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We went from dating to feeling like we were in a relationship in weeks, but the original agreement was just date and no relationships (we both still need time given recent breakups).
She asked for physical distance cause of life events. I got a bit defensive cause I thought it was about me, but didn’t ask in a straightforward way. We clarified everything tho and I encouraged her to take all the space she needed. I asked if my texting was an issue and she said no, it was minimal and she just felt bad for being absent (which I reassured her wasn’t an issue because I need my time too).
My anxious attachment flared up brutally, and after a few days I approached her at an event we were both at and apologized for my behaviour again and thanked her for encouraging my growth.
She brought up she was struggling with a lot (friend’s sudden death, sick family member, roommate who uses drugs, PMS/PMDD week), she needs space to deal with it all but that she felt guilty, and felt that I was showing signs I wanted a relationship that she knows she wasn’t wanting anytime soon. That said, she’s introduced me to her family, kept asking me to stay the night, and relied on my support with life things, so she’s done the same (I haven’t done any of that, tho she’s stayed the night and invited a friend over).
I reiterated I love her (which we have been saying for a few weeks now) and she said she knows that, that I’m sorry for how she feels, but that we have so many compatibilities and a strong connection, and that I also need/want space in my life cause that’s what’s good for me right now.
I then asked her if she wanted to break us off (I’m a train-wreck…. I just had verbal diarrhea), and she said she wasn’t in the headspace to make that decision yet cause of her PMS/PMDD. I then said I’d see her and good luck with her work, and she said “well I’ll see you in 20 minutes at the next session”, and I said of course and walked away.
That was yesterday and I haven’t texted or talked to her since then (we were texting multiple times per day before/up to that). I want to reach out and say I’m sorry for being insensitive, and adding to your plate with my selfishness. But she’s got PMS/PMDD till tomorrow at least and she’s supporting her roommate till they go to treatment on Monday, and so I don’t know what to do!!

When I was younger and knee-deep in maladaptive daydreaming, I would constantly think of my life as an ongoing series of media. At one point, it was so intense that I actually had a series of short stories, called The Phantom Series, which combined dramatic narratives of things that had really happened and speculative (?) stories about potential future events that I was looking forward to (it was called The Phantom Series because I was writing this in the years immediately following my mother's death and it was all written as though my hypothetical future daughter was my self-insert whom all these things were happening to- a level of dissociation that made it easier for me to process what was happening to me). Of course, limerence, and attractions that didn't quite rise to the level of limerence, were frequent story arcs in this series- in every installment, "my daughter" was either infatuated with some boy "she" barely knew (the speculative future events that never really happened would almost always involve said boy) or had "her" emotional journey framed by "her" longing for love in general. Somewhat appropriate, as I wrote these stories when I was between 16 and 19 years old- but obviously, real life never worked out like my stories, and as such I found myself perpetually disappointed.
I was 19 when I was disappointed so badly that I swore I would never get carried off by my fantasies ever again. He was my seventh LO of life, my third just of college. We met at a party one night, made out and I, a completely clueless virgin, was about to go back to his dorm room with him before some observers intervened due to me being literally too drunk to stand. I was scared to see him again in the light of day, afraid that he wouldn't find me attractive in his sober mind. When I looked him up on Instagram the night after we met and found out his last name, my brain suddenly recovered the memory of, when I was 4 years old, my grandmother explaining maiden and married names to me and using his (incredibly generic) last name as an example of my hypothetical future married name. Over the next 5 weeks, my fantasies and my fears grew simultaneously- the higher the stakes were in my mind for seeing him again, the more afraid I was for it to happen, knowing that reality was going to destroy the fantasy. When I, my narcissistic abuser who I then called my "best friend", and his even-more-dysfunctional friend from high school showed up unannounced to a party where my LO would be 5 weeks after our initial meeting, that was exactly what happened- worse still, we ended up literally shutting down the party by being disasters of human beings (an ambulance was called for the friend and my abuser physically attacked my LO- no, I'm not kidding, this really happened). I woke up the next morning with a two-ton weight of depression on my chest as though I had just been handed divorce papers after 5 years of marriage, and of course, my abuser took further advantage of my misery which he had been actively encouraging the entire time (which was how I started to realize that he was, in fact, my abuser). After that experience, I swore that I was never going to break my own heart like that again- sadly, the only way I really knew how to keep that promise was through total isolation. There was a guy the following semester who in hindsight was probably genuinely interested in me, but I avoided the hell out of getting to know him, petrified of falling into the very same trap. When COVID hit the semester after that and I went on a leave of absence that ended up lasting for 5 semesters, it obviously lent itself to isolation. I spent that time in reflection, painstakingly trying to find the cognitive "cure" that would keep that from ever happening to me again. When I finally started to emerge from isolation around a year ago, almost instantly there were new attractions and even an eighth LO, but they lacked the delusional nature of the ones I'd had in my childhood and adolescence. Never again.
Well... here I am, 4 years after I declared "never again", realizing that somehow, some way, I have managed to let it happen again. Like all of my "hyperfixations" on people, it only gets worse the less input I have from reality to counter it... the problem is, it'll be almost another 3 months before I see him in person again, and I'm already not prepared for that crash back down to earth. Even getting a notification that he added to his Instagram story the other day gave me a small fog-clearing moment... but, since he posted about a sports team that my dad follows and that I used to when I was a child, a few hours later I thought "what if I responded to his story?" and had to say to myself, out loud, "no, don't do that". I've been mentally writing the story of next (fall) semester for over a month now, which, while not exclusively about him (in my flimsy ass defense), he obviously features prominently in- celebrating his birthday, working with him on committee, having the same half-funny half-pained interactions we've been having but with a cinematic twist that lets every audience member know that these two characters will fall in love by movie's end. As of a few days ago, this story has a title- a pretty brilliant one, stemming from a triple entendre about the story's setting and plot points, but it's still a speculative story about things that almost certainly won't happen and now it has a title. Just now, I found a selection of songs that would make the perfect soundtrack, and that was when I realized that I am royally fucked. When the hell did I become this person again? How hard and how many times do I need to get my ass kicked before I learn not to do this? I pulled out literally all the stops to not fall back into this trap, and still, it's like a siren's call. I'm left wondering if there's any hope, if this tendency is just a part of me that I will have to deal with periodically for the rest of my life.

Hi everyone, first time posting. I'm 26 year old male Living with my mom & sister. I've been diagnosed with OCD back in 2014 and used SSRI's, anafranil. By that time it was only obsession with cleaning. I used to wash my hands 20-30 times a day etc. That's all gone now, but hey! its worse than ever. I've never had thoughts going crazy like this before, its like my brain's capacity is 5 but its working at 100. I have constant voice in my head even visualizing everything in details but its too much of it. Its like a hundreds of pop-ups on computer but you can only interact at one. I also diagnosed with ADHD,Asperger,crohn disease,psoriasis,fibromiyalgia. I'm only using Lyrica for anxiety and nothing else and I feel like im going down through rabbit hole of going crazy real fast. I've never believed in god or religions and lately I've gained symphaty towards it, Im always thinking about that life is a kind of simulation, not being real. Its like my brain is going crazy but trying to hold onto thoughts but they're just not real and changes my emotions and my behaviour changes. I can't even tell if its real or not sometimes, asking my doctor this is a psychosis but he says no lol. People really envy me how intelligent I am and how I got rich so fast at this age, I've accomplished so many things but I feel like im done. I'm a software developer but i ended my business 3 months ago. I can't focus on work for more than couple of minutes, I can't stay in a conversation, I can't stand people whining and that made me feel like an object because I can't feel any emotions or anything at all. 5 minutes ago while I started writing this I felt 110/100 stress and now I feel 30/100.A sudden happiness out of blue for 5 mins and then all feel like hell. Its just so random and makes my life hard because I can't predict my stress levels it fucks up with my social life. What's the best thing to do here, I've refused medications because I think they're just evil and not fixing it, just a aid and root cause gets bigger by time and when you stop it just explodes. I got even more problems while withdrawing with them.
Sorry my english is 5th grade level

