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Okay, fair warning - This will probably be a long one. I'll put a TL:DR for you toilet redditors.
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With all the discussion around the last couple Spiral Abyss rotations, specifically the current one, it brings a few things to light (More so than before.) The Spiral Abyss is the one single form of endgame content available to test out your teams that you've spent months saving for, thousands of dollars on, and hours upon hours gearing them up. Whenever you have a gaming community, some portion of that community will be competitive or want to be challenged. The problem with Hoyoverse IMO is that a challenge is not a priority and not what's causing this trend we're seeing. They have one singular practice that drives every single aspect of Genshin Impact - Their ability to control the player's time.
What do I mean? Everything Hoyoverse does is in an attempt to manipulate the amount of time they can keep a player playing the game or spending money. That is the ONLY priority they have and every aspect of the game reflects it. So why wouldn't Spiral Abyss?
Time
Everything in Genshin is governed by some for of time-constraint.

1. Banners
2. Resin
3. Events
4. Dailies
5. Abyss
6. Battle Pass
7. Story

Everything is driven toward creating anxiety, FOMO and drip-feeding. So how does this effect the Spiral Abyss trends, and character designs we're seeing? The same philosophy is applied here. First, I think we can safely say that Hoyoverse isn't listening to "Meta salves" or the endgame crowd, since they haven't listened to them on anything whatsoever in 2 years, and seemingly go out of their way to spite them. They only thing Hoyoverse cares about is the opinions of their shareholders.
Hoyoverse have engrained their design tactic of time-gating into Spiral Abyss the same way they have with everything else.

1. They can't create enemies that have more intense skill checks with damage and lower health pools because a significant portion of their users play on mobile and only care about screenshots of their waifus or decorating their Teapot. They won't alienate this part of their base by increasing the skill ceiling by adding harder-hitting enemies with difficult movesets.
2. We've seen everything trending the way of time-wasting since 1.0. Take for example the health pool of our first world boss: Dvalin (121k @ lvl 90) Now let's take a run of the mill overworld ruin drake (258k @ lvl 90.) And Finally the most recent offender - The Consecrated Beasts (398k average @ lvl 90.) This isn't a coincidence. When you add in SA floor buffs to these enemies, you see whopping 2 mil + health bars each scaled to the enemies overworld health. - An almost 30% increase over the early 3.0 patch cycles. That is method #1 to control time. - Increase the health pool. Method 2: Wave mobs. Remember the good 'ol days of Morgana Venti when everything spawned in at the same time and you could test your AoE clear? Yeah, that was too fast. So how do you increase the time player's need to complete it without making the enemies themselves more cleverly designed, but not so dangerous that it scares off F2P'ers, Teapot hermits, screenshot queens and TCG warriors? Waves. Method 3: Carefully grouped mobs. What do I mean? - It's no surprise that each abyss cycle, the 12th floor has groups of enemies that get much better at stalling you for time. There's a reason that Cryo and Hydro mages and heralds are together so often. Or that the shield types across floors are so seemingly meant to force team comps or just be generally annoying to deal with. Stalling. You get frozen, knocked up, knocked down, cooldown time increased, energy denial. All these things are striving for one goal. To Control. Your. Time.

Tinfoil hat party time.
I believe there is a third force at work here that not only impacts (get it?) Spiral Abyss, but every aspect of the game.
Reverse power creep: With some glaring exceptions, cough, cough Nahida, my opinion, is that characters are getting weaker. I'd like to take this moment to specifically apologize for every Dehya main that just got PTSD from her pre-release videos. Scaling has been going down. Way DOWN, and different types of scaling are becoming more prevalent. HP...You don't have to look far to find several examples of characters recently released that are far outclassed by already existing units.

1. Dehya is probably the worst example of this. Diluc (Literally released with the game) and still pumps out heaps more value. - And don't copium me with "But Dehya has interruption resistance and she fits a different role." Okay sure. - Insert Thoma.
2. Layla...poor innocent, sleepy Layla. Guess what we already have though? Diona. - Who grants EM, movespeed, healing, shielding, battery and more consistent Cryo application.
3. Dori. Ahem...Kuki.
4. Baizhu. We waited TWO years for this guy and he shows up offering some occasional heals and a shield akin to wet paper. Just use Yaoyao.
5. Candace. Let's face it. XingQiu is the damage mitigating, damage dealing, passive healing, and reaction-enabling force of nature that every Hydro unit will be compared to and Candace doesn't fit any of those bills.
6. Nilou. Guess what? you get to only play Bloom and nothing else. Enjoy.
7. Cyno. Cyno is just Keqing with a skill check and both cant compete with Yae or Raiden in terms of raw power level.
8. Alhaitham. Also Keqing but dendro with a skill check. (yes, I know he's very good.. He's an exception)
9. Kaveh. Oof.

I do apologize if I offended your main. hell, I'm a copium-huffing Dehya enjoyer that's still holding onto that last shred of 4.0 hope that Hoyo might actually give her some kind of life-support. The point I'm trying to illustrate is that all these characters are weaker than, or barely on-par with their previous counterparts in specific situations. So what does this cause? With enemies becoming tankier and time-wasty-er, while characters become less and less potent - You have an even more pronounced issue. And it all comes back to one thing.
Time.
TL:DR - Hoyoverse manipulates your time in everything they can to extend your stay here in Teyvat. Spiral Abyss is just another form of medium that they can tweak with bigger health bars and more annoying enemies, waves and lower character power-levels. make it take longer and create the desire to complete. Thus - Make money. Make you play more.

So I ordered this cute sticker from Etsy for my birthday(May 2). Waited till May 18th when It said my package was delivered I check my building's mailbox and my front door nothing it's not there. I contact the seller they tell me to wait a few days. I wait almost a week still no signs of it and I can't even track it. The seller sends a new replacement on May 25th. And it's still not here somehow I can't even track my package on the USPS website! I can only check some updates on Etsy but I haven't had any update in a week. It's been stuck on "destination processing" for 7 fucking days now!!! LIKE WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU GUYS DOING!! Do these people just forget that these are real humans waiting for their packages!!! Every time I use USPS this shit happens!!! I tried contacting them on the phone and the bot couldn't even track the number of my package. I tried to contact an agent and talk to a real person and not a robot and the robot just wouldn't let me get past so I just gave up... What do I do??? Do I just keep waiting? it's been 7 weeks like this is insanity!!! The seller is in California!!! But it takes the package 3 days to come across the USA but it takes 7 days for it to arrive in my area and not be delivered? I waited 7 weeks for this damn stick and I'll probably just have to refund because usps just won't deliver it to me.

So I’m an acting student and had some photos taken yesterday by a photography company for a portfolio. This company are meant to give you 3 complimentary photos that they have taken of you for free, the rest you have to pay for. Anyway after my shoot was done I went to see the viewing and the woman practically manipulated me into paying in instalments for all the photos which is super expensive and I don’t know if I can afford it. I was really stupid for saying yes but it was like she wouldn’t let me leave until I agreed. She made me feel guilty for not paying the full amount. I want to call them up and cancel it today, do you think they’ll let me? I won’t even receive the photos for a while so it might not be too late. Any advice would be helpful. Thank you xx

So I make plans with my cousin quite a bit because we live fairly close and we were always like sisters as we both only have brothers. So my cousin had a bf at age 17 but it was pretty short, and she kinda ghosted everyone to hang with him. But she broke up with him. So now she’s 19, and I’m really happy for her but she keeps making plans with me then not showing up. She’ll make plans with me for let’s say 7pm to get food. Then I’ll text her an hour before and say hey we still on for tonight?
So sometimes she’ll say yes and then not show up. I call, text, nothing. Later she texts sorry was busy with (bf) so other times she’ll tell me but I have to ask her first.. and say “oh I’m running late maybe tomorrow?” She only talks about him when we do hang. She texts him and gets mad if I ask her to just do like a time where we can be off our phone.
The worst part is my family tells me I need a BF and to stop being dramatic because shes happy and I don’t want her to be happy. I got a bit mad at her last time and I said if you wanna do something don’t flake. She doesn’t even apologize. I guess my lesson is to stop asking her to hang out but what else?
TL:DR; cousin ghosting plans or last minute canceling she won’t ever reach out to cancel I always check in. She has plans with boyfriend. My family tells me I am ruining her happiness

Ok. I'm not very good with cars. So I have a 2001 F150 Lariat 5.4L (z vin) and the brakes suddenly stopped working on it earlier.
Me and the bf drove it around just fine for a good chunk of the day (pretty much going to a doctor's appt, and going to home and going to work, etc so nothing really crazy) and the brakes were just fine. He goes to work after dropping me off. He had made some errands at work and they were fine then. But when he was getting ready to leave, he was gonna stop by the office and that's when he noticed the brakes suddenly not working.
Bf recently had changed the break pads on the back. Calipers were replaced too. Rotors are fine. I don't know if any that matters. He had noticed that the brake line back there had a leak so he also replaced that. We haven't gotten to the front brakes yet as we are waiting to get paid to go do them. This was about maybe 2 weeks ago. Had no issues with the brakes after he did that work. When he noticed that the brakes weren't working today. He did a drain and got more brake fluid but the brakes are still not working.
I don't know how to explain how it feels. I know I've seen some posts here say spongy but I don't know if spongy is the right term as I am not good with cars. So when we come to a stop sign, he has to start pressing the breaks about maybe 40 ft before he gets to the stop sign to give him enough time to stop completely. So when he presses the brakes, they still do something ish. But they're essentially gone.
The truck is currently parked at his work place because it would allow us to be able to walk to a store in 5 minutes nstead of being at home where the walk would be a 20+ mi walk one way. Any advice would be awesome. We also aren't ruling out that someone possibly messed with something on the truck because of a particular hairy situation at his work place yesterday and he has a pissed off coworker at him cause he won't let that coworker steal.

I am trying go get the last pearl. But he won't let me.

Hello all. Long post ahead. My first time posting here so I would like to know your thoughts on my scenario regarding my wife.
Me and my wife had been married for 9 months but we've been together for 7 years. I'm working for the family on a WFH setup and she's a housewife who takes care of our 2yr old son tapos tulungan kami sa gawaing bahay. Mataas ang kita ko sa work ko and if may needs and wants sya lahat naibibigay ko (expensive gadgets, appliances, etc) and almost every weekend nakkpagshopping / stay sa mga resorts if trip namin.
So ayun everytime na magaask ako ng permission to hangout with my close friends kahit isang gabi lang tapos balik lang mga midnight hindi tlga sya pmapayag. I always ask her the reason why, kasi itong mga close friends ko almost 10 years na kaming magkakasama and all boys naman and kilala naman nya na lahat (groomsmen sila sa kasal namin) and wala ako ibang set of friends. Her reason will always be is silang dalawa mag ina lang ang matitira sa bahay kahit magvolunteer na ako na patutulugin ko muna ang bata before ako aalis, ayaw tlga nya. Iba kasi tlga na you want to destress from work and have a drink outside with your good old buddies. And hindi naman ako parati nag aask permission every weekend, mga 1-2 times lang per month.
Ngayon I'm planning to go with my close friends na magcar camping sa beach ng 1 night kasi gusto ko magtry ng bagong hobby tapos magccamp din kaming mag family, kaso di nanaman pinapayagan ni misis. Kahit snsabi ko na pwede syang sumama at si baby kaso gusto niya is kaming tatlo lang. Gusto ko muna sana madami muna tapos pwedeng kami nalang 3 kung nasanay na. Last time I went scuba diving with my close friends and gusto ko tlgang maexperience and baka maging hobby tapos eto si misis di tlga pumayag and what I did is umalis nalang ako ng bahay kasi nabook ko na at nainis na ako. Then pagbalik ko ng bahay sa hapon galit tlga sya d kami nagusap for how many days kahit kaming tatlo lang sa bahay.
My wife is hindi tlga sya nkkihangout sa mga friends nya and do some stuff outside kahit snsabi ko sakanya na she should do it tapos ako na muna bahala sa bata or pwede namin iwan sa parents nya. I always encourage her to do this kaso pag ako na, ayaw tlga nya. Always reason is "O tapos kami iiwan mo lang kami dito sa bahay etc.." kahit kaya lang naman tlga nyang magisa muna for how many hours or pwede nya rin iwan muna ang bata sa parents nya. I'm kind of adventurous and wanted to try a lot of stuff kaso my wife is not letting me do those things.
Ganito ba tlga pag kasal na? Di na pwedeng magtry ng new hobby / always same routine? Wanted to ask married people here what they think and if pumapayag ba sila sa partner nila pag ganito?
Thanks

[Scene: A dimly lit tavern with lively music playing in the background. Patrons are engaged in conversation and laughter. Bronn of the Blackwater, a confident and witty sellsword, stands at the center of the room.]
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Bronn: [Smirking] So you think you're ready for the battlefield, eh? Well, here's a piece of advice that might save your sorry arse. It's all about protection, lads and lasses. And I'm not just talking about armor.
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[The crowd quiets down, intrigued by Bronn's words.]
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Bronn: I'm talking about something smaller, yet just as crucial. Condoms! Yes, you heard me right. Condoms!
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[The crowd chuckles and exchanges curious glances.]
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Bronn: Now, I know what you're thinking. "Bronn, what's a sellsword like you doing talking about condoms?" Well, let me tell you, my friends, a good sellsword knows the value of being prepared.
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[Bronn pauses for a moment, locking eyes with a couple sitting nearby.]
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Bronn: Look, we've all had our fair share of battles, both in and out of the battlefield. But why risk unwanted surprises? With the right protection, you can enjoy your conquests without worrying about what might come next.
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[The crowd nods in agreement, some even raising their tankards in a toast.]
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Bronn: Whether you're a knight, a lady, or just a commoner looking for a bit of fun, remember that every great warrior knows the importance of protecting themselves and their partners.
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[The crowd claps and cheers, appreciating Bronn's straightforward and practical approach.]
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Bronn: So, before you head into the fray, make sure you arm yourself properly. Choose quality. Choose reliability. Choose the best damn condoms in the realm!
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[A bartender slides a tray of branded condom packages onto the counter. Bronn smirks and holds one up to the crowd.]
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Bronn: Trust me, lads and lasses, you won't find a better shield for your sword. Remember, when it comes to battles of passion, play it safe, and let your pleasure reign supreme!
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[The crowd erupts in laughter and applause as the tavern fades into the background, leaving the image of the branded condoms on the screen.]
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Voiceover: [Confidently] Bronn-approved condoms. Because every warrior knows the importance of protection. Get yours today and conquer with confidence.
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[Fade out.]

Trying to go summoner, but it seems most of my skills won't let me actually affect my minions. What will increase my minions dmg/effectiveness? For example I just unlocked amp damage, seems like it only benefits me it says "3% increased damage you deal", is me myself and minions or no? Is pure summoner not a thing? seems I am forced to play attack skills too?

I am 30f and I've been living in Watertown for about a year now. I am a Type 1 diabetic. I've had diabetes since childhood and it's been a really tough.
I ran out of my insulin earlier in the day and I'm really worried because I can't go for a whole day without my insulin.
I budgeted for my insulin but some unexpected car expenses came up. I had to patch one of my car tires yesterday, and now I am $32 short on getting my monthly insulin refill.
My monthly refill cost $35 a month. But sadly, I'm really broke right now (I only have $3 to my name, and I won't get paid until Friday).
I'm super worried because I don't really have any friends or family to lean on and I don't wanna go to the ER because (I can't afford it).
I'm kinda new to reddit but I just thought I'd ask for help on here because Watertown doesn't have an active subreddit. I'm not sure what else to do and I'm starting to panic. I'd be glad if anyone could assist me in getting my insulin. I'm $32 short. Or if anyone has Novolog insulin around Watertown, that'll be great too.
If anyone could help, I'd update my post and let everyone know I got the help I need.
I'm really worried and I can't sleep. I'm pretty much begging for my life at this point. Someone please help.

I spent a lot of time on forums growing up, and one had several adults who discussed politics obsessively. I read hot takes about Joe the Plumber and how great Obama was, etc. I thought these were really intelligent opinions when I was 14; two of these people were lawyers in real life.
I'm 31 now. I have a work channel, a school channel, and social media and boards I browse. There's a type of specific person who annoys me, because despite discussing politics almost non-stop, they never really seem to make any salient points. They trot out some mainstream media article, then make disparaging comments about some country that's not an ally of the US, like, "Guess the Ruskies need time to get their story straight. 🙄 Man I'm so tired."
I actually defer to a US point-of-view on several topics. Living abroad, I began to realize there were things about America I had come to appreciate. I also realized how insular my mode of thought was; I remember my first year abroad I discussed Russian interference with a Kazakh woman, and her reaction to me was like a patient adult dealing with a child convinced of Santa Claus. I was just convinced I knew what was going on, how could I not know? But I couldn't shake this unsettling feeling my serious thoughts had only amused someone who was trying not to offend me. It wasn't an unvaluable experience.
I think unless you're in a comparatively small group of people, you probably don't know exactly what's going on with current events. The Nordstream pipeline, we can make educated guesses — and some are more educated than others — but we probably won't truly know the entirety until decades from now.
Not saying the answer to whatever in-depth topic is, "Well we can't know, so let's not think or talk about it." But the level of smug confidence I find in people annoys me.

My prompt: Role play: Vanilla Ice of the 90’s and Eminem now have a rap battle. Show me that rap battle starting with Vanilla Ice and then going to Eminem.
ChatGPT: Vanilla Ice:
Yo, I'm Vanilla Ice, the 90s sensation, Ice Ice Baby was my declaration. With my slick hair and my funky groove, I rocked the charts, made the ladies move.
But now I'm back, ready to reclaim my throne, Stepping into the ring, making my presence known. Eminem, you think you're the rap god in town, Well, prepare yourself 'cause I'm about to shut you down.
Eminem:
Hold up, Vanilla Ice, you're stuck in the past, Your one-hit wonder fame didn't really last. I'm Eminem, the real Slim Shady's here, A lyrical genius, let me make that clear.
I spit rhymes so fast, your head will spin, My wordplay and flow, pure adrenaline. You may have had a moment, a fleeting fame, But against me, Vanilla, you're just playing a game.
Vanilla Ice:
Eminem, you think you're so superior, But your rhymes are just angry, full of hysteria. I brought fun and dance to the rap game, While you're busy venting, consumed by your own flame.
I may have had my ups and downs in the past, But my legacy remains, it will forever last. So step aside, Eminem, and watch me shine, I'm the Vanilla Ice, I'm the 90s' rhyme.
Eminem:
Oh, Vanilla Ice, your words are cute, But let me show you the real rap pursuit. I've sold millions of records, won countless awards, My words cut deep, leave rappers floored.
Your time may have come and gone, that's true, But in this battle, Vanilla, I'll outdo you. I'm the rap king now, undisputedly, So sit back, watch, and learn from me.
Vanilla Ice:
Eminem, you may have the fame and fortune, But I still got the moves, like a rap contortion. I paved the way for artists like you, With my style and swagger, something fresh and new.
But if you insist on taking the crown, Let's go head-to-head, I won't back down. In this rap battle, let the audience decide, Who's the real rap legend, who's got the true stride.
Eminem:
Vanilla Ice, it's time to face reality, Your time has passed, accept your mortality. I'll take the crown, the rap battle's mine, Your 90s glory won't outshine.
So step aside, Vanilla, and let the king reign, Eminem's here, and I'll cause you rap pain. I've proven my worth, my skills are unmatched, In this rap game, Vanilla, I've got the final match.
(Note: This rap battle is a fictional role play and does not reflect the actual opinions or statements of Vanilla Ice or Eminem.)

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Haste I think there have been things I've done, or especially things I've refrained from doing for reasons of my own. I always thought I was doing so with you in mind, but maybe it's not fair of me to interpret what you need. Yes, I'm worried this is unfair. No, it's not stopped me before. But if I'm off this is the most unfair of all. But here we have it. Some of the good, peeking out under the rubble and confusion. You set me and my whole world alight. Relentlessly. Without fail. The way the thought of you is a physical sensation has not abated in the slightest. I keep noting it because it's just the most intense and perplexing thing and it's completely unique to you. Like you're pulling at my soul. Or my soul is trying to pull me to you from the inside. I don't need to see you for that, the thought is more than sufficient, but when I do see you? When I look, it's amplified by a hundred. You are, simply put, fucking hot. Overtly and subtly. You're somehow even more staggering when you're at ease. Those types are my all-time favourite snapshots of you. And you don't even know it. People just appear when you're single, do they? No guesses as to why that is, you big dumb beautiful man? And looks only get you so far. You are the whole package, others that want you probably don't even know or get the best of you like I do and still it's true for them. Even my damaged ass knew it from the start. God, I want you. To kiss all the worries and apologies away until all that's left is the sound of our breathing. To let the earth moving desire take over and work each others bodies to exhaustion. Do you have any idea how difficult it is to not call in the best sex of my life when I haven't had any in over five years? Can you imagine how jealous I feel when I think of your situation, how I might be stirring up these feelings and they're being delivered elsewhere? When it hits, it is shockingly ugly and hateful, as powerful and unflinching as everything else you inspire in me. I've gone from horny to tears in 60secs. It's just crazy. You make me crazy. I don't know that I'll ever be immune to you. It's just different, what we have. Like it's in my nature, in the stars, I don't know. You have so much power over me, though you might not feel it. You have the power to completely halt my life in its tracks, to steal anyone and everyone's thunder, to reduce me to anything from a quivering mess to a sobbing mess. Always with the mess... And that's just from a distance. I might be all kinds of fucked up, might not be able to love you in the way you deserve yet, maybe never, but from the very depths of my being I love you the best I can and I always will, there will never be another you to me. Whether I continue as a car crash or I make my way to you, whether you're receptive or not in that eventuality. Whether we can ever get it right. Always. Always sorry, here, yours, with the mess, with all my heart.
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Bottling things up (unfinished)
I'm still not sure of all that I'm feeling right now. Sorry, I imagine it's hard for you to keep up too. But having everything on the table can only be a good thing surely. And that's what is getting me. Where are you? Why do I still feel like I'm giving everything and you're not? It's worse because I'm letting myself be influenced by things I don't know. That I've had to guess or have read on throwaway accounts. I feel unstable...I feel let down. I feel like a hypocrite, because I'm not perfect by any stretch. So what's my issue? Why am I annoyed that you're not telling me to feel less guilty when I know I deserve it? Why am I expecting you to do things I can't? I suppose, I just feel like I am really pushing myself, still, and you're still keeping me at arms length. I'm being unfair. I suppose, that's why I'm feeling drawn to you again. You're hurting me and I like it. This feels like love to me. Is this how you wanted your love to feel? You talked about me setting you free. What a joke. I know I've said how I won't think badly of you etc., I do mean that, but that comes from a place of care for you, being unwilling to put more stress upon you. Fear of being a bad person. So I compromise myself in order to deliver the most gentle truth I can tell instead of the most authentic. Yeesh that's deep. Didn't know that until now :l I
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True to form, he walked away Said he loved her, didn't stay May I have your peace please? An unspoken favour brought to fruition Not the most loving of decisions She really did try to empathize But feared a lie in disguise She'd never known love, just neglect Resounding familiarity hit while she wept Perhaps this is love after all Love always making her feel small Love that always leaves her alone Love that comes and always goes Maybe love isn't meant to stay That would explain him walking away Love is another word for pain
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S--
Wrote. He loves someone else too. Or instead of. Or it's all a lie or a game. I feel...totally annihilated. I love him and I hate him. It's all pointless and a waste of time. Staying away is best for both of us, we are both disasters. He's crushed me on purpose. I just don't get it. How is it that he loves me but doesn't give any consideration to me? I feel so fucked up. I wish I knew what the fuck is going on, this is driving me mad and it's only been half a day. I realised maybe this is him trying to fill in some blanks in a really shitty way. I guess we'll see what the next few days hold
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You changed everything when you entered my life. Neither of us ever anticipated what it would become, I'm sure of that much. Of course, I had made no secret of my desire to be close with you, I already knew I adored many things about you. But then I found so many more once your walls came down. The magnetism I felt between us, still feel, it's unlike anything else. We are unmatched in that regard. A photo of your face... Honestly. Just that fucking gorgeous face, those pleading eyes. You left me. I know, that's not how we're supposed to see it, but I know how it ended up feeling. The loss of you was like all the light disappeared. I've not seen myself in years for the darkness. I couldn't even see an us for a long while. I was caught unawares when you came back, professing to have loved me all along. Understandably so, since you never said anything and went as far as to deny it at times. I am...not the fastest mover. It can take me a long time to process things. You rushed me, inadvertently into the correct decision, but even so. I tried to draw a hard line. You resisted. I falter in my resistance and you withdraw- you make either shockingly thoughtless or facetious moves which actively hurt me.
Bla bla fuck off K------
...(unfinished)?
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It's been such a long time now. In the cold and dark. I had thought I'd gotten over it, over you, but I don't think I've been the same since. I've sought emptiness, rejection and solitude even in my daydreams these past years.
I've been around the houses on what to do with this situation. I don't fully understand, it's impossible to see the full picture without the definition only you could provide.
I think, I want to say goodbye. Close the chapter properly. I'm not abandoning you, I will be at the other end of the phone if you need me. I'm pretty much asking permission here. It just hurts. It hurts a fucking lot, and I'm in a state, I don't really want to go through all the stress of fixing my life just to be greeted with heartache. I just want peace. Safety. And you have a full life, I don't want to be hanging over you like a dark cloud. I want you to live freely.
Do you want to see me?
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I want to see you
Can we? I feel like I'm going crazy. I want something solid. I want to see you. Please?
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A recipe for hurt
Wine, love, a dash of detail, flavour, spice and promises. Combine with me.
Stir. Add heat. Keep stirring. Never let it rest. Stir. More heat. More stirring.
Reduce it.
Until it's sticky. Switch off. You can rest now. I'm stuck to the hot pan. Not going anywhere. I won't leave you. Not even when you sit back and watch as I burn.
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Sometimes you make me feel worthless. Monitored but not cared for. Never enough to be cared for.
Other times, I feel helpless. Disgusting. Volatile. Like I should hide myself away for your safety. I can't possibly be what you need.
Where do you go when pain is all around?
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What about me? (Unfinished)
Over the years a number of people have been given a little piece of me for themselves. Some, used it to build themself back up. I am a part of them. Others, didn't know what to do with a piece of me. They didn't care for the sentiment. But it mattered not, the piece was theirs to do with as they pleased. Now only a scarce few haven't (yet) returned to reintroduce me to the once little piece of me, flourishing under the host's eventual conclusion that they can accept the unwavering love and care it exists to offer.
You were supposed to get a little piece of me. I already admired you from afar, then, I could see you hurting and I wanted to make it better. I wanted you to realise what you were capable of, what you could have and most definitely what you under no circumstances should have to tolerate. I wanted you to have complete faith that you were cared about, cared for, desirable, deserving, admirable, full of amazing, good qualities. You are innately good natured. So soft under it all. Child like.
You became something different to me. I began to need you. The sweet good mornings and goodnights. The approval, the sameness, the reciprocity. I realised I had to be something different for you, because I loved you. That was scary. The thought of holding a piece of you in my hands (behave) was like the ultimate dream and an absolute nightmare. Because I wasn't ready to accept it, for good reasons and admittedly stupid and regrettable reasons. You get that. I know you do.
I did what I do best and I went away. I had aimed to fix what I could and return. But, I was hurting and confused. Everything was on my shoulders. Things you had said previously were ringing in my ears, I knew you'd move on fast and it taunted me day and night. I became somebody different alright... But not in the right direction. I vascillated between self deprecation and self pity. I was in no fit state for anyone but you were all I thought of, I couldn't have stopped myself reaching for you any of the times I did. Even though you gave me no hope. No care. I felt like I was bleeding out while you watched.
It changed me. I have been different since that year I spent chasing after you. I'm closed off, totally disengaged from people in the real world. I've not even had a proper sex chat since 😂. It's not all your fault, not even mostly your fault. I am still sorry. I'd never tried to love or be loved before. Not to mention, I still believe we have something more than your everyday love. You have altered the trajectory of my life, thrice now. Nobody else has that power over me.
I had been talking to someone else, though I was writing to them more than I ever spoke to them, if that makes sense. I had been slowly, privately, building my confidence. Working my way through a tonne of negativity that had been building up since long before you. But keeping myself safe, unreachable. I've been a bit of a mess. But I was really making progress and felt he and I were both really growing into my appreciation of him, right as I found you 😂
It was such a shock. I felt everything all at once. I didn't understand what on earth was happening on any front.
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Disappear
That was your plan. Do you remember that conversation?
Is that still your plan? Might there be room for one more? Nothing would make me happier. Sometimes, I think it's the only way.
Disappear with me? Even if just for a little while. Wrap me up in those arms and hide me away. I don't want to see anything else, feel anything else but you. Shield me from the lingering chill of your distance. Disappear with me. Please. We can make it all disappear.
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To me to you
As I said, I'm sorry I wrote from a bad place. You reached for me. I reached back and you dropped your hands. That's not how you said this was going to work.
When I found you, big shock, lots of feelings etc etc. For the first couple of weeks, I wasn't really sure what I was doing, feeling, everything was in limbo.
I wasn't fixated on whether the letters were all for me, I just found it hard to understand- your continued ambiguity was such a contradiction. I mean, you can't say 'hindsight is a farce' and then talk about your regrets looking back immediately after. That doesn't make sense. We still weren't communicating.
You pushed me. Tick tick tick. I wanted to set you free, I don't know. It was eating me up, I have had so much going through my head. I thought I was leaning the other way for a while. I did nothing though. Mostly, I was just thinking of you and us.
By the time I was reaquainted with my feelings for you, I was hurt by the things I'd realised and kind of dismayed with how things were playing out here. If that was my fault, which I can totally see how, I get it. Let me make amends. I want us to be on equal, even footing.
May I be struck down if I'm lying, I was honestly thinking about asking to see you moments before you asked 😂. I don't know what I said or did to make you push me away once I finally decided to break the last barrier between us. Or like I said, whether it was, ugh, you know all that I said. There are so many possibilities.
It's mostly one general possibility that brought me here. Brought me back. Kept me here through everything. Has got me writing this despite you literally denying everything.
You. You're unique. You're you. Perfect. Someone to me. Always. Infinity. Us. All the things that have happened that don't just happen. All the ways you make me feel and even the ways I feel them.
I'm not sure who I'm writing this one for. I suppose, it depends on what happens next. And I don't know that either.
I believe at this point I've covered everything essential between the two messages. Over to you.
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Hurry up
Sort your head out. Listen to me. Believe it. Try.
Where are you? Where should I be? Show me the way.
My soul is going to leave my body trying to pull me to you from the inside.
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Reach
Do it again. Please. We're so close, don't stop repeating until we are there. I feel it's just this one thing and everything will be right. Give me your hand. Allow me to get a steady grip and I won't let go.
Where are you? Where should I be? That's all I need. You and me. We'll get there. Have faith. Try. Feel. Do you feel my love for you? I keep sending more of it out there. It's all around you by now. Wishing you well. Smiling when you're smiling. Babbling on in your ear that you could have my help picking up the pieces.
Yours,
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All I know is how I feel. What I'm capable of. What I have to give.
It takes a birthday wish, a genie with their fingers crossed and a sacrifice to the heavens for me to form so much as a comfortable rapport with someone. More so since the first time I fell in love with you. Yes.
Please, soldier, lower your weapons? Not your defences. I understand. I too am battered and bruised under my armour. I need medical attention and a place to rest and recuperate. You said you had what I needed, picked up my broken heart and sent it ahead. Why won't you tell me where to find it?
I feel it. Fixed. Already looking forward to the next time you'll spend time caring for it. It trusts you. Though it does want out of the testing facility.
Won't you trust it to stay close by if you let it out?
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I'm scared
of looking a fool. Being dumb. Of seeming insincere when it's all I've been and want to be. That I'll hurt or disappoint you. Of not being able to give you what you want. Being left. Being hurt. Being loved.
I forgive you. It's been an impossible situation, I am well aware of that.
Forgive me for the pain and confusion while you waited for me to get properly reaquainted with and admit to my feelings for you. This has all been so, so challenging to navigate. I did what I thought was best for you. True to form, I made things harder than they could have been. I think. I really do need your insight to know for sure how to break down what happened.
So, yeah, I'm scared. Terrified. Still. But most of all I'm scared that I'm one letter away from the chance to learn the minutiae of our love.
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You and I
We've made a lot of mistakes, it's true. I regret mine. I'm sorry. I know you feel the same. The journey has been a long one and the terrain unforgiving.
One of these days, at least I sincerely hope, our walls will be down concurrently. We aren't that strong, love, we can't run from this indefinitely. We are going to sink down in shared bliss onto the rubble and not get back up for many sunsets and sunrises.
Until that day, I will likely be alone. I already am, have been since you. Just so you know my intention. I won't be seeking solace elsewhere. There are no prerequisites, it's what I want. To be yours. When I look back I think I always have.
I've fallen for you twice. Yes. I love everything about you. Everything. I will continue to love you while we are opposed, I will long for when we intersect. I know you feel that too. That will have to be enough, won't it?
You brought life to my fading heart. Now it's ran away to be with you. It texts. It's happy there. I'm happy it's there. Thank you for everything, even if you didn't mean to.
I forgive you and I love you.
Always here,
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Hi, sorry about that. And for the late message. x2. And the fact this one is so long haha. Hmm any more apologies? I don't think so? A platitude- no stress about replying, neither when or if.
I'm going to preface this by saying that I genuinely had left you, as requested, more or less in the friendzone until a few months ago...But since then, loads of stuff has been happening r.e our history (unrelated to our catch up in March btw). Could we have a face to face to talk about it? A walk, drive? Liquid lunch may be indicated 😂 I could travel to wherever works for you. Anything I could do to make you feel comfortable enough to agree, it's yours, just let me know. It's really, really put me through the wringer. I've not been able to talk to anyone about it except S--- because I wanted to protect us both, and she wasn't very helpful haha. I don't expect anything from you at all. Just wish to look you in the eye and ask you about it? Air it all out. Please? It wouldn't be unpleasant for you in any way. I realise it's not always been easy here 🙈 I swear I'm in full possession of things like self control nowadays haha. This isn't a ploy, I don't wish to confess my feelings to you, if you're worried, though I'll admit this has brought them back slowly. But I won't be weird about it. Umm weirder* I guess, but I swear thoughts or feelings aren't where all this is coming from! 😂 I'm not going keep writing if you say no. I know I have form for it so please rest assured the crazy is not about to start back up. I was gonna move fac for unrelated reasons and I don't have to return. It's all your call. I just don't know what else to do. It's been months, I thought it was being resolved and now it's worse than ever. I genuinely just want to unravel what on earth I've just been through tbh and talking will help either way. You'll understand why if you'll allow me the space to show you. I know it's weird, but we're some kind of friends right? So I'm hoping you'll afford me the benefit of the doubt... And perhaps an hour or two of your time :3 double please.
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The majority I've written the last couple of weeks. Quite the journey. Where will I end up? You tell me.

Trying to sell my two blink tickets for the June 22nd San Jose SAP Center show. (I don't want to miss it, but I'm very pregnant and my doctor won't let me travel ☹️.) Trying to just break even after Ticketmaster's taxes and fees. $280 per ticket. Section 102, row 4, seats 14 and 15. Venmo or Paypal preferred, digital ticket transfer through Ticketmaster.

Oh, hi, I almost didn't see you there. so, as much as I might try to hide it, I'm a human just like the rest of us. I think that humans need some level of social interaction. I am usually fairly content doing things on my own, but I need to be honest with myself and admit that I am missing something. I am lonely. I would really like to have a friend, someone that I can connect to, have a real human connection with. even though I have always kind of been more on the side of being a loner, I do like talking. with the right person, that is. and I'm hoping to find the right person. because when I am talking to the right person, I love it. I love just chatting about any random thing that pops into our head.
a bit about me, I'm a 31-year-old guy from california, I'm single, and only because I think that it's somewhat relevant, I have OCD. no need to dwell on that, though.
I'm pretty bad at talking about myself unprompted, I prefer to have a back and forth with someone as a way of getting to know each other. I love questions, I think that asking each other questions is a great way to get to know the person you're talking to, and I also just think it's really entertaining.
but okay, how about some things that I'm interested in;
•movies. this is a big one. I really love film, and I'll watch any type. I basically want to watch and know about as much as I can when it comes to movies. from the most highbrow art film, to the trashiest horror movie, I'll watch it all, and I love it. see anything good lately? I want to hear about it.
•magic. as in, you know, like, tricks. I've been doing it my whole life, and I don't care how nerdy it is, I find it really interesting and fun.
•reading. all kinds of different things. I like nonfiction, especially digging through articles of weird events from history and stuff like that. but I also like short stories. I think that mysteries and detective stories are really cool. I do enjoy novels as well, but I just don't read as many of them as I would like. read anything good lately? let's hear about it.
•I told you I was bad at talking about myself, so I can't think of another thing to mention off the top of my head. I guess if you're curious you'll just have to message me and you can find out.
as for what I'm looking for, I'm pretty open. some things that I would request of the person I would talk to though, would be that you are over the age of 18 (okay, this one is less of a request, and more like I won't reply if you aren't), although aside from that I don't really care too much about age, that you're open-minded, and I would also say that, although it's not as if I'm specifically looking for anything like this, I would request that if you aren't single, that you can at least be sure that whatever your relationship situation is, if we talk it won't be anyone's back. I'm not comfortable with that. oh, I will also say that if you are the type of person who is prone to ghosting people, I'd request that you not reach out, because I have just had enough of those experiences and it's kind of a pet peeve of mine. I'm not saying that I expect long involved conversations with every single person that I interact with, but if we do get in touch and you decide that you aren't really feeling it and would rather not keep it going, then one simple, short message letting me know that would go a long way. so apart from those things, there's not really much else. I really am open to talking to just about anyone.
so, as I said, if you're curious, or looking for someone to talk to, feel free to message me.

First of all, sorry for formatting and bad English, I'm on mobile and English is my second language.
I had a party last Friday, at my place (nothing too big, like 15 people max) Two friends slept over, and I saw one of them going through my stuff. I usually don't mind this since I'm very nosey myself, but I did find it weird. Anyway, on Sunday I noticed my sunscreen was missing, from it's place in the bathroom. (It was expensive, out of my normal price range) The first person I thought of asking was this friend, because she had just told me she accidentally took one of my blush powders while she was doing her makeup before leaving. (It got mixed up with her own stuff) I asked about the sunscreen and she said she hadn't seen it, and didn't have it. She continued with the conversation and even sent me a pic of all the things in her makeup bag, like asking me to see if there was anything else that was mine.
In the same conversation, she said she was going to ask me for some sunscreen, but was ashamed to do so since we have different skin tones. I let it go and started asking more people, but I thought: How did she know it was tinted? The old bottle I have doesn't have any color.
This was weird, but for the sake of our friendship, and since I couldn't be sure she took it, I was just going to accept my loss.
That was until this morning, when I was going to do my makeup and noticed there were more things missing (a concealer and a different blush) Now, none of theese things ever left my room, and the only two people who were inside alone were the two friends that stayed over (this I am 100% certain, because my cat was locked inside during the party)
Also all my jewelry was scrambled around (luckily it's all really cheap so even if there's something I skipped it wouldn't really be a problem)
I confronted the other girl, but I don't think she did it (she's one of my best friends and I know her pretty well)
So that's the background I'm seeing my friend on Thursday so she can give me my blush back. I want to confront her about the situation, and see if I can get her to give me my stuff back. She is a good person, I think she has a problem.
How would you suggest I talk to her, in a way that gets me my things back? I was thinking of getting her to slip about the concealer (I still haven't told her I know these things are missing) Or maybe being upfront about it and telling her I won't tell anyone about this and won't mention it again if she returns my things.
I would let it go completely if it was cheaper stuff, but I can't afford to replace all things at once, and they are things I use every day
Also if you think this isn't enough evidence to accuse her, please tell me

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I am 5’9 caucasian mixed male. Fertile, successful in the past and seeking like minded women who are seeking to get pregnant and want their conception to be enjoyable (and pleasurable) as well as meaningful and purposeful. No arthritis and no heart issues in my family history. No STIs and no HIV and willing to show a printed copy of my test results to reassure you. I'm also sexually experienced and attentive to every new recipient. As long as you are over 18, I'm willing to help any women of any age, ethnicity, shape and size. in regards to... "My personal size," I'm circumcised, 6" long. I do my best to take good care of myself and I'm in my most fertile stage when I eat a large daily portions of seafood in my diet a week or two before every donation. If this has piqued your interest, let me know. I want to make your impregnation a success and I won't stop till the job gets done. Thank you.

Whenever I'm at Corner Bakery Cafe it won't let me connect to captive portal. I can connect to any wifi network without a captive portal but the captive portal never works even when I turn my VPN off. It used to work but doesn't anymore. WTF? How do I fix this? I'm on Kubuntu 23 here so did I do something wrong?

I'm in the testing stage of the shrine detector with Robbie and apparently I'm supposed to leave the house to find a shrine but mfing Robbie won't let me out of the mfing house and I can't go anywhere can anyone help apparently this wasn't an issue when I searched online and I'm scared I'm soft locked cos I'm stuck in the research lab with no way of getting out