could create a hash-table to solve our problem statement but that would it be inefficient as compared to a trie.
A hash table is a generalization of the array and if we were to use them to solve this problem, they would use a hash function to map prefixes (the keys) to set of strings that can follow it (values). A possible hash function could be the polynomial rolling hash function that converts a string into an integer. Since the hash function would have to process all the characters in the string, the time complexity for construction would be O(n) where where n is the length of the input string. This is the same for tries.
Hash tables and tries both take overall O(n) time for lookup. Still, tries to have some overhead to retrieve the whole string since we need to access the memory multiple times to locate the tries along the character path. Thus, hash tables are faster for looking up a whole string but tries are faster if the input string doesn't exist since we can stop the search early.
In terms of memory, hash tables are usually pre-allocated to avoid collisions (which is an issue tries don't have). After, we would only need to store the string content. But for tries, we might need to store more data such as character link pointers and complete node flags depending on the implementation. Thus, tries require more memory especially if data values are unique (because of additional null pointers) but the memory requirement can decrease if there are many common prefixes.
Overall, hash tables are more appropriate for whole string matching while tries are more flexible and better for matching words to a prefix or auto-complete. Tries also support ordered traversal.
Another possible data stucture we could use is a ternary search tree which is is a special trie data structure where the child nodes of a standard trie are ordered as a binary search tree. Here, instead of pointers for each letter, each node only has three: left pointer to the node whose value is less than the value in the current node, equal pointer to the node whose value is equal to the value in the current node, and right pointer to the node whose value is greater than the value in the current node. Thus, ternary search trees are more space efficient than tries (but lookup time is more than hash tables). Some applications include near-neighbor lookups in dictionaries, auto complete, and spell checks.
Sources/More Info:
- https://www.geeksforgeeks.org/hash-table-vs-trie/
- https://medium.com/smucs/trie-data-structures-better-than-hash-tables-2c95b63347f8
- https://www.baeldung.com/cs/hash-table-vs-trie-prefix-tree
- https://stackoverflow.com/questions/245878/how-do-i-choose-between-a-hash-table-and-a-trie-prefix-tree
- https://www.geeksforgeeks.org/ternary-search-tree/
- Namrata

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Oo first few seconds of this one are a vibe, yall check this one out with me https://youtu.be/zvBNoSjlKG0
Dang, that was honestly really pretty. Ok, here's one more. https://youtu.be/0xdB_vo4r2c this ones so pretty have you guys heard this one?
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The best way to bring down a drone – not with a skeet-shooting mentality, says Oleg Vornik, CEO of Sydney-based DorneShield, Counter-drone Defense solutions company. That’s fine for the sporting field, but it’s a whole different world when it comes to protecting politicians, stadiums, and combat patrols.
“It’s the most natural question people ask,” Vornik says. “The answer is it’s very difficult to do. You have a small object, perhaps as big as a dinner plate, blending in against a complex background or a similar colour to the sky. And it’s moving erratically.”
The builder of drone tracking and disabling technology says he’s seen trained military personnel fire dozens of shots trying to bring down a drone just 30 metres away.
“Those bullets are going to land somewhere. So you’re going to have collateral damage”.
Mostly drones are helpful tools or enjoyable pastimes, but they can also be unwanted spies in the sky, delivery devices for acts of terrorism, or – as in Ukraine – front-line combatants.
Countering them (c-uas), says Vornik, is a complex equation of risk against reward, and cost versus return.
“If you’re a military base, chances are you want to take down the drone as fast as possible,” says Vornik. But using a $150,000 shoulder-launched Stinger anti-aircraft missile against a $1500 off-the-shelf drone isn’t economically viable.
“If you’re a prison, for example, we don’t recommend you take it down,” he adds. “That’s a temporary solution. But if you track in real time where it lands, who picks up its package and who’s controlling it, you can solve the whole crime in one hit”.

Battle of attrition

Sci-fi-inspired ideas of flashing lasers, darting interceptor drones and radar-guided slugs are often the first thoughts that come to mind to defeat swarms of cheap, nimble opponents. But there are practical, real-world issues to consider, says Vornik.
“With lasers, it’s like a naughty child trying to burn ants with a magnifying glass,” he says. “The ant is running for its life, and the kid has to try and hold it in the focal point long enough to have an effect. And what if there are five ants? It’s actually very, very difficult”.
Miss in a stadium, and you may take out the eye of a sports fan. Miss on the battlefield, and you may blind a friendly satellite far beyond your target.
And any laser-based weapon system needs large power generators, complex lenses, and a high-resolution targeting system to put – and keep – the narrow beam on target.
“I think lasers definitely have a place,” he says. “But most lasers today are the size of a car. They’re very expensive. They may be effective against missiles, but swarms of small drones are another matter altogether”.
The proliferation of such commercially-available devices is forcing militaries and governments to rethink their policies.
“Drones are so ubiquitous,” he says. “They can be everywhere. But if you’ve only got five exquisitely effective systems to respond with, then your response is crippled from the start.”

Freeze, then drop

Unlike lasers, radiofrequency jamming devices can be small, portable, and energy efficient.
They “fire” beams of radio waves over a distance measured in “multiples” of kilometres (the actual ranges remain an operational secret). Each beam, like that of a searchlight, can catch more than one drone in its “glare”. The drones lose contact with their controllers.
“The jamming effect is instantaneous,” Vornik says.
Drones flying on autopilot must access satellite GPS navigation signals or electronic beacons. “These can be disabled using our jammers”.
And holding the beam on them longer magnifies the effect.
“It will freeze a drone,” Vornik adds. “It will put it on the ground”.
Such DroneShield systems neutralised four suspicious devices amid the tens of thousands of people attending the inauguration ceremony of Brazilian President, Luiz Inácio Lula da Silva, in January this year.

Sense and sensibility

Vornik says his business started in 2015, using acoustic sensors to detect and isolate the sound of drones.
“The problems were numerous,” he says. “The most obvious is that it’s very imprecise. And it can be saturated in a noisy environment like an airfield or stadium”.
Radar, at first glance, appeared to be an obvious alternative.
But when it comes to areas with lots of moving objects – such as forests, fields and football fields – it’s almost impossible to discriminate between a flitting bird, a meandering cow, a frantic fan and a low-flying drone.
“So we came up with the hand-held radio frequency sensor,” Vornik says. “It’s basically identifying the uplinks and downlink signals between the drone and the controller. The flight telemetry. The video feeds.”
Such transmissions can be triangulated at distances of multiple kilometres. And their details are assembled via software, overlaid on digital maps, and displayed on portable devices.
“Radiofrequency is a complex sensor to develop but fairly cost-effective to build,” says Vornik.