Hello! Ok. I’m a projector with splenic authority and a completely open sacral (no gates). I looove human design, it’s the only thing in my life that is clear. I also experience my splenic authority different from how people tend to describe it: I can hear it over and over, quite clearly, in its quiet, present, non-dramatic voice.
Deconditioning the open sacral… where to even start? All my life I’ve longed for energy, meditated on its mysteries, fallen asleep involuntarily most days but found deep sources of inspiration other days, tried to cling to those sources… etc. Sacral energy has been the holy grail of my life. I have coded it straightforwardly as a desirable virtue.
When I started studying HD, it still took a few months for me to realize that something was going on with my relationship to sacral energy, that I shouldn’t structure my life around pursuing it. I had a fascinating experience that I talk about on here a lot, of immediately applying what I knew of HD and being invited into a really fun and life-changing situation with a band full of manifesting generators. My spleen did tell me it was ok - it also told me to be sort of vigilant. My sacral was just blissed out though…
Anyway, what happens in bands? People bone. I ended up having this delightful chemistry with this manigeni dude, got the 34-20 personality sun/earth, got 59 defined to my doubly-defined 6, 7 centers defined as opposed to my two (he doesn’t have root or emotional, I only have root and spleen). The chemistry was overpowering and I was enjoying the balancing act of enjoying him without being overwhelmed until he confided in the group that his marriage was ending. Then it didn’t matter what my spleen or anybody said. We were making out pretty much immediately. I was on fire. I felt like a volcano. Almost feverish. I would have gotten physically sick just from the passion if I hadn’t practiced mindfulness. I can’t say it was pleasant. I can’t tell you what my spleen was saying. I was not about to listen.
Dude lives in another country - he was visiting for a year - when he got back he did get divorced btw so the next time he came he was single and a bit more open. This dumb motherfucker was high on a midlife crisis and said all kinds of stuff to me that hit my insecurities and open centers. No one has ever actually wanted to date me before. This dude was using the L word super fast, saying he wanted me to move to where he was, wanting to rent a house, etc
I knew he was in a midlife crisis and I also knew he was a Gemini sun Leo moon/rising so he was running his mouth and being romantic. I thought I knew better than to take him at his word. I knew we weren’t in love. But I really liked him, and I’ve got all these open centers, and also I want to move to Europe. The band got together a little tour in his hometown, and he wanted me to come stay with him as long as a tourist visa would allow. I opted to come for half that time, bc I have a dog at home… and he was saying he wanted me to be his Girlfriend, he was gonna show me off, his kids were gonna love me, all this stuff.
Y’all my spleen just said NO
I asked if he was the one 🥰 and my spleen said NO But we are perfect for each other on paper (open G talking)… maybe he could be the one?? NO OK…. Can we have a lot of fun sex though? Oh sure…
So I thought OK, cool, he’s not the final frontier but he clearly likes me a lot, we will have a fun romance, I’ll get one of these jobs (he’s super charismatic and his conscious sun is in the 4 line so as soon as he told his friends I was looking for work openings just dropped out of the sky), we will negotiate what our relationship is gonna be, I’ll get my European visa, play some cool music…
Ok. What I’ve found with the spleen is that when I ignore it, I think I’m “purchasing” something at the expense of something else. For example, say I ask if I should eat a milkshake and my spleen says no, but I really want the delicious taste of the milkshake so I figure my spleen is just warning me about calories or something. Then I get the milkshake and it’s like poisonous and I spend two days in the hospital. Like you don’t even get what you think you want. It’s not up to you. And I already had this learning experience.
Anyway, writing to you from this sleepy small city in Europe, in the fourth of six weeks of what has been one of the most painful emotional experiences of my life. This motherfucker was uncomfortable with me the moment I got off the plane, spent a few weeks triggering my deepest wound, and “broke up” with me three weeks in. Shit sucks. Hurts so much more than I thought it would, given I knew it wasn’t going to be a real thing. Have been almost delusional. Spleen is very quiet.
Before I came, I experienced sooooo much fear. It was so disproportionate to what i rationally understood the risks were. I wasn’t about to cancel my trip but I did try to change the ticket, to no avail. My spleen told me “Don’t get on the plane” but I was just not gonna ditch the band on their European tour.
Anyways, I won’t be ignoring my spleen anymore. Taking things a moment at a time. I feel profoundly disoriented and momentumless at the moment, but I knew better, man. Not just from my spleen. I just wanted my little romance!! (12th house Venus, but I also got libra sun and libra rising… I’ve never had a romance)
Also like the frontman of another band I play with died while I was away… idk it’s been horrible lol
Undefined center deconditioning is real… and you can’t bargain with the spleen. You can’t! NO CHOICE
I am still applying for the one job. It’s mine if I want it. My spleen is telling me to sit with the variables and feel them out… but it is giving me a hint, the hint isn’t what I want to hear but I know better than to fight it at this point. But I think considering the job deeply will be orienting.
Well, anyway, here’s to a life of improvisation.

I want to preface this by saying I don't mean to offend or be rude to anyone and this is just my thoughts. Of course, not every team black fan is like this, that is not what I'm saying.
So, as the title says I'm going to talk about the one-dimensional views team black fans have of team green.
I'm gonna talk about a few of the major show characters and events that team black thinks are just one clear thing.
I. Ser Criston Cole's hatred for Rhaenyra
The general consensus about Criston Cole is that he's still salty about Rhaenyra rejecting him so he wants to ruin her life. So, let's talk about the situation.
Let's just get one thing straight: Rhaenyra raped Criston.
So, Nyra goes back to the Red keep and tries to seduce Criston. It's very clear that Criston doesn't want to, he even tries to leave and Rhaenyra blocks him. She's laughing and seems to find It funny. Then, they have sex. (I know, this is a kind of bad description but I've never been goof at those)
A few of the arguments I see of this scene are:
"Criston was a grown man he could have moved her out of the way."
"He was smiling too and going along so it was consensual."
"Rhaenyra was a child, she couldn't have raped Criston, who was a grown man"
These are all problematic for multiple reasons.
First, let's talk about the power difference here. Nyra is a princess and Criston is the son of a steward. Nyra is the one who gives Criston his position and made him kingsgaurd(I also had an argument with this one person and they said that Nyra didn't make Criston Kingsgaurd, it was Viserys. I suppose he did, but Nyra chose Criston, and Viserys would have made anyone who Nyra chose into a kingsgaurd. So it's basically Rhaenyra who gave Crison his position). So Criston had no option to really refuse Nyra. Criston said it himself being a kingsgaurd is the only thing he has to his name. So when you think about that fact and the fact that Cole literally has nothing without Nyra, it become obvious that Cole would practically be forces into doing whatever Nyra says. Could he really say no to his boss and the person who gave him everything and could just as easily take it away? We have seen many times with Nyra acting arrogant and selfish, especially her younger self. That is apart of her character, people are supposed to acknowledge that(hell, Viserys even says it outright but no one likes him so they dont listen to him), but most see her as this feminist Icon that can do no wrong just bc she's a woman and she's "standing against the patriarchy"
Secondly, let's talk about the Argument that Criston could have just physically pushed her away: This kind of ties in with the power Nyra has over Cole. Criston could actually be killed for touching a princess or refusing her in general. So, could he really? Also the argument that it would actually harm Nyra to tell on criston is half wrong, she could say it was about something else and he pushed her away. Also, even if Cole tried to defend himself he would get killed( maybe by Viserys or Daemon bc they kill or threaten anyone who even remotely insults Rhaenyra...You could argue that Criston would be a Vaemond before the Vaemond thing happened) There's no winning for Cole. Not in any scenario.
I dont want this to be long so I'll stop it there but there's a lot of things I'm not saying, this is just the main thing.
2: "Alicent is not victim, Rhaenyra is"
I cannot begin to explain how angry I was when I saw this type of comment on tik tok.
They're both victims, but to say that one is a victim and one is not is just wrong. I also heard the argument that said "Alicent was a victim when she was younger but not anymore"....WHAT?????
That's just a disgusting thing to say. What are people even thinking?
Alicent has been manipulated, raped, groomed(Like Rhaenyra but ppl only seem to focus on Nyra being groomed and not Alicent) and much more. Alicent is a victim of everything wrong with westerosi society and its views on women. Her whole life is a prison, one that she can't escape.
Also, the whole thing with Nyra being mad at Alicent is very stupid. Alicent has explained many times that her father is not a good man and he will do horrible things to get what he wants. Nyra knows this. Sure, you could argue that Nyra was angrier about the fact that Alicent never told her but...would you? What would you even say? "Oh...my dad is forcing me to try and seduce your father, and now we might get married." 🙃
I went a little off topic but I'm back to Alicent being a victim.
And to say that Older Alicent doesn't deserve as much sympathy just because she knows now what type of person Rhaenyra is and the threat she poses to Alicents children, is disgusting. It's saying just because Alicent isn't trying anymore to be Rhaenyra's bestie means that she's more hateful. I would argue that Alicent should be a lot meaner to Nyra than she is, I sure would be horrible to the person whose very existence is a threat to my children's life.
BOTH ALICENTS ARE VICTIMS JUST LIKE BOTH RHAENYRA'S ARE VICTIMS!!!! Don't just look pat Alicents trauma and abuse just because you don't like her, it's OK to not like her, but to say that she isn't a victim and Rhaenyra is is just a horrible thing to say.
3: Aemond stole Vhagar
This is probably the one I'm most passionate about. I have seen many people from team black say this also, so it isn't really a one dimensional view, I just wanted to explain it to the people reading this that actually think Aemond stole Vhagar.
This will probably be the shortest one because it's just common sense that a lot of people don't seem to have.
A dragon cannot be stolen. A dragon claims the rider not the other way around.
And vhagar was never Rhaena's, she never tried to claim her. Also, this is also kind of Rhaena's fault for not claiming Vhagar. I know, Rhaena was mourning the death of her mother, claiming Vhagar probably wasn't on her mind. But then she can't really be mad at Aemond for using his one opportunity to claim a dragon when she had days to claim vhagar( it probably took days to get the funeral in order and other factors).
A dragon cannot be inherited.
Now, saying Aemond stole Vhagar would mean something totally different if Rhaena was actually bonded to vhagar and Aemond still tried to claim Vhagar and Vhagar actually chose Aemond instead of Rhaena(Im not sure if this could happen, I havent read the books and im only going off of shoe Canon. So please, dont go "Well in the books...." no. Im talking about the show, not the book). It would the make much more sense for the whole fight and argument to happen, but Rhaena never tried to claim Vhagar. Also, who's to say Vhagar wouldn't have burned Rhaena to a crisp if Rhaena tried to claim her? Vhagar wanted Aemond and she let Aemond claim her.
Also Aemond deserved better, both older and younger. I love them both but Older aemond is kinda like...a war criminal sooooooo.
I hope this makes sense. I'm kind of ranting so I didn't really thing about my grammar so don't judge if it's really bad. ALSO, I didn't look over this so, if I made a mistake please let me know(not with every single grammar mistake bc that's annoying)
I'll probably get a lot of hate for this if a lot of people end up seeing it but I said what I said.
BYE LUVS🥰

Apologies in advance for what will be a long post.
I am a 16yr old female who recently had a severe and intense flashback pertaining to sexual assault. Let me set the scene. My mother and I were in the car and she was about to drop me off at my sport - Brazilian jiu-jitsu. She casually mentioned, we'll call him fred, had been banned from county parks due to something about minors and sexual advances. I immediately had a blood chilling reaction, I felt like I was going to pass out, I went white as a sheet and felt nauseous. An extremely vivid image of disembodied hands on me came into my mind. But i knrw they were his. I went into practice and bawled my eyes out in the bathroom. For the life of me I could not tell why I was having such a visceral reaction. That happened roughly six months ago. As you may know BJJ is a high contact sport, I have had panic attacks a few times before, but after the incident with my mother they became an almost daily occurrence, brought on by positions in the sport where I felt trapped/out of control. I would also have flashbacks of the same one scene of disembodied hands on me.
Other important information. I knew Fred because he was the head of a program I volunteered at from the ages of 5-13. He was a father figure to me and we were very close.
I have very little memory of him, I had to look him up to remember what his face looked like. I knew we were close but did not actually have memories of doing things with him/ being close. I spent roughly 20hrs of my life each week volunteering and working with him, the fact I have no memories is very strange. I will also say that I know we spent a lot of time alone although I don't have memories of it.
Mentally I have had many issues, around the age of 10 I had severe anger issues they came on suddenly for no good reason. Eventually I learned to manage it. At 11ish I started self-harming from 12-14 I tried to commit suicide three times. I was extremely depressed since around 8. The self harming and suicidal attempts were not brought on by anything I can remember. However I would come home from volunteering so empty and sad I would self harm.
Physically, when I started my period it was spotty for months. When it became consistent I developed bad endometriosis. This may or may not be related but endometriosis is more common in sa survivors.
Since that first memory I have had several new flashbacks and when I see his face I cry. One thing I remembered is I used to have a reoccur nightmare of this person who sat high in a tree. They would come down and I couldn't move. Then they would start touching my thigh and I would feel a horrible pain in my stomach/yk where. This nightmare plauged me for years but somehow I had completely forgotten about it.
The panic attacks grew so bad my coach asked about them. My parents also confronted me and asked if Fred had sa me. I denied it while sobbing, I know they did not believe me. The panic attacks have gotten slightly better, but I don't know if I should tell my parents because I have no proof anything happened to me. Please help me

About 3 weeks ago I had a hearing test and was very surprised to find out I had some moderate and severe hearing issues. A few days later and I got my first hearing aids and after learning how to use them and take care of them, I had to walk to reception and I heard my shoes were squeaky.
My husband had been waiting in the car for me and when I got in and I told him “I have squeaky shoes!” He looks at me and says “you’ve never heard that before?“ To which I replied “NOPE!” He then told me that he hears my squeaky shoes coming down our hallway to our apartment and he knows I’m home.
It turns out my shoes are always squeaky!
I’m hoping this gave you little bit of a chuckle!

I live in a beach town and just bought our condo last year. We bought it at the same time as the people upstairs from us so no usage was established at the time. I have a decent relationship with the owners and believe they are respectable people. Last year everything with their rentals was fine… we dealt with regular floor noise that comes with being below them and only complained directly to the renters if it was excessive. This year it’s been so many young kids. The unit sleeps 6 but on MY cameras i often see anywhere from 7-10 kids with luggage and then tons of friends come through. They have to pass by my door to get upstairs. They have parties and run up and down the stairs all night. And just general jumping around. My problem is, I just don’t know if they know this is who they’re renting to because it’s so different from last year and I don’t want to insult them or for them lose money. We’ve had to tell two groups of kids so far to be quiet. I’ve never rented an Airbnb before.. what kind of info is required? Should I tell them what’s going on? They have cameras on the steps which I know they don’t check regularly or even if they’re on but I also don’t know what is allowed as far as cameras at an Airbnb. Do people rent for their kids and then just let the kids go? How strict is the verification process so you know who’s actually staying? It’s going to be a long summer if this keeps up. I’m just trying so hard not to screw them.

So this happened: My family (3 of us) recently lost our house in a mortgage. Bank sealed the asset and we left the house that day. Now a word of warning, my dad is a real mean monster and his sisters and brothers are of same category. We previously had a joint family and changed 2 houses as joint family and 1 house (recently lost) as single family. Now my dad continuously plots against me and my mother. He went so extreme that once last year, he locked us up from outside gate and also tried to break a lock with a hammer when we went out to some relative's house. So many troubles and trauma related to one person over past 10 years that its hard to note down all. To me, he is nothing less of a barbarian and worst person I could imagine. His family, his brothers and sisters are absolute garbage and they themselves have multiple cases against each other to sieze joint family property. But anyways.
Now to current matters, he recently tried to plot against us and blame us (me, my mom and her extended family) for the loss of mortgaged property whose value was above 1CR. One of his habits is trying to get advantage by bringing his allies (brothers and sisters) to our living space and threaten us randomly for anything. In connection to that, he did the same thing just yesterday. He leaves house saying I'm going out for x, y, z reasons and then he goes to his allies house to talk and badmouth about us, brainwash and gain support. So it happened, one of his really mean sister (age: 50+) came to our currently rented 2BHK home and started a huge chaos (both physical and verbal). She literally threatening us (me and my mom) with random BS and also actively pretending to be a victim. After a lot of chaos my father went out for some reason. Then she increased her rage even more and physically started to threaten us. Then when she physically moved forward to threaten us, I had to stop her from moving forward any more and forcibly kicked her out from our rented flat by pushing through the corridor. Few wooden support frames of bed were kept standing there because of less space due to immediate bank sealing of house. Because I pushed her out, she again played that victim card and moved herself towards the wooden frames. After doing so those frames fell off in her forehead and she got a scar with blood out. Our criminal lawyers repeatedly told my mother not to open gate for such evil people, never to allow anyone problematic inside. My mom violated lawyers advice on this matter. That evil monster then went out weeping creating a scenario in society. Now the society knows me and my mother very well and how well behaved we are and also completely aware of this situation since past 8 years. And finally she threatened me to set me and my mother in a false case. However I did video record the last few moments in a hurry. Just to note, the push wasn't too hard and is just a simple push and why that push happened was video recorded with eye witnesses too. To add to that, she was verbally badmouthing us before this incident in the most brutal and vulgar way possible. Now currently, she is spreading false rumour about this situation. Also she is a bangladeshi visitor, came from bangladesh for few days/week and IS NOT an Indian citizen. Also to note, such vulgar incidents happened multiple times before and I have sufficient digital evidence about the perpetrators, with me. 10 years worth of evidence and proofs all points to this vulgar father and his allies.
Now a false case can impact my career and future goals like moving out of country for academic or job purpose. I decided to move out of the city before or after bank auction in few weeks depending on situation. I want to move out with my mother. And I have an IT background and thinking of possible higher studies.
Need decent suggestions to safeguard my future and my mother entirely. After this current thing, I need some kind of legal protection as well or ideas on how to avoid such victim card and false case scenarios. Please help. Any further info if needed I can provide it in comment section.
Thanks and regards

I just wanted to make a positive post since it seems a lot of people are fuming. It’s your right to be mad; but I don’t really get it.
I think the last season was perfect. It really tackled a lot of heavy life topics and handled the theme of growth and change really well. So this is a long 100% positive review. Nothing is ever truly perfect but I think this season was pretty damn close.
Even if you didn’t like it; it made sense that Trent and Eleanor broke up at first because Trent felt that he was holding Eleanor back - we know Trent loves her and if you think you’re negatively impacting someone you love, letting go is a loving thing to do. Plus it gave El the space to figure herself out, so it was more meaningful when she decided to get back with him. Rather than her being with him just because.
I love the fact that they explored love for older women in Pati’s story line. You don’t stop loving, or stop having needs, or stop needing company just because you’re old. Also Nalani’s continued - moving on as a widow storyline; plus the powerful scene she had about letting her daughter go.
I know Kamala’s story line could have had more; but I think it was solid. I suppose some people wouldn’t understand unless you grow up in certain cultures. But sometimes you just become so invested in the family unit and thinking about your duty is to them, that you forget that you have your own life to pursue. Plus, because being an active participant in someone else’s life; distracts you from your own.
I love love loved Paxton’s story. Many people feel lost after graduation; and I like how it was explored and how he was able to see his situation clearer through Eric and with Lindsey. I know Daxton fans aren’t happy, but honestly, I like the fact that they had Paxton accept his role change as an adult and authority figure. IMHO it would have been weird for him and Devi to get together. I think they’re better as friends. I like the closure here.
Fab had a good storyline too. You can’t give up your opportunities for someone else. I also like how she didn’t ignore the issues in her club once it was brought to her attention.
Lastly, I was rooting for Benvi - so I obviously enjoyed the ending. But I love how they allowed Devi to show her growth and maturity first through the season before allowing them to get together. I also like how they allowed Ben and Devi to re-establish themselves as friends before jumping into romance. The pay-off was well worth it.

I’m moving to OH for grad school in ~one month if you’re interested in local trades there. Everything is in mint condition and OBO friendly.
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I'm a recent migrant to LA. from where I came from we respectfully follow the stated speed limits on the road signs and I noticed that LA drivers are not pleased by this. As I do not like to have a record at how much above limit can I push before I get arrested. Also with all the cameras on stoplights does LA practice contactless apprehension/ ticketing? Tips of playing around the speed limit in LA without pissing everyone will be very much appreciated. It just hard where to place myself in terms of the speed limit spectrum also I don't see the problem with going up to the speed limit it's not like we have wide open roads or less traffic to really go over them but a lot of drivers still going to honk or overtake for that millisecond they can get before all of us gets to a stop light

We're 1 month married. My partner is loving, caring, supportive, he checks off most of the boxes. Besides sometimes saying off the wall things <.< overall he is a really great guy.
At the same time, I'm realizing that we don't share a love/interest in searching for relational/self improvement knowledge/awareness. (This was one of my reservations towards marriage with him. He told me that all the things I wanted to do would happen...)
For example, I follow many many therapists and life coaches on IG, just striving to get better as a person, and a partner, and learn more about myself and the world around. I read often. I ask questions and self-reflect. And I fear my partner does not. He hasn't read a book in years and.. he doesn't follow the types of accounts to gain emotional education and for that reason we aren't able to exchange discoveries.
It makes me feel like a void is missing but it's not just within for the relationship, but not seeing him strive to improve himself as an individual and unlearn unhealthy stuff is concerning, because I genuinely thought everyone wanted to improve themselves.
All he really searches for is how to make money, the politics in his country, and soccer. Thats it. That's the content he consumes. Which isn't bad, but that's the ONLY content... I didn't think it'd be so important for me but I do care about what my partner engages in and doesn't.
He isn't opposed to any of it, I often share knowledge with him, but he doesn't put his part. Meaning, if I want us to do a couples retreat, or read a relationship book, or even just implement a cool new practice/ritual, I already know I will have to be the one to search for it, bring it up because he has no idea about any of that stuff. It doesn't fair because we're a team.. shouldn't we both be eager to gain this type of knowledge??
I do it anyway. I share knowledge, I send him posts on IG, I suggest books, i play podcasts out loud... I even had us download a relationship app, to make it more fun.. he wasn't consistent with it so I just stopped trying. I want the relationship to grow and it's exhausting putting in all the effort..
I feel ungrateful, because he isn't abusive, he cares for me and considering the ducked up stuff I read on here daily, I seem to have it pretty good...

I got black mold on my ceiling due to humidity and I was sleeping just under it and I had to smell that shit for 2 years before they fix it The smell was so unbearable I couldnt sleep if my window wasnt wide open even if it was raining idc I had to open it And a few months after that black mold start appearing I got hyperhydrosis and odor problem so is it just a coincidence or not? Its the only different thing that happen in my life between before having this and after
I always asked my doctors if this could be related but only about my hyperhydrosis (and they all said no) cauz at that time I tought the smell was from my sweat so I didnt even mention my odor problem during 6 years cauz I really tought it would disapear once the sweating problem fixed cauz they appear both almost if not at the same time as far as I remember but now that my sweat is "mostly" fixed like I wont sweat if Im at home doing nothing but I still smell as bad as before when my body would be contantly sweating
Like how many bacterias must I have inhaled from this black mold for over fucking 2 years before they finnaly fix it, I remember my mom had to threat them of stop paying rent for they really fix it cauz they sent people 2 times before to fix it but it was all bs
And I got tested tmau recently but its negative 🥲 and from the posts I saw here I asked my gastroenterologist skin test, gi test, whole exome sequencing test but ofc this bitch only gived me blood test for tmau like fuck why doesnt odor specialist exist, maybe I should have fake cry for she give me what I wanted?but im not a good actor anyway... Its not like its been ruining my life for the past 6 years and I hate when I clearly see the way they talk that they dont realise what its like to live with it so they dont do shit even tought the situation is critical like the only people I ve seen show compassion for my situation and really cared where 1 surgeron specialist in hyperhydrosis and another surgeron that also do surgery for hh because they have already seen patients with it and when the final solution is surgery for hh that mean it must be really bad so they know it ruin the patient life Thats why I need to see a doctor specialist in odor not random doctor so he can test everything that need to be tested but where can I find one? And one that do video consultation cauz I didnt see any odor specialist in my country

Hello, I hope this message finds you well. I am mainly self taught programmer. I did take about 2 semesters of programming in college and yes I graduated, but not with comp sci. I can do database design, binary data, python, php, javascript, html5, and css. I am familiar with NEW html browser apis and older ones. I have applied to many jobs local and not, but it seems they either want everything or nothing and no in betweens. Its hard to convince anyone of my skills based on my resume, since I"m mainly self taught and have never officially worked in IT before. I'm hoping my rate of pay is low enough to get a firm to give me a chance. I will work for $10 an hour and yes I do think it's worth it. I will never just take your money and do nothing, I will produce something that is working and tested. The reason I am looking for contractual work is because with a year long job offer or more, the requirements are usually higher, so I am willing to work in a freelance or consulting posiiton. Maybe you are already in the IT field and you need some help with your workload. I'm not pro cheating, but at this point I dont want to be homeless again so I'm willing to have an open mind when it comes to job offers. Anyways, I hope this message isn't a fool's errand but its already typed now. If I don't get any job offers I"m not going to be mad about it, I will go back to restaurant work. I've been doing this for years though, and I thought I'd try this avenue before I move, since this is my hometown.
I was working for $8 an hour about 2 years ago for one restaurant, but when I got a $10 an hour job at a different job, I put my notice in for that one. I"m only telling you to make you aware that my work ethic is not relevant to my rate of pay, no matter how much I could use the money. I've tried a lot of things including fiverr, linkedin, indeed, snagajob, and have been on several, several interviews, mostly for unskilled labor. I could never get an interview for anything IT related, too much competition I imagine.
I've applied for scholarship to the local colleges, but have been denied. I've actually been kicked out of local colleges and jobsites for trying to make my own appointment and show up asking for an interview in the future. I dont do that anymore. I've been to the TN for jobs office and have gone on several interviews there and still denied a job, one job wanted 70 hours per week for a jobsite that was in georgia and I could not get to on time.
Peace, love, and understanding

Hello fellow Apes,
I am supposed to be playing D4 with my kids but instead I am writing this post for you. It's ok. I'm having fun because I'm actually into talking about this shit. Anyway, I was inspired to write an explanation regarding other companies used of AI based on u/Sandro316 's reply from this post I made earlier https://www.reddit.com/CLOV/comments/144na72/the_reasons_why_big_names_are_linked_with_this/. I'm posting it here to we can highlight this topic, and the information doesn't get lost in the comments section.
The purpose of this post is to explain in laymen terms what these companies are doing in AI from the perspective of a healthcare administrator. A little bit about my background. I started out in healthcare research and did my fellowship at NIH. I have 13+ years of experience working at director and c level positions in healthcare and social services. I'm also a big computer geek, and I current have my staff working on an AI system so I can train staff faster and equip them with the skills to help clients/consumers/patients navigate the complex healthcare and social service systems that we have in California. With that said, let get started.
As a side note, I will make another post regarding the patents CLOV has which pertain to how its AI's is and will be functioning in the future.
Humana for example is mainly focused on improving the customer experience and streamlining administrative tasks
https://www.forbes.com/sites/neiledwards/2020/03/02/why-doesnt-your-healthcare-insurer-use-ai-like-humana-does/?sh=f6faed5608ea
This article is using a lot of big words to explain to you that they trying to build a system that mimic Kaiser and a automated call bot that will hopefully answer all of your questions. Here is a same quote
" Call Center Experience
Humana members call for many reasons: understanding a claim status, inquiring about benefits eligibility, placing orders for new or re-filled prescriptions or appealing a medical coverage decision.
The answers to these questions are stored in different information systems. The company uses artificial intelligence and intelligent automation to help bridge gaps between systems. The aim is a better call experience. "
This is just a small reduction of the current problem regarding claim processing. They are not giving providers a better tool to process claims faster and more accurately. They are just improving their call bot.
The rest of the stuff that was wrote in the article are just Humana trying to copy Kaiser's current system. IF you have Kaiser and appreciate how fast and seamless they make some process such as drug refill, you should get a rough idea of what Humana's AI is trying to achieve.
"United is a little closer to Clover with their optum subsidiary but it is mainly focused on improving patient outcomes by getting them care faster and with the right physician for their case."
https://emerj.com/ai-sector-overviews/artificial-intelligence-at-united-health/

• An AI-enhanced virtual assistant platform to collect patient data and offer customized solutions: UnitedHealth Group’s virtual assistance platform uses conversational AI and enhanced agents that reroute calls to sufficient internal resources, collect and classify patient information, and offer services that bring down costs and improve patient service experiences.

This is exactly what you think it is. They are creating an AI to hopefully understand patients and providers communication better so that they can route them to the appropriate people to process the claim. The reason why United is doing this way go back to the comments I made in my previous posts. They are a very old healthcare company that has a lot of money. However, because their system is so old and deeply rooted in their money making process, it is hard for them to build something like CA which can process treatment, make recommendation, and process the claim--"giving providers more time to treat patients instead of doing paperwork." Want to know what happen when a provider fuck up on their claim? They delay your treatment until the claim is approved by the insurance. This is what United System is trying to reduce with AI.
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• Developing a centralized data platform to improve patient outcomes: UnitedHealth Group’s resident tech-focused subsidiary, Optum, develops a platform that uses data analytics, NLP, machine and deep learning models to improve patient outcomes by predicting conditions and decreasing the cost of care.

This second part of their AI is exactly what CA is currently doing. While Optum and United are in development of a system that they still have to figure out how to integrate into their legacy system without causing catastrophic errors--CA is being used and has proven to improve healthcare outcomes and reduce cost (MCR). As a side note, if you think integrating, migrating, or switching to a new system is easy, just take a look at the shit show that is redetermination for Medi-caid that is currently going on. So many people are being dropped from Medi-caid and they don't even know it.
As for the rest of the article and the fancy words they used, it's fucking Kaiser. I'm sorry that I get annoyed, but whenever I read an article that used fancy words to trick laymen people, I get mad. I advocate for the people with 9th grade literacy, and this kind of shit are just describing Kaiser's system which is the current king of primary care if you haven't heard about it. Their system is used at the role model at so many meetings, it's not even funny. They have amazing coordinated care because they are the insurance and provider.
Anyway, next article..
"Oscar is again trying to improve outcomes by routing members to the correct place. Then also improve efficiency."
https://www.hioscar.com/deepdive/oscar-strategy
The AI being deploy here is to reduce the amount of fraudulent claims basically medical misuses. I'm actually very knowledgeable about Oscar, and they not investing in AI as much as they should. They are just improving their current system to detect bad claims and speed up the processing time.
In summary, CLOV's current competitors are trying to build AI on top of their current medical billing systems/platforms. Consequently, due to the limitation of those systems/platforms, they are not able to innovate as much as CA. By the end of the day, their system is still heavily reliant on a human being on insurance side to process the claim and another human being on the provider side to file the claim correctly.
This is very different than providing providers with the tools to
1) process claims
2) make recommendation on what claims (treatment) should be used based on the data from previous patients.
The big problem with health insurance companies now a day is they are so out of touch with the amount of time a provider need to invest into their staff to understand each company's process to file claims, reconciliation, out of network referral, and etc so they keep finding ways to make it easier for their staff while introducing a bunch of new rules and procedures that are not helping providers. Providers cannot provide services without authorization. Authorization should not require a fucking manual for every god damn insurance company. Ever wonder why you have to check whether your provider accept your insurance? What you are really checking is whether or not they are vendorized or are on the panel to bill the insurance company. Low payout and complicated procedures for processing claim and vendorization are barriers to care.
The only company that even come close to CLOV is United and they are still in development. CLOV's AI is live with multiple patents. https://www.reddit.com/CLOV/comments/144pi0m/clover_health_54_patents_from_2018_to_2023/
The best analogy I can give here to compare Tesla (pre-big-ass company) to GM during the EV1 era. GM made the first electric car and was much bigger than Tesla. Tesla was testing out it's battery powered roadster. However, Tesla had years to test out building their car, battery, and production line.
While CLOV is working on testing and proving the profitability of its AI, other companies are just in the process of developing them. Some of them aren't working on it at all.
Before I forgot, all of the healthcare company mentioned above are basically trying to reduce their turnaround time for when a claim is submitted for both new and prior authorization.

For decades, the writer Gabriel Matzneff used Francesca Gee's image and letters to champion his sexual pursuit of adolescents. But her own account was rejected, until now.
March 31, 2020
PARIS—In her telling, Francesca Gee was out with a girlfriend, a late autumn day in Paris in 1983, when they spotted a new bookstore. As they lingered before the storefront, her friend suddenly pointed to the bottom of the window.
"Look, it's you!"
Ms. Gee's face was staring back at her from the cover of a novel, Drunk on Lost Wine, by Gabriel Matzneff, the writer and champion of [child and adolescent sexual abuse].
A decade earlier, at 15, Ms. Gee, had gotten involved in a traumatic three-year relationship with the much older Mr. Matzneff. Now, he was using her teenage face on his novel's cover, and her letters in its pages, without having asked her or even informing her, she said.
For decades, despite Ms. Gee's protests, Mr. Matzneff used her letters to justify [adolescent sexual abuse] and what he cast as great love affairs with teenage girls, all the while supported by members of France's literary, media, business and political elite.
Mr. Matzneff's books were endorsed by some of France's most prestigious publishers, including Gallimard, which printed Drunk on Lost Wine (Ivre du vin perdu) for nearly four decades with the same cover—in effect using Ms. Gee's face to promote the kind of relationship that has scarred some of Mr. Matzneff's victims for life.
"I'm persecuted by this image of me, which is like a malevolent double," Ms. Gee said.
Hers is the story of a woman unable to tell her own story—until now.
Ms. Gee, now 62, contacted The New York Times after the publication of an article that described how Mr. Matzneff openly wrote about and engaged in sex with teenage girls and prepubescent boys for decades.
After anguishing over her decision, Ms. Gee—who had a career as a journalist and speaks fluent English, French, Italian and Spanish—broke her silence of 44 years in a series of interviews over two days in southwest France, where she lives.
That decision was facilitated by a recent cultural shift in France.
Mr. Matzneff first achieved renown in the 1970s, when some French intellectuals regarded [adult-child sex] as a form of liberation against parental oppression. Though those views fell out of favor in the 1990s, he continued to publish and prosper until late last year.
But in the past couple of months, he was charged with promoting the sexual abuse of children, stripped of state-conferred honors and dropped by his three publishers.
Gallimard stopped selling the novel with Ms. Gee's image on the cover only in January, after the publication of Le Consentement (Consent), the first account by one of Mr. Matzneff's underage victims, Vanessa Springora.
Consent turned the widely celebrated Mr. Matzneff into a social pariah overnight. While he went into hiding in Italy, his former supporters, across France's elite, have studiously distanced themselves or jettisoned him.
When she first heard of Consent, Ms. Gee said, she was "elated" that the "Vanessa" in Mr. Matzneff's books—someone she had never met but had always considered a little sister—was speaking.
"She has done the work, I don't have to worry about it anymore," Ms. Gee remembers thinking. "But then within a week or two, I realize that I'm very much a part of this story."
In fact, nearly two decades before Consent shook up France, Ms. Gee tried—unsuccessfully—to tell her story, in 2004. She wrote a manuscript that, in detailing her involvement with Mr. Matzneff, grappled with some of the same themes and used the same vocabulary as Consent.
But no publisher accepted her manuscript.
At Albin Michel, a major house, an editor appeared receptive—but when he took Ms. Gee's manuscript to a committee, it was ultimately turned down.
In a rejection letter, the editor, Thierry Pfister, explained that some committee members had expressed reservations, noting that Mr. Matzneff, was a part of "Saint-Germain-des-Prés"—shorthand for the French publishing industry concentrated in that Paris neighborhood.
"Back then, Matzneff wasn't the old, isolated man he is today," said Mr. Pfister, who is no longer at Albin Michel. "He was still in Paris with his network, his friends."
"We made the decision not to go cross swords with that group," he recalled. "There was more to lose than to gain. I spoke in her favor. They didn't agree with me."
Mr. Matzneff's network of supporters was surprisingly wide.
In 1973, when Ms. Gee was 15 and Mr. Matzneff was 37, a friend of the writer introduced them to a gynecologist who agreed to prescribe contraceptive pills to underage girls without their parents' authorization—an illegal act back then.
In his diary of the period, Élie et Phaéton, Mr. Matzneff writes that the gynecologist, Dr. Michèle Barzach, "at no point felt the need to lecture this man of 37 years and his lover of 15."
Ms. Gee said she saw Dr. Barzach a half-dozen times over three years, always accompanied by Mr. Matzneff.
"He calls her and makes an appointment, and we go," she recalled. "He's in the waiting room while I'm with her. And then he comes in, and they talk and he pays her."
In his other diaries, Mr. Matzneff writes that Dr. Barzach became the go-to gynecologist to whom he took underage girls for years after he and Ms. Gee parted in 1976.
Dr. Barzach, who was also a psychoanalyst, was France's health minister from 1986 to 1988 under President François Mitterrand.
From 2012 to 2015, she was the head in France of UNICEF, the United Nation's child protection agency. Citing privacy reasons, UNICEF refused to provide contact details for Dr. Barzach, who is no longer at the agency. Dr. Barzach did not reply to an interview request that UNICEF said had been forwarded to her.
"Love"? Or a "Hostage Taking"?
For decades, Mr. Matzneff claimed that his relations with underage girls had helped them for the rest of their lives. Their initiation into art, literature, love and sex, by an older man, had left them happier and freer, he claimed.
The claim—repeated by his supporters—went unchallenged until the publication in January of Consent, in which Ms. Springora writes that her involvement with Mr. Matzneff, starting at age 14, left her with psychological problems for decades.
In her unpublished manuscript of 2004, Ms. Gee described her involvement with the writer as a "cataclysm that shattered me when I was 15 years old, and that changed the course of my life"—leaving her "ashamed, bitter and confused."
The accounts by Ms. Gee and Ms. Springora are especially significant because Mr. Matzneff has often described them as two of the three great loves of his life. He devoted diaries, novels, poems and essays to each woman—material that, according to anti-[child sexual abuse] groups, provided the intellectual cover for many men to target prepubescent children or adolescent girls.
Ms. Gee recalls running into Mr. Matzneff for the first time in Paris in 1973 with her mother, who had known him years before.
David Gee, Ms. Gee's younger brother, said their parents regularly invited the writer over for dinner parties. His presence especially pleased their father, a British journalist long based in Paris who sought his place in French society.
"It was one of those very important things, socially speaking, to be established in the intelligentsia," Mr. Gee said. "That was more important than looking at the side effects of [child and adolescent sexual abuse]."
With her father's approval, Ms. Gee saw the writer over three years, unable to break away from him. Ms. Gee's father died in 2014.
Using the same methods he later would with Ms. Springora, Mr. Matzneff exercised a hold on the teenage girl. He isolated her, forbidding her to socialize with friends her age.
He pulled political strings to have Ms. Gee transferred to a high school near his home—and boasted about it in his diaries. Then he got into the habit of waiting for Ms. Gee outside her new high school, Lycée Montaigne, next to the Luxembourg Gardens.
"He came every day to make sure that everyone understood that no one was supposed to try anything with me," Ms. Gee recalled. "It was a very specific place where he was just standing there waiting for me."
Ms. Gee recently met with one of the detectives who began investigating Mr. Matzneff and his supporters in the aftermath of the publication of Consent. After she detailed her involvement with Mr. Matzneff during the five-hour meeting in Paris, she said, the detective described it as a "hostage taking."
Trapped in His Stories
Ms. Gee turned 18 in 1976 and, after several anguished attempts, was finally able to free herself from Mr. Matzneff's grip, having become more and more critical of him. "It was growing up, basically," she said.
Still, she would remain hostage for decades—trapped in his storytelling and his use of her letters.
Encouraged by Mr. Matzneff, Ms. Gee had written him hundreds of amorous and sexually explicit letters during their three years together.
Some of them he published in 1974, without her authorization, in his fierce defense of [child and adolescent sexual abuse], Les moins de seize ans (Under 16 Years Old). He was offering those letters, he wrote in another book, Les passions schismatiques, as evidence that "a relationship of love between an adult and a child could be for the latter extremely rich, and the source of a fullness of life."
Ms. Gee said the words in the letters were those of a teenager manipulated by a man the age of her parents. Her letters were also used in Ivre du vin perdu, the novel whose cover featured an illustration of her.
"Now I consider they were extorted and used as a weapon against me," Ms. Gee said.
In her manuscript, Ms. Gee writes that "he used me to justify the sexual exploitation of children and teenagers."
For years, Ms. Gee's feelings about her experience with Mr. Matzneff were "muddied." Then in the early 1990s, her understanding became clearer.
"It was only when I was almost 35 years old that I realized this wasn't a love story," Ms. Gee recalled.
It was in 1992 that she contacted Mr. Matzneff, demanding that he stop using her letters and that he return them to her. Eventually, he sent her a photocopied stack—a carefully selected batch that excluded her negative correspondence.
A decade later, in 2002, it was Mr. Matzneff who wrote to her, asking, for the first time, her permission to use old photographs of her in a book. In the turquoise blue ink that he always used to pen his letters, Mr. Matzneff offered to identify the teenager as "the young girl who inspired the character of Angiolina in Ivre du vin perdu."
Not only did Ms. Gee refuse, but she also demanded again that his books be purged of her letters and that her face be taken off the cover of Ivre du vin perdu. She also demanded that three old photographs of her be taken off a website devoted to Mr. Matzneff and created by an admirer, Frank Laganier. The photos were pulled only seven years later, in 2010, after Ms. Gee's continued pressure, she said.
Mr. Laganier, who is now living in Paris, declined interview requests. His lawyer, Emmanuel Pierrat—who is representing Mr. Matzneff in a [promotion of child sexual abuse] case and is a longtime supporter of the writer—declined to be interviewed.
In 2004, Ms. Gee began preparing to sue Gallimard, the publisher of Ivre du vin perdu, and La passion Francesca, Mr. Matzneff's diary of their relationship, but stopped because of the high legal costs. Gallimard did not respond to interview requests; Antoine Gallimard, the head of the publishing house, did not respond to an interview request sent to his email address.
Unable to stop Mr. Matzneff, Ms. Gee also could not tell her own story.
After her manuscript was rejected by Albin Michel, she took it, unsuccessfully, to several other publishing houses.
Geneviève Jurgensen, who was an editor at Bayard and met with Ms. Gee in 2004, said the manuscript's focus was not in line with Bayard, which specialized in publishing youth books, as well as works on philosophy and religion.
Ms. Jurgensen, after recently reading excerpts from the manuscript, described it as "well written" and containing "situations that seem almost word for word those described by Vanessa Springora."
"Obviously, it wasn't the quality of the book that was the issue," Ms. Jurgensen said of Ms. Gee's failure to find a publisher in 2004. "Clearly, it was 15 years too early. The world wasn't ready yet."
The final rejection came from Grasset, the very same publisher that broke a taboo by issuing Ms. Springora's Consent in January.
Martine Boutang, an editor at Grasset, remembers being moved by Ms. Gee's account, she said, but couldn't see a way to get it published: the subject was "too sensitive," and two members of Grasset's editorial committee were "close to Matzneff."
"The question wasn't the quality of the text," she said.
Ms. Gee recalls feeling that Ms. Boutang was trying to stall the project by asking her to rework a manuscript that she had no intention of publishing. Ms. Boutang said she did not remember asking for a rewrite.
By contrast, Mr. Matzneff had no problems continuing to get his writings published—including Under 16 Years Old, the book that used Ms. Gee's letters to justify [adult] sex with underage girls.
Whose Story?
In a recent interview in the Italian Riviera, where he has been hiding, Mr. Matzneff said that if Ms. Gee "called me tomorrow, I would be delighted to see her."
Ms. Gee would be delighted if she could stop being reminded of him. In a book published last November, more than four decades after she left him, Mr. Matzneff mentioned her no fewer than a dozen times. Ms. Gee herself is now working on a new manuscript on the writer.
Over the years, unexpected incidents have sometimes reminded her that she remains a prisoner inside Mr. Matzneff's story.
A few years ago, she found herself waiting outside the Lycée Montaigne, her old high school, which her niece Lélia was now attending.
"I wait for her where Matzneff used to wait for me," Ms. Gee recalled.
Over lunch, her niece, a literature student, told her that she was "working on a contemporary author called Gabriel Matzneff."
That's how Lélia, who is now 25, learned that the books she had been reading described a "family history," she says. To this day, she says, she had talked little with her aunt about her days with Mr. Matzneff.
"Most of what I know about all of this comes from Gabriel Matzneff, and not my aunt," she said. "And that's exactly where the problem lies."

Reddit Username: PlumpPhoenix
Discord Name: plumpphoenix
Name and House: Torrhen Hornwood
Age: 21
Cultural Group: Northerner (First Men)
Religion: Old Gods
Appearance: Torrhen has short dark brown hair that is at most ear length, and is clean shaven. He is of average height but has a robust build. He is very much a warrior. He is slightly darker than the average Northman, a tan that was obtained over his years as a sellsword in Essos. He has dark gray eyes that are prototypical of a Northman. He dresses simply, wearing furs and leathers with little adornment to them. The only symbol on his clothing is that of his house, that of the bull moose. Even then, the adornment is small in size.
Trait: Strong
Skill(s): One-Handed Swords (e), Two-Handed Weapons (e), Riding , Vanguard (e), Tactician
Talent(s): Games (Board/Card), Gardening, Cooking
Negative Trait: N/A
Starting Title(s): Lord of the Hornwood
Starting Location(s): White Harbor (changed this on advice of another player)
Alternate Characters: N/A
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Bio:
Torrhen Hornwood was born the last of four children to Lord Jorah Hornwood and Lady Alys Glover. His elder siblings in order of birth are Beron Hornwood, Alaric Hornwood, and Alarra Hornwood. As the third-born son and the youngest in the family, it was generally expected that he would not inherit into any lands or holdings. In most other families, it would have been likely that Torrhen would have received a lord’s education from a Maester before going off to find his own destiny and life. However, Lord Jorah Hornwood was a man who was a meticulous planner, and assigned every child’s destiny to them shortly after birth. He had dreams of making House Hornwood a house of great repute and renown, and wished each child of his to form a part of a greater whole. Therefore, Beron Hornwood, as the eldest, was specifically trained to be the lord’s heir, to be a master of diplomacy and intrigue, to charm and to impress. Alaric, the lord’s spare, was educated in numbers and administration, so that he would serve as his brother’s steward and principle advisor. Alarra was raised to be the perfect lady, so that she might help to forge a marriage alliance with another noble house. Finally, Torrhen was raised to be a soldier, so that he might server as the master-at-arms and lead his brother’s armies. Although his father had his plans, he could be cruel in crushing his children’s other interests and hobbies.
As such, when it came to skill at arms, although all the sons received some training, it was Torrhen who was deemed the primary focus of the master-at-arms instruction, and worked in a brutal regime, drilling for hours each day every day. He was additionally brought up learning military strategy and tactics, and studying ancient battles from before and after the Conquest. He did learn what would be considered an acceptable education for a noble in numbers and letters from the Maester, but beyond that his father demanded that Torrhen focus on martial skills. This decision did not disappoint Torrhen, as he largely did not really care about nor have any particular talent or gift for numbers and administration.
He was not particularly close with any of his brothers or sister, in part due to an 6 year age gap between the younger two siblings and himself, and also due to a difference in upbringing, as the other three siblings were educated together largely under the care of the Maester, whereas Torrhen was largely educated out in the field. The only member of his family with whom he was close to was his mother, who secretly taught Torrhen how to garden, as such a hobby was considered by Lord Jorah Hornwood to be beneath Torrhen. On his 14th name day, Torrhen was given a fine crafted bastard sword as a gift and has subsequently used that blade in every battle and fight he has been in.
In 195 AC, when Torrhen came of age, Lord Jorah Hornwood announced that Torrhen would depart for Essos at once, where he would take up residency and arms among the Ragged Standard, so that he would further hone his martial skills in genuine live combat. All the necessary arrangements had been made, and Torrhen departed that evening. Whilst overseas fighting in the Disputed Lands, he became familiar with foreign cultures and developed an interest in them. During this time, he became acquainted with various board and card games that were frequently played among sellswords, and was halfway decent at them. He additionally began to learn the basic tenets of cooking, after he grew tired of eating the same gruel that the Ragged Standard called food. This skill came particularly useful during a difficult campaign in the Disputed Lands, where the sellswords of the Ragged Standard were forced to consume rats and insects to survive. However, life was not all perfect in the Hornwood. In 198 AC, Beron Hornwood disappeared without a trace one evening. Servants had opened his chamber door to find the bed neatly made and empty, with no evidence of any struggle. None of the guards had seen him depart and to this day his disappearance remains a mystery. When Lord Jorah sought to recall his second son, Alaric, home from the Free Cities where he was being educated more deeply in numbers, the ship that was carrying Alaric was destroyed in a storm and sank without even seeing White Harbor. In the face of many of his sons dying and his lifelong established plans being torn asunder, Lord Jorah died in a fit of rage.
The news of Lord Jorah and his two elder brother’s deaths only reached Torrhen in 200 AC, when he had returned to Lys after a final campaign in the Disputed Lands. Upon finding out the news, he chartered a ship to White Harbor, where he expects to assume his duties as the Lord of the Hornwood.
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Timeline:
179 AC - Torrhen Hornwood is born the fourth child of Lord Jorah Hornwood and Lady Alys Glover
183 AC - Torrhen begins learning the basics of gardening from his mother
185 AC - Torrhen begins his training in arms with the Master-at-Arms of the Hornwood
193 AC - Torrhen is gifted his bastard sword
195 AC - Torrhen departs Westeros to join the Ragged Standard and engage in combat in the Disputed Lands
197 AC - Torrhen distinguishes his skill as a commander and fighter in a difficult campaign while in the Disputed Lands.
200 AC - After returning from campaign, Torrhen discovers the news about his father and brothers and opts to return to Westeros and the North.
200 AC - Torrhen arrives in White Harbor. Present Day.
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Hornwood Family Tree
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NPCs
Alarra Hornwood: (Archetype: Castellan) Alarra is not considered a comely nor homely woman and is tall and strong, taller than Torrhen. She wears her dark brown hair with braids and it flows down to her shoulders. She possesses intelligent dark gray eyes, and has a mind suitable for administration and numbers. She enjoys wearing subtle grays and whites as color in her clothing, and wears slightly more elaborate clothing, such as fine linens and silks.
Lady Alys Glover: (Archetype: Trader) Lady Alys, the mother of Alarra and Torrhen, is still alive. She has black hair that has begun to gray, and has brown eyes that are soft. Despite her age, she still possesses a strength in her posture and eyes. She is a woman of average height and build. She dresses similar to her daughter, but wears more reds and grays in the color of her house.
Maester Walder: (Archetype: Medic) The Maester assigned to serve the Lord of the Hornwood. He is a man of middle age, with a slight receding hairline of gray hair.