Develop, react, adapt

“To counter cheap, disposable drones, you need to have not-quite disposable but very cheap drone countermeasures. Counter-drone systems you can make and use on a similar scale,” says Vornik.
Drones must then be shielded to defeat RF jamming. That could involve anything from expensive gold foil, casings of thick aluminium plates, or satellite-grade radiation-hardened computer chips. Navigation and communications equipment must also be more powerful, complex, and resilient. This, in turn, means more powerful engines and batteries are needed to carry all the extra weight.
Such an arms race puts cheap, off-the-shelf drones at the bottom of the heap.
DroneShield’s portable RF solutions are easy to handle. They have few moving parts and carry the same standardised rechargeable high-capacity batteries used in other military devices, such as night vision goggles, radios and portable computers.
“We build them to use as little energy as possible,” says Vornik. “We don’t even do little coloured screens because they consume more energy and drain batteries faster”.
Each RF jammer carries enough power for a day’s worth of use and spare batteries can be easily carried.
And the portable drone detectors are passive, meaning they emit no signals. Radars, for example, rely on bouncing radio waves off objects to “see” them. But those same radio waves reveal the transmitter’s location.
“With radiofrequency, you’re invisible until you choose to light up your jammer,” Vornik explains. “And then you will want to move pretty quickly to avoid a responsive artillery strike if you’re fighting a near-peer adversary like in Ukraine.”

So I am leaving the country for a month and won’t need my apartment anymore. So I subleased without telling landlord. Big asshole move I know but I cannot pay for this anymore and it worked perfect.
I took her direct deposit as if it were mine and left. I already signed a lease to a new apartment. The thing is she wants the money back so she can resign the lease come august. she’s staying under my name for June and July. I told her no as it’s a security deposit for me. She went crazy saying… no.. DEMANDING it. I refuse. She says she will tell landlord and I threaten to kick her out.
i talk to my parents and they tell me to do things legally ( I know I should have don’t remind me things are Done) but the only reason I didn’t was because She would have to pay a $300 fee for changing the lease as well as a $250 for moving in.
All she had to do was pay me the security deposit and she will get that back by this lease which is august 1. She says it all very rudely asking if she can just have her money back.
I talk to her for 30 mins on call and explain over and over and over again. She laughs and just continues on demanding the money. She changes it to august 1 and I agree but given how rude landlords are I tell her that I will give to her once I get it back from him.
That’s all.
I do plan on giving it to her august 1st but she was quite literally throwing a tantrum. She then texts me “august 1st right?” I might just send her a long text and block her.
It doesn’t serve her to cut the leases. I have the $608 security. I Can use that for next months rent (she already paid this months) and I would get my deposit back.
if she tells landlord all 3 girls are fucked and it seemed like one of the girls already took her side as I’ve been blocked.
Dunno.
The other girl sharing told me things will calm and we remain great friends and to just ignore and settle everything in Aug.
Love her haha
I got so angry tho aah.

My job has been hell for the last two years and is getting worse. Over the last few weeks, a small number of new hires have banded together, enlisted the aid of our director ( with ample flattery) and so far have forced out my direct supervisor as of today. I am the only guy who works here during the day ( between 11 am and 930pm). I've been pulled into several meetings were I get told ab things "people" are saying about me. I don't work with that many people so it's easy to figure out. One of the three new hires was hired to be what basically amounts to an assistant supervisor, except she hasn't actually done the job in 15 years.
Yesterday my director ambushed me into a meeting while my supervisor was out. She mentioned that someone ( once again, under ten people) overheard me say I am irreplaceable. She looked smug and said " everyone is replaceable."
Ok.
After being told my supervisor is leaving in two weeks, I have decided to stop doing everything I do extra to keep things running. I have tried to teach others about these tasks and their importance. I basically get told that's my job, "as the man". It's also been said there's a belief that I cause mechanical problems just so I can fix them to look good. Considering I get zero thanks or additional money, that makes zero sense.
Ok.
I have roughly 45 days left on a 2 year contract. If they fire me, I don't have to pay the signing bonus back. If they fire me after the flurry of emails and texts that have been sent with conversations about getting rid of me, my lawsuit is going to be easy money. I work because I enjoy the work. It's important and I work in a hospital in one of the poorest parts of town.
Tl;Dr: people are trying to force me out of a job I enjoy for reasons I don't understand.

The Use of Identity Politics to Undermine the Left Anna Coco
The US government and ruling elite have infiltrated and attempted to destroy the Left since its inception. In the 1960’s the CIA think tanks came up with numerous strategies to destroy the Left, such as promoting drug use and promiscuous sexuality as a form of not only “Brave New World” escapism, but diverting attention from working class issues. Remember Jerry Garcia repeating Timothy Leary’s famous quote “turn on, tune in, and drop out?” Even the decriminalization of marijuana today is really not to stop the Prison Industrial Complex, which is still arresting millions of young men, especially those of colour, but about pushing escapism as a replacement for protesting in a country where half the population lives near or below the poverty line. “Get high; forget your cares.” “Don’t fight back. Jesus was a pacifist.” (Forget that Jesus flogged the bankers in the temple during Passover.) The Communist Party USA and other Left parties were successful in pushing back this degeneration, discouraging drug and alcohol use as well as criticizing sexual objectification, particularly of women.
Another government strategy involved promoting Identity Politics, which along with political correctness in the late 1980’s actually achieved its goal of successfully undermining the Left as can be seen in its current state. This time period wasn’t coincidental, since this was the time the Berlin Wall fell and the Soviet Union was collapsing. It was at this point that the Left started turning inward and becoming fragmented, with no centre to keep it together which is what the Soviet Union represented. Feeling betrayed, demoralized, and bewildered, the CIA easily infiltrated and injected the Left with its poisonous sting, causing many Left parties to reject dialectical materialism, and in some cases even Marxism itself! ID politics was the late 1960’s brain child of the CIA to divide and conquer the Left, pitting groups against each other. Political Correctness helped promote ID politics by using the same methods as McCarthyism. Since socialism is a logical, scientific economic system, proponents couldn’t be allowed to explain or discuss what is was or it would convert others; therefore McCarthyism relied on shutting down debates and free discussion by employing name calling, shouting down speakers, and further isolating and marginalizing Leftists, especially through blacklisting them.
From the 1930’s to the 1970’s the motto of the Communist Party and the Left was “Black and White Unite”. The question for example of the CP getting involved, whether in the Scottsboro Case or in unionizing the segregated South, took place with many open debates, where all questions were allowed to be raised, discussed, and answered, including those by less advanced white workers who didn’t understand or agree. It was the openness of these discussions and debates that allowed this sector to understand the nature of racism and to make the CP’s motto a success. In a nation that was then only 12% black, gaining white support during the Civil Rights era was crucial in changing the nation and its laws. The Black Panther Party understood this and gave talk in some of the poorest white communities such as in the Appalachians; even converting and forming important alliances with white working class organizations, such as the Young Patriots in Chicago.
The CIA unfortunately successfully changed “Black and White Unite” into Identity Politics in the 1970’s, where different special interest groups began vying for crumbs, promoting selfish individualism and rejecting collectivism, one of the basic foundations of Marxist Leninist ideology.
Following bourgeois feminism, white men were now the enemy and women felt pitted to fight men in order to demand more managerial jobs. Blacks began demanding the right to have more black police officers; as if women oppressing other women or black officers cracking the heads of black men was somehow progressive. What followers of ID politics failed to understand was that changing the driver didn’t change the system. My chances as a woman of dying from a preventable heart attack are the same whether the doctor at the hospital today is male or female, as are the chances a black man having his head smashed in by the cops whether the officer is white or black. Instead of collectivism, workers divided among race, sex, ethnicity, religion, etc., promoting selfish individualism. Of course there are supportive women and people of colour. But certain individuals are not the system. A perfect example was the Left dismantling the anti-war movement during the Obama administration because it would be seen as racist to protest a black president. What was forgotten were the millions killed abroad in US wars of Imperialism, especially Africans who didn’t care what race the current president was. As a result, today, Libyan men are being sold into slavery!
Whereas before ID politics, the enemy was clearly understood to be US imperialism, or the 1%, now the enemy had become the white, heterosexual, male workers. Marxists understand that white men are not our enemies, but our necessary allies in getting reforms under capitalism and in overthrowing the true enemy, the 1%. United we stand, divided we fall.
Unfortunately this vilification and exclusion of white males led to bitterness, creating the racism and sexism we see today. Many were driven into the arms of the right-wing in order to feel included. Enter transgender ideology, the new ID politics of today. Exploiting the Lesbian, gay, and bisexual movement, although the ideology itself is anti-gay and homophobic, it has been promoting itself as the Civil Rights movement of the 21st century. Let’s forget that Native people, African-Americans, and women still haven’t won many significant civil rights.
If white men were the enemy of yesteryear, women are now the new enemy, regardless of colour or race, allowing men their turn to experience inclusion in the Left by attacking and excluding women.
It’s not for nothing that penises are still called penises, but vaginas are front-holes, breast-feeding is chest-feeding, and woman can get their monthlies just like men (although I would seriously suggest that any man who does should go see a doctor ASAP and have their hemorrhoids put back in). Because transgender ideology, which is not the same as transgender individuals, just as all feminists are not bourgeois feminists, is a two-pronged attack not just against women, but the Left, too.
Its first prong of attack undermines women’s contribution to reproducing capital, both as the sex that bears tomorrow workers and cannon fodder and as workers. Discussions on birth control, maternity leave, food stamps, public services, as well as low wages and work inequality along with sexual harassment that affect working class women, become subordinate to transgender questions that affect less than 1/10 of 1% of the population, such as unisex bathrooms.
The second prong undermines the unity of the Left and the possibility of revolution. As Lenin said, “There can be no real mass movement without the women.” How can there be when women represent half the population and are the most exploited sex under crapitalism? In fact, how many people are aware that every major revolution in history was started by women? From the English, French, and the Russian Revolution, which by the way took place on March 8, 1917, International Women’s Day, it was women demanding bread that began it all. It is women who generally have to take care of and feed the family, especially the children. Prevent women from organizing or leading their own organizations, and the 1% are guaranteed there will be no reform or revolution.
What is Marxism? What does it represent? It doesn’t represent Hegelian idealism nor does it represent bourgeois mechanistic science. It represents a historical, dialectical materialism that analyzes the evolution of human society from one form to another, as Charles Darwin’s theories in the Origin of the Species analyzed the evolution of living beings.
Much of the transgender movement isn’t even working class; it mainly represents white, upper middle-class males who are racist, homophobic, and misogynist. It argues for gender stereotypes that tell homosexual men, for example, that they are really women or that racism is an imaginary concept. When transwomen says they are women, they are in fact negating not just biology and science, but eliminating the whole history of oppression that women experience. You heard the expression, you are what you eat. Imagine someone saying “I ate some soul food last night and I’m feeling black, although I’ve never seen a black person in my lilywhite town.”
Transgender ideology has set a dangerous precedent by referring to feelings rather than biology, which ultimately allows discrimination not just against women, but people of colour including native people.
Women aren’t oppressed because of a feeling, but because of their sex; for physically being the only sex that can literally reproduce the workers for capital. Being a woman isn’t a feeling. Just like being black isn’t a feeling. Being a Native American isn’t a feeling. I can’t wash off my sex any more than a person of colour can wash off their colour. Is capitalism a feeling, too? Can we unfeel exploitation on Monday morning?
Liberals who reject dialectical materialism reject nature and the evolutionary connection in nature.
Transgender ideology is effectively using language to erase women and subordinate them to the fetishes of men in nearly every English-speaking country. With the passing in England of the Gender Recognition Act, which Congress is trying to pass in the US as the Equality Act, women must defer to men as men now have the right to enter female facilities and colonize female sports at will against the wishes of women and the safety of girls. It took until 1920 for women in the US to have separate bathrooms, which Russian women won in the 1917 revolution. Lenin in fact championed female-only spaces and female leadership in female organizations. Really, how many women would like to turn around in the women’s showers and see a throbbing hard boner on a transgender woman staring at you? What about at a Rape Centre or women’s prison? For those who don’t know, it’s already happening: paedophiles and male rapists insisting they feel like women have been allowed into girls’ bathrooms and even placed in women’s prisons where they have raped women. Female sports and scholarships, better kiss that goodbye as men by birth have a physical advantage over women. Let’s go back to 1950’s America.
When the Left so wholehearted absorbed trans ideology, it threw scientific socialism under the bus as well as thoroughly self-destructing, making it the butt of jokes for the right-wing. From Black Lives Matter to FRSO Left, ISO, WWP, CWL, and PC USA to name just a few, all these organizations are now being redubbed Politically Correct USA.
It is rape to ever demand or try to coerce someone to have sex regardless of their age, sex, or gender. There is no place in any civilized society to allow rape or rape culture, and especially not the Left. In other cases, women were expelled for exposing male sexual predators, such as in ISO, DSA, WWP, and PC USA. I was told I should be ashamed of myself for shaming the PC USA by exposing a predator, when that party should be ashamed. In other cases, women were expelled because they didn’t agree with male comrades over the question of prostitution and violent porn. Imagine the outrage if a black man was stripped of his position and expelled, because he didn’t like to be called an N* and didn’t agree that slavery and lynching films weren’t empowering? In fact, why is the Left offended by Black Face, but not by Drag? Transgenderism is misogyny in drag.
Soros has spent over millions of dollars promoting transgenderism. Yet women on the Left who complained were ridiculed and silenced.
After the fall of the Soviet Union, the CP subverted itself to neoliberalism when it decided to pimp itself to the Democratic Party. Even the ISO, FRSO right and many other so-called Left parties began embracing bourgeois liberalism, which has its roots in neo-liberalism or the free market economy, completing wedding themselves to parliamentary instead revolutionary goals.
Think of the level of misogyny; the CIA couldn’t destroy so many grousp like WW, which has existed for 60 years. How did it finally destroy these parties through transgenderism? Before we think this is an organic movement, which is separate from being transgender, it is actually funded by the CIA and its think tanks. That is the reason why it funded by so much money. Any legitimate organization would distance itself from these elements and I’m sure there are LGBTQ+ organizations that did.
When the National Center for Transgender Equality Action Fund hosted the 2018 Trans Equality Now Awards in Washington D.C. on May 17, 2018, its sponsors looked like something from a parody. The list included: the CIA, George Soros’ Open Society, Facebook (which is partially funded by the Atlantic Council, i.e. NATO), Google, Amazon, Capital One Bank, Shook, Hardy & Bacon (a law firm dedicated to defending Big Pharma), as well as a number of pharmaceutical companies and clinics including: Gilead Sciences, Meltzer Clinic, and Pharma. [See comments at the end of this article.] For women on the Left, this open display by the CIA and Soros was like the government and the bankers sticking their middle finger at them. It proved what they had been saying all along.
To this day, the Left still hasn’t apologized to women and is still promoting destructive ID politics, pushing women to the hypocritical right-wing. It makes perfect sense for liberals to be doing this, because as their name suggests neo-liberalism, they want to push women to the right. But why the Left? In fact, why was the Left so eager to adopt trans ideology and expel women.
Either promote the Left, that is the Left we’ve inherited and, like a corrupt union, we understand as Marxist-Leninists that we don’t destroy, but attempt to revitalize, or create female Left organizations like Women for Racial and Economic Equality to push Left more left.
Comment on sources
The source for the CIA and others having funded the 2018 Trans Equality Now Awards seems to have “disappeared” from the internet, and they seem to have decided that their sponsorship of the 2019 awards would have been too open. However, after some searching, we were able to find the Transgender Equality Annual Report 2017, at: https://transequality.org/sites/default/files/docs/resources/annual%20report%20 2017%20final.pdf (page 8; page 10 of pdf), which includes the same sponsors as in 2018.
Also, Soros’ Open Society Foundations has funded individual transgender activists who are leaders in various Left organizations. One is Imani Henry, a leading member of International Action Center and Workers World Party. The source of this is available at: https://www. opensocietyfoundations.org/sites/default/files/cfp_20050101.pdf, on p. 10-11. This criticism is more aimed at his party than at him himself, for allowing him to accept this funding, just as no progressive trade union organization would have its members accept money from the American Institute for Free Labor Development (AIFLD), a notorious conduit for CIA funding.
As sources mysteriously disappear from the internet, we have put these sources on the web-site used by Towards Marxist-Leninist Unity (www.RedStarPublishers.org).
Towards Marxist-Leninist Unity

First of all, sorry for formatting and bad English, I'm on mobile and English is my second language.
I had a party last Friday, at my place (nothing too big, like 15 people max) Two friends slept over, and I saw one of them going through my stuff. I usually don't mind this since I'm very nosey myself, but I did find it weird. Anyway, on Sunday I noticed my sunscreen was missing, from it's place in the bathroom. (It was expensive, out of my normal price range) The first person I thought of asking was this friend, because she had just told me she accidentally took one of my blush powders while she was doing her makeup before leaving. (It got mixed up with her own stuff) I asked about the sunscreen and she said she hadn't seen it, and didn't have it. She continued with the conversation and even sent me a pic of all the things in her makeup bag, like asking me to see if there was anything else that was mine.
In the same conversation, she said she was going to ask me for some sunscreen, but was ashamed to do so since we have different skin tones. I let it go and started asking more people, but I thought: How did she know it was tinted? The old bottle I have doesn't have any color.
This was weird, but for the sake of our friendship, and since I couldn't be sure she took it, I was just going to accept my loss.
That was until this morning, when I was going to do my makeup and noticed there were more things missing (a concealer and a different blush) Now, none of theese things ever left my room, and the only two people who were inside alone were the two friends that stayed over (this I am 100% certain, because my cat was locked inside during the party)
Also all my jewelry was scrambled around (luckily it's all really cheap so even if there's something I skipped it wouldn't really be a problem)
I confronted the other girl, but I don't think she did it (she's one of my best friends and I know her pretty well)
So that's the background I'm seeing my friend on Thursday so she can give me my blush back. I want to confront her about the situation, and see if I can get her to give me my stuff back. She is a good person, I think she has a problem.
How would you suggest I talk to her, in a way that gets me my things back? I was thinking of getting her to slip about the concealer (I still haven't told her I know these things are missing) Or maybe being upfront about it and telling her I won't tell anyone about this and won't mention it again if she returns my things.
I would let it go completely if it was cheaper stuff, but I can't afford to replace all things at once, and they are things I use every day
Also if you think this isn't enough evidence to accuse her, please tell me

Super specific question, probably. I’m in love with my boyfriend, though I’m not ready right now to express that to him verbally. It’s still a new and tangible realization for me.
He’s been referring to me as, “my love,” for a couple weeks now. He started through text and then he started verbally expressing it too, while we’re intimate or just casually spending time together. It’s incredibly sweet.
Tl;Dr Is this a sign he may feel the same? Or is it common to use the term “my love” even if you’re not in love with your partner?

Demographic: non-binary (AFAB), white (polish dad), hispanic (cuban mom)
First generation immigrant, have an older sister going to GW
Intended Major(s): English Language Arts Education, Dance & Drama Education, Technical Theatre.
SAT: 1180, planning on retaking in August and/or October, would rather just not submit scores
GPA: school doesn’t release GPA but i primarily average in the A- range
APs: AP World, and Production Workshop (school’s version of a Theater AP, basically an independent study? choreographed, designed props and assistant stage managed for school’s spring play with minimal guidance)
taking AP Lit, AP French and Senior Socratic Seminar (hardest history class my school offers) next year
Awards: 27/28 NYSSMA level 4, Language and Literature Academic Achievement award, nomination for national musical theatre award, won a Creative Writing competition at school last year, nominated for one this year
Extracurriculars: Leader of Dance Club next year (senior only position), play piano for about 14 years, volunteer at food pantry and immigration law office, organize files and schedule appointments at my dad’s private clinic (he’s a respiratory system specialist), interned under a stage manager at Yara Arts Group, do musical theater camps every year, participate in every show at school (cast for musicals, crew for plays (2 every year)), sing in audition only choir, babysit
LORs: Head of French Department, Director of Yara Arts Group, AP World teacher (have had for 3 years)
Essay: my most prized possession is a Dunkin’ donuts coffee cup, because it is a physical manifestation for the welcoming community of theater at my school. whenever I have a last period free I’d go to Dunkin and get coffee for myself, for some crew members and for some cast members as a pick me up and wouldn’t allow them to pay me back. so instead of giving me money they’d return the favor of caffeine and donuts and other Dunkin beverages by giving me some whenever they had the time or means to. i’m sure i’ve gotten some people more coffees than they’ve gotten me and vice versa but that doesn’t matter, it’s the idea of looking out for eachother and knowing you as a part of this wonderful community have a duty to take care of it while also being taken care of.
Colleges (would appreciate some recommendations of where else to apply/visit! must be more on the east coast, no further south than georgia, not super small or super big, preferably liberal arts and focused on/giving priority to theater)
ED/Hardest Faves: Was U (St Louis), Boston University, NYU, Kenyon, Vassar
EA/Faves but not hard (idk which are safety): Fordham, Adelphi, Sarah Lawrence, Skidmore, Purdue, University of Vermont, Bard, Fairfield
Safety for sure: Hofstra, Le Moyne, Moravian, West Virgina University
Extra Info: speak Spanish fluently at home, same with Polish and English, proficient in French, learning Italian German and Russian Live in NYC used to play cello lmao, not anymore stronger in Humanities than Science and Math
thank you so much <3

The Use of Identity Politics to Undermine the Left Anna Coco
The US government and ruling elite have infiltrated and attempted to destroy the Left since its inception. In the 1960’s the CIA think tanks came up with numerous strategies to destroy the Left, such as promoting drug use and promiscuous sexuality as a form of not only “Brave New World” escapism, but diverting attention from working class issues. Remember Jerry Garcia repeating Timothy Leary’s famous quote “turn on, tune in, and drop out?” Even the decriminalization of marijuana today is really not to stop the Prison Industrial Complex, which is still arresting millions of young men, especially those of colour, but about pushing escapism as a replacement for protesting in a country where half the population lives near or below the poverty line. “Get high; forget your cares.” “Don’t fight back. Jesus was a pacifist.” (Forget that Jesus flogged the bankers in the temple during Passover.) The Communist Party USA and other Left parties were successful in pushing back this degeneration, discouraging drug and alcohol use as well as criticizing sexual objectification, particularly of women.
Another government strategy involved promoting Identity Politics, which along with political correctness in the late 1980’s actually achieved its goal of successfully undermining the Left as can be seen in its current state. This time period wasn’t coincidental, since this was the time the Berlin Wall fell and the Soviet Union was collapsing. It was at this point that the Left started turning inward and becoming fragmented, with no centre to keep it together which is what the Soviet Union represented. Feeling betrayed, demoralized, and bewildered, the CIA easily infiltrated and injected the Left with its poisonous sting, causing many Left parties to reject dialectical materialism, and in some cases even Marxism itself! ID politics was the late 1960’s brain child of the CIA to divide and conquer the Left, pitting groups against each other. Political Correctness helped promote ID politics by using the same methods as McCarthyism. Since socialism is a logical, scientific economic system, proponents couldn’t be allowed to explain or discuss what is was or it would convert others; therefore McCarthyism relied on shutting down debates and free discussion by employing name calling, shouting down speakers, and further isolating and marginalizing Leftists, especially through blacklisting them.
From the 1930’s to the 1970’s the motto of the Communist Party and the Left was “Black and White Unite”. The question for example of the CP getting involved, whether in the Scottsboro Case or in unionizing the segregated South, took place with many open debates, where all questions were allowed to be raised, discussed, and answered, including those by less advanced white workers who didn’t understand or agree. It was the openness of these discussions and debates that allowed this sector to understand the nature of racism and to make the CP’s motto a success. In a nation that was then only 12% black, gaining white support during the Civil Rights era was crucial in changing the nation and its laws. The Black Panther Party understood this and gave talk in some of the poorest white communities such as in the Appalachians; even converting and forming important alliances with white working class organizations, such as the Young Patriots in Chicago.
The CIA unfortunately successfully changed “Black and White Unite” into Identity Politics in the 1970’s, where different special interest groups began vying for crumbs, promoting selfish individualism and rejecting collectivism, one of the basic foundations of Marxist Leninist ideology.
Following bourgeois feminism, white men were now the enemy and women felt pitted to fight men in order to demand more managerial jobs. Blacks began demanding the right to have more black police officers; as if women oppressing other women or black officers cracking the heads of black men was somehow progressive. What followers of ID politics failed to understand was that changing the driver didn’t change the system. My chances as a woman of dying from a preventable heart attack are the same whether the doctor at the hospital today is male or female, as are the chances a black man having his head smashed in by the cops whether the officer is white or black. Instead of collectivism, workers divided among race, sex, ethnicity, religion, etc., promoting selfish individualism. Of course there are supportive women and people of colour. But certain individuals are not the system. A perfect example was the Left dismantling the anti-war movement during the Obama administration because it would be seen as racist to protest a black president. What was forgotten were the millions killed abroad in US wars of Imperialism, especially Africans who didn’t care what race the current president was. As a result, today, Libyan men are being sold into slavery!
Whereas before ID politics, the enemy was clearly understood to be US imperialism, or the 1%, now the enemy had become the white, heterosexual, male workers. Marxists understand that white men are not our enemies, but our necessary allies in getting reforms under capitalism and in overthrowing the true enemy, the 1%. United we stand, divided we fall.
Unfortunately this vilification and exclusion of white males led to bitterness, creating the racism and sexism we see today. Many were driven into the arms of the right-wing in order to feel included. Enter transgender ideology, the new ID politics of today. Exploiting the Lesbian, gay, and bisexual movement, although the ideology itself is anti-gay and homophobic, it has been promoting itself as the Civil Rights movement of the 21st century. Let’s forget that Native people, African-Americans, and women still haven’t won many significant civil rights.
If white men were the enemy of yesteryear, women are now the new enemy, regardless of colour or race, allowing men their turn to experience inclusion in the Left by attacking and excluding women.
It’s not for nothing that penises are still called penises, but vaginas are front-holes, breast-feeding is chest-feeding, and woman can get their monthlies just like men (although I would seriously suggest that any man who does should go see a doctor ASAP and have their hemorrhoids put back in). Because transgender ideology, which is not the same as transgender individuals, just as all feminists are not bourgeois feminists, is a two-pronged attack not just against women, but the Left, too.
Its first prong of attack undermines women’s contribution to reproducing capital, both as the sex that bears tomorrow workers and cannon fodder and as workers. Discussions on birth control, maternity leave, food stamps, public services, as well as low wages and work inequality along with sexual harassment that affect working class women, become subordinate to transgender questions that affect less than 1/10 of 1% of the population, such as unisex bathrooms.
The second prong undermines the unity of the Left and the possibility of revolution. As Lenin said, “There can be no real mass movement without the women.” How can there be when women represent half the population and are the most exploited sex under crapitalism? In fact, how many people are aware that every major revolution in history was started by women? From the English, French, and the Russian Revolution, which by the way took place on March 8, 1917, International Women’s Day, it was women demanding bread that began it all. It is women who generally have to take care of and feed the family, especially the children. Prevent women from organizing or leading their own organizations, and the 1% are guaranteed there will be no reform or revolution.
What is Marxism? What does it represent? It doesn’t represent Hegelian idealism nor does it represent bourgeois mechanistic science. It represents a historical, dialectical materialism that analyzes the evolution of human society from one form to another, as Charles Darwin’s theories in the Origin of the Species analyzed the evolution of living beings.
Much of the transgender movement isn’t even working class; it mainly represents white, upper middle-class males who are racist, homophobic, and misogynist. It argues for gender stereotypes that tell homosexual men, for example, that they are really women or that racism is an imaginary concept. When transwomen says they are women, they are in fact negating not just biology and science, but eliminating the whole history of oppression that women experience. You heard the expression, you are what you eat. Imagine someone saying “I ate some soul food last night and I’m feeling black, although I’ve never seen a black person in my lilywhite town.”
Transgender ideology has set a dangerous precedent by referring to feelings rather than biology, which ultimately allows discrimination not just against women, but people of colour including native people.
Women aren’t oppressed because of a feeling, but because of their sex; for physically being the only sex that can literally reproduce the workers for capital. Being a woman isn’t a feeling. Just like being black isn’t a feeling. Being a Native American isn’t a feeling. I can’t wash off my sex any more than a person of colour can wash off their colour. Is capitalism a feeling, too? Can we unfeel exploitation on Monday morning?
Liberals who reject dialectical materialism reject nature and the evolutionary connection in nature.
Transgender ideology is effectively using language to erase women and subordinate them to the fetishes of men in nearly every English-speaking country. With the passing in England of the Gender Recognition Act, which Congress is trying to pass in the US as the Equality Act, women must defer to men as men now have the right to enter female facilities and colonize female sports at will against the wishes of women and the safety of girls. It took until 1920 for women in the US to have separate bathrooms, which Russian women won in the 1917 revolution. Lenin in fact championed female-only spaces and female leadership in female organizations. Really, how many women would like to turn around in the women’s showers and see a throbbing hard boner on a transgender woman staring at you? What about at a Rape Centre or women’s prison? For those who don’t know, it’s already happening: paedophiles and male rapists insisting they feel like women have been allowed into girls’ bathrooms and even placed in women’s prisons where they have raped women. Female sports and scholarships, better kiss that goodbye as men by birth have a physical advantage over women. Let’s go back to 1950’s America.
When the Left so wholehearted absorbed trans ideology, it threw scientific socialism under the bus as well as thoroughly self-destructing, making it the butt of jokes for the right-wing. From Black Lives Matter to FRSO Left, ISO, WWP, CWL, and PC USA to name just a few, all these organizations are now being redubbed Politically Correct USA.
It is rape to ever demand or try to coerce someone to have sex regardless of their age, sex, or gender. There is no place in any civilized society to allow rape or rape culture, and especially not the Left. In other cases, women were expelled for exposing male sexual predators, such as in ISO, DSA, WWP, and PC USA. I was told I should be ashamed of myself for shaming the PC USA by exposing a predator, when that party should be ashamed. In other cases, women were expelled because they didn’t agree with male comrades over the question of prostitution and violent porn. Imagine the outrage if a black man was stripped of his position and expelled, because he didn’t like to be called an N* and didn’t agree that slavery and lynching films weren’t empowering? In fact, why is the Left offended by Black Face, but not by Drag? Transgenderism is misogyny in drag.
Soros has spent over millions of dollars promoting transgenderism. Yet women on the Left who complained were ridiculed and silenced.
After the fall of the Soviet Union, the CP subverted itself to neoliberalism when it decided to pimp itself to the Democratic Party. Even the ISO, FRSO right and many other so-called Left parties began embracing bourgeois liberalism, which has its roots in neo-liberalism or the free market economy, completing wedding themselves to parliamentary instead revolutionary goals.
Think of the level of misogyny; the CIA couldn’t destroy so many grousp like WW, which has existed for 60 years. How did it finally destroy these parties through transgenderism? Before we think this is an organic movement, which is separate from being transgender, it is actually funded by the CIA and its think tanks. That is the reason why it funded by so much money. Any legitimate organization would distance itself from these elements and I’m sure there are LGBTQ+ organizations that did.
When the National Center for Transgender Equality Action Fund hosted the 2018 Trans Equality Now Awards in Washington D.C. on May 17, 2018, its sponsors looked like something from a parody. The list included: the CIA, George Soros’ Open Society, Facebook (which is partially funded by the Atlantic Council, i.e. NATO), Google, Amazon, Capital One Bank, Shook, Hardy & Bacon (a law firm dedicated to defending Big Pharma), as well as a number of pharmaceutical companies and clinics including: Gilead Sciences, Meltzer Clinic, and Pharma. [See comments at the end of this article.] For women on the Left, this open display by the CIA and Soros was like the government and the bankers sticking their middle finger at them. It proved what they had been saying all along.
To this day, the Left still hasn’t apologized to women and is still promoting destructive ID politics, pushing women to the hypocritical right-wing. It makes perfect sense for liberals to be doing this, because as their name suggests neo-liberalism, they want to push women to the right. But why the Left? In fact, why was the Left so eager to adopt trans ideology and expel women.
Either promote the Left, that is the Left we’ve inherited and, like a corrupt union, we understand as Marxist-Leninists that we don’t destroy, but attempt to revitalize, or create female Left organizations like Women for Racial and Economic Equality to push Left more left.
Comment on sources
The source for the CIA and others having funded the 2018 Trans Equality Now Awards seems to have “disappeared” from the internet, and they seem to have decided that their sponsorship of the 2019 awards would have been too open. However, after some searching, we were able to find the Transgender Equality Annual Report 2017, at: https://transequality.org/sites/default/files/docs/resources/annual%20report%20 2017%20final.pdf (page 8; page 10 of pdf), which includes the same sponsors as in 2018.
Also, Soros’ Open Society Foundations has funded individual transgender activists who are leaders in various Left organizations. One is Imani Henry, a leading member of International Action Center and Workers World Party. The source of this is available at: https://www. opensocietyfoundations.org/sites/default/files/cfp_20050101.pdf, on p. 10-11. This criticism is more aimed at his party than at him himself, for allowing him to accept this funding, just as no progressive trade union organization would have its members accept money from the American Institute for Free Labor Development (AIFLD), a notorious conduit for CIA funding.
As sources mysteriously disappear from the internet, we have put these sources on the web-site used by Towards Marxist-Leninist Unity (www.RedStarPublishers.org).
Towards Marxist-Leninist Unity

Hi!
I recently switched away from the Pixel line because I was sick of the hardware problems and I love my new Zenfone! The only I thing I miss is the ability to select things when in the app switching mode.
You know when you swipe up from the bottom of the screen and it shows you your open apps? In a Pixel, you can select images and text (I think it uses OCR as only English alphabet letters can be selected) and copy or share them directly from that sceen. I used this so often, e.g. when I wanted to copy a phone number that wasn't directly copyable in the app itself, or when I wanted to share an image from a website without screenshotting then cropping!
Does anybody know if there is a setting and or app that brings this functionality to other devices? Or at least knows what it's called, so I can Google it?
Thank you!

we met on tinder about 2 years ago. texted every day for months, went on one date (it went well) and we continued talking every day after the date for weeks. slowly she began to ghost me and just started talking to me less and less until i never heard back. my anxiety at the time was really high. it broke my heart that she didn’t seem to be interested in talking to me anymore, so i had eventually deleted her number / unfollowed her / etc. she never unfollowed me tho and still regularly likes my posts (which has always confused me). why not ghost me fully? it’s difficult for me to express and communicate my feelings (i’m autistic and at the time i didn’t know this), so i had never outright told her that i wanted to be in a serious relationship so i always blame myself that she ghosted. i was also a major fucking stoner at the time and she didn’t smoke. i don’t smoke anymore and my life is a lot better and healthier than it used to be
now, ~2 years later i’m on tinder again and i see she liked me. idk if i should swipe left or right. idk if i should try to fully move on or not. i do miss her so much and she was the coolest person i’ve ever met on tinder (and one of the coolest people i’ve ever met ever). i still think abt her and wish that we would have continued talking every day
what to dooooo

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Philadelphia City Council Meeting — 5/25/2023
Meeting length: 1 hour and 58 minutes
Notable Legislation

• Amendments to The Philadelphia Code (230435, 230437, 230440, 230443, 230448, 230454, 230455, 220865, 230152)
• 2024 Fiscal Budget
• Improving Residential Housing
  
  • Applications for Affordable Housing Grants
  • Neighborhood improvement programs

Communications from Mayor Kenny

• Signed:
  
  • Bill No. 230251
    • Approval and specification of the financial aspects regarding a neighborhood transformation.
  • Bill No. 221017 and Bill No. 221018
    • All relating to terms of the Preservation of Affordable Housing Chapter
  • Bill No. 230127
    • Amending The Philadelphia Code: Compensation for Members of Boards, Commissions, Committees, and Councils,
• Transmitting for Consideration:
  
  • Authorizing the Philadelphia Land Bank to dispose of 1625-41 North 10th Street located in the 5th Councilmanic District.
  • Authorizing the Philadelphia Land Bank to dispose of 372, 702 Cantrell Street, 613, 625, 723 Mercy Street, 737 Tree Street, 535, 537, and 602 Winton Street located in the 1st Councilmanic District.
  • Deeds for 2335 & 2337 N. 6th Street in the Seventh Councilmanic District sent and executed by the proper authorities.
  • Authorizing the Director of Planning and Development to apply for housing-related grants and programs to help the Philadelphia community.
  • Authorizing the City Treasurer to enter into an agreement with Citizens Bank National Association for the provision of payroll banking services.
  • Approving the Fiscal Year 2024 Capital Budget.
  • Approving the Rebuild Project Statement for Fiscal Year 2024.
  • Approving the Supplemental Service Agreement between the City and the Philadelphia Redevelopment Authority.
    • Relating to the financing of a home repair program
  • Authorizing the City to enter into an Intergovernmental Cooperation Agreement.
  • recommendation of the City Planning Commission on the following bills:
    • Bill No. 230302 - 45 days Bill No. 230276 Bill No. 230306 Bill No. 230307 Bill No. 230308 - Not for approval Bill No. 230318 - Not for approval Bill No. 230319 - Not for approval Bill No. 230322 Bill No. 230323 Bill No. 230325 Bill No. 230326 Bill No. 230327 Bill No. 230360.

Bills Introduced:

• Amending The Philadelphia Code, “Contracts and Procurement,” to reflect the change in contractor reporting obligations related to women and minorities. (230435, Council Member Phillips)
• Establishing Two-Hour Parking Regulations. (230436, Council Member Jones & Council President Clarke)
• Amending Section The Philadelphia Code, entitled “/NCA, Neighborhood Commercial Area Overlay District,” by amending the East Falls Neighborhood Commercial Review Area. (230437, Council Member Jones)
• Authorizing the revision of lines and grades on a portion of City Plan Nos. 230 and 289 to create an opening. (230438, Council Member Jones)
• Adding a NO PARKING ANYTIME parking regulation. (230439, Council Member Jones)
• Amending The Philadelphia Code, entitled “SP-STA, Sports Stadium (Special Purpose) District,” by expanding how many public signs are allowed. (230440, Council Member Johnson)
• Establishing NO TRUCK OR TRAILER PARKING ANYTIME and Two-Hour Parking regulations. (230441, Council Member Johnson)
• Amend the Philadelphia Zoning Maps to add Industrial Light. (230442, Council Member Lazada)
• Amending The Philadelphia Code, entitled “Overlay Zoning Districts'' by creating a new subsection entitled “Warrington Affordable Housing Overlay District.” (230443, Council Member Gauthier)
• Authorizing a sidewalk café in the vicinity of 4333 Spruce Street, Philadelphia. (230444, Council Member Gauthier)
• Authorizing Brandywine Realty Trust to construct, own and maintain various right-of way encroachments. (230445, Council Member Gauthier)
• To amend the Philadelphia Zoning Maps by changing the zoning designations to split the use of commercial areas. (230446, Council Member Gauthier)
• To amend the Philadelphia Zoning Maps by changing the zoning designations to reflect additional residential areas. (230447, Council Member Gauthier)
• Amending The Philadelphia Code, entitled “Overlay Zoning Districts,” to create regulations for Medical Marijuana. (230448, Council Member O’Neill)
• Authorizing the Director of Planning and Development to apply for housing-related grants and programs to help the Philadelphia community. (230449, Council Member Bass & Council President Clarke)
• Authorizing the City Treasurer to enter into an agreement with Citizens Bank National Association for the provision of payroll banking services. (230450, Council Member Bass & Council President Clarke)
• Approving the Rebuild Project Statement for Fiscal Year 2024. (230451, Council Member Bass & Council President Clarke)
• Approving the Supplemental Service Agreement between the City and the Philadelphia Redevelopment Authority; relating to the financing of a home repair program. (230452, Council Member Bass & Council President Clarke)
• Authorizing the City to enter into an Intergovernmental Cooperation Agreement. (230453, Council Member Bass & Council President Clarke)
• Amending The Philadelphia Code, “Right of Way Management,” by revising requirements for obtaining access to and permits; and amending “Communication,” by deleting provisions relating to poles and overhead wires. (230454, Council Member Bass & Council President Clarke)
• Amending the Philadelphia Zoning Maps, adding more residential space; and amending Title 14 of The Philadelphia Code, entitled “Zoning and Planning,” to revise “/NCA, Neighborhood Commercial Area Overlay District” by creating more open spaces. (230455, Council Member Bass)

Resolutions Introduced:
Those marked with a star are privileged and were unanimously adopted in the same meeting.

• Honors:
  
  • Honoring and congratulating the Champions of the Week for their commitment to public service.
    • Tomeka Jones-Waters, Richard W. Allsop, Linda B. Williams, Karen Ford-Woods, and Stacy Raleigh. (230457*, Council Member Gilmore Richardson & Council Member Thomas)
  • Honoring Mural Arts Philadelphia for the organization’s Porch Light program and Asian American and Pacific Islander mural series. (230469*, Council Member Harrity)
  • Congratulating Officer Mark Kenneth Moore on his retirement from the Philadelphia Police Department and recognizing him for his service. (230471*, Council Member Gauthier)
• Confirming the appointment of Elinor Haider to the Board of the Philadelphia Energy Authority. (230456, Council Member Gilmore Richardson & Council President Clarke)
  
• Calling for the creation of the Community-Temple Safety Partnership Zone and a Response Resource Task Force in hopes of safer neighborhoods. (230458, Council Member Jones)
  
• Authorizing the Philadelphia Land Bank to dispose of multiple parcels located in the 5th Councilmanic District. (230459*, Council Member Jones)
  
• Thanking the School District of Philadelphia, the Department of Human Services, and the Department of Behavioral Health and Intellectual disAbility Services for taking part in a roundtable meeting with schools in the 4th Council District, creating better-prepared students and facilities in Philadelphia. (230460*, Council Member Johnson)
  
• Approving the Rebuild Project Statement for Fiscal Year 2024. (230461*, Council Member Brooks & Council President Clarke)
  
• Declaring the Summer of 2023 the Summer of Hip Hop in Philadelphia. (230462*, Councilmember Lozada & Council Member Squilla)
  
• Urging the Administration to improve the ease of doing business. (230463, Council Member Lozada & Council Member Squilla)
  
• Recognizing and celebrating the 2023 Philippine Independence Week Celebration from June 3rd to June 17th. (230464, Council Member Lozada)
  
• Authorizing the Philadelphia Land Bank to dispose of land in the 1st Councilmanic District. (230465, Council Member Lozada)
  
• Authorizing the Commissioner of Public Property to execute and deliver deeds conveying fee simple title in the Seventh Councilmanic District. (230466*, Council Member Lozada)
  
• Authorizing the Committee on Public Safety to hold hearings regarding the escape of two inmates. (230467*, Council Member Vaughn)
  
• Declaring June 5th to 11th, 2023 as Disability Pride Week in the City of Philadelphia (230468*, Council Member Brooks)
  
• Urging the Administration to improve access to good-paying jobs. (230470, Council Member Harrity)
  
• Declaring June 2023 LGBTQ+ Pride Month in the City of Philadelphia. (230472*, Council Member Gauthier)
  

Second Reading and Final Passage:

• Calling on the Administration and School District of Philadelphia to address and expand financial literacy education in the City of Philadelphia. Unanimously adopted. (230420, Council Member Phillips)
• Authorizing the Philadelphia Land Bank to execute and deliver to the Philadelphia Housing Authority a deed conveying a fee simple title on multiple addresses on 31st, 32nd, Diamond Street, and W. York Street. Unanimously amended. (230423, Council Member Jones)
• Amending The Philadelphia Code, entitled “Commerce,” by adding a section on “Workforce Development Activity and Reporting,” in hopes of promoting workforce development activity. Unanimously passed. (220865, Council Member Gilmore Richardson & Council President Clarke)
• Continuation of the Roxborough Neighborhood Improvement District beyond its termination. Unanimously passed. (220940, Council Member Jones)
• Continuing a neighborhood improvement district, known as the Northern Liberties Business Improvement District. Unanimously passed. (230080, Council Member Squilla & Council President Clarke)
• Amending The Philadelphia Code, “Cashless Retail Prohibition,” by providing an exemption for gym membership transactions. Unanimously passed. (230152, Council Member Squilla)

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I 26F Been with 28M for over a year and a half and a bit, but we dated for 4-5 months because we weren't sure we wanted a fully committed relationship.
I found out recently messages between him and a girl who were interested in each other and wanted to date before we met but continued talking harmlessly as friends until ''he had to'' see her in person to 'stop' the chase. The texts insinuated things like what to wear, where to go, and reservations at a nightclub so they can ''talk'' it out, and he can ''tell'' her to stop calling him...
He texted her many flirty messages, and bits of convos between them are deleted here and there, as I can tell from the nature of the messages.
He said he didn't think anything was wrong and didn't feel the need to tell me or didn't try to hide it apparently because he thought he was doing the right thing/didn't feel the need to involve me. And he keeps saying it wasn't cheating.
We were about to get married soon as we both wanted to settle down. He kept dismissing these texts as trivial. But the impact they've had on me is anything but trivial. I haven't been able to sleep or eat for a week, and even a small act like having a cup of yogurt feels like a monumental effort.
How can I trust him again? I am by no means fragile enough to start something new. Maybe one day, but for now, how can I trust his words and the texts that were deleted? How can I trust nothing happened physically as he promised/begged/swore for days now?
Every time I look at those texts and read the words he shared, I can't help but shake with pain. It's as if everything I believed in has crumbled around me, leaving me lost and broken.
had my phone not died, I would not have used his phone and seen the notification of the message she replied to.
EDIT: added more info.
TL;DR: How to trust a person after ''micro'' cheating/betrayal